hello sweetie I just thought I would see how your doing tonite ... ARE you feeling more like you are wanted because we really care about all here ... ive been on and off pills for 8 years and now 3 months or less more I dont count no more... I just welcome the new day sober....and you what your story I would like to hear it .....theres alot of good teachers here and alot of bad days for people ,,,but that addicts changing there life and we all change has we get well some get sad happy lonely furstrated empty our good friend is gone thats the pill rite good freind no no .....and we get left with a empty feeling we are so used to taking a pill for alot of things and when its gone we think we are left with nothing BUT our life just be gone.... I do things I thought I could only do with pills oooooooooooo boy each day I do more and more without the pills.... and find me has mt own best freind you will see ...well post to me I would love dear to my sweet poste love poopie
IM so sorry I missspelled your name ooooooooooooo goush how embraassing.. sorry sweetie its gag not gay oo my sorry love poopie
Hello,poopie
How r u?I just got out the bed and trying to wait until lunch before i take my first dose of sub.My story is like this...
In 2000 i started haveing back pain my doctor started giveing my the pers. started with 30 then 60 and 90 monthly.It was 2 years before she sent my for a mri and i have 2 blogen dic. diugintle dic. disese and right leg nerve damage.Anyway i was takeing them for pain then my mom got sick not long after i started taken them.I was running about 1 hour and 20 mins 5 days to treatment she had cancer.I had to come back bring her home and get to work by 3pm.I started takeing them for energy i got off at 10pm of the 4 days during the week i work then i work every sat. and sun. I had to get up at 6 am get the kids to school.And my day started all over again.I have 3 brothers they didnt help me with this any.So at one point she was in remission for about 6 months.Then went back and it was even worst.All this was from 2000 until feb. 2004.She was sent from the hospital to my home to pass and they sent hospice out to help.Hospice kept trying to get me to put her in the hospice home.They said you cant keep doing this.I told them i was ok and could handle it.I remember they sent the head man out to talk to me.He said you dont know what you are going to go through when she gets worst and it happens.Anyways she didnt sleep much at all from feb. until she passed .It was the worst thing ive ever been through and i took the pills like every 15 mins to an hour . It was to keep me going,help my depression,and anzity.
I thought when she was gone i could handly my addiaction.I was wrong.I do have back pain and even more when she was here i had to lift her and drag her back in the bed and she would kick me she was stong to only weight 68pds then.I have been dealing with depresion and the pers. help with that.Like you said we use it to block out our feelings and ect....I was on 15 to 20 a day i was hurting my family.I could not do all that i use to do.The pills had got to where they did nothing for me at all.I could have a hole bottle here and still felt i couldnt do anything.They just keep me from going into w/ds.I didnt know what to do where to turn.I didnt want to leave my family go into rehab.I dont let my kids stay with anyone except his parents and they are not able to take care of them.I kept looking for quick fixes.Started doing a little coke, pot,ice,it wasnt long i said i cant do that anymore i could end up hooked on all that too.So ive been looking on the web for help and the drugs methodone,sub, any that are out to help addiaction.Finally i found my sub. doctor and money was a matter cause i done use alot of bill money buying my pills off the street.But, i took the next weeks pay went to see the sub. doctor he gave me the run around until my 3 vists.So i got into det even more.Sub. has been great i just hope i dont have a problem getting off it.Well,there you are my story of hell.....
I want to say im sorry for the post yersday its just everytime i have come on i didnt receive much help at all...Im still here ...So whats your story?I'll be around for awhile today...Take care...crystal
How r u?I just got out the bed and trying to wait until lunch before i take my first dose of sub.My story is like this...
In 2000 i started haveing back pain my doctor started giveing my the pers. started with 30 then 60 and 90 monthly.It was 2 years before she sent my for a mri and i have 2 blogen dic. diugintle dic. disese and right leg nerve damage.Anyway i was takeing them for pain then my mom got sick not long after i started taken them.I was running about 1 hour and 20 mins 5 days to treatment she had cancer.I had to come back bring her home and get to work by 3pm.I started takeing them for energy i got off at 10pm of the 4 days during the week i work then i work every sat. and sun. I had to get up at 6 am get the kids to school.And my day started all over again.I have 3 brothers they didnt help me with this any.So at one point she was in remission for about 6 months.Then went back and it was even worst.All this was from 2000 until feb. 2004.She was sent from the hospital to my home to pass and they sent hospice out to help.Hospice kept trying to get me to put her in the hospice home.They said you cant keep doing this.I told them i was ok and could handle it.I remember they sent the head man out to talk to me.He said you dont know what you are going to go through when she gets worst and it happens.Anyways she didnt sleep much at all from feb. until she passed .It was the worst thing ive ever been through and i took the pills like every 15 mins to an hour . It was to keep me going,help my depression,and anzity.
I thought when she was gone i could handly my addiaction.I was wrong.I do have back pain and even more when she was here i had to lift her and drag her back in the bed and she would kick me she was stong to only weight 68pds then.I have been dealing with depresion and the pers. help with that.Like you said we use it to block out our feelings and ect....I was on 15 to 20 a day i was hurting my family.I could not do all that i use to do.The pills had got to where they did nothing for me at all.I could have a hole bottle here and still felt i couldnt do anything.They just keep me from going into w/ds.I didnt know what to do where to turn.I didnt want to leave my family go into rehab.I dont let my kids stay with anyone except his parents and they are not able to take care of them.I kept looking for quick fixes.Started doing a little coke, pot,ice,it wasnt long i said i cant do that anymore i could end up hooked on all that too.So ive been looking on the web for help and the drugs methodone,sub, any that are out to help addiaction.Finally i found my sub. doctor and money was a matter cause i done use alot of bill money buying my pills off the street.But, i took the next weeks pay went to see the sub. doctor he gave me the run around until my 3 vists.So i got into det even more.Sub. has been great i just hope i dont have a problem getting off it.Well,there you are my story of hell.....
I want to say im sorry for the post yersday its just everytime i have come on i didnt receive much help at all...Im still here ...So whats your story?I'll be around for awhile today...Take care...crystal
Hi Crystal,
I am Tina. I am not on sub but lots of other meds trying to taper off. I wanted u to know y r a hero to last that long in a war u could not win. She was so greatful and blessed to have you as a daughter. I am very proud of ul
My dad died of cancer also and it is a horrible thing to go through. I started taking more meds when he was ill, because my best friend my little sister was killed n a car wreck in 1990 and my dad who I was closest to died n 1993. I know it was along time ago, but trust me u never forget. One day your brothers will regret it but u won't. U r a strong person and stood the course.
I usually post on the pain board or other presc. drugs but I am here everyday.
I read your story and fell so for u. God has something special planned for u girl.If you would like to talk or talk private JTRCHEAD@BELLSOUTH.net. Much love to u and I hope for the best doc in town.
Loveya,
Tina I post under Kyra as my screen name
I am Tina. I am not on sub but lots of other meds trying to taper off. I wanted u to know y r a hero to last that long in a war u could not win. She was so greatful and blessed to have you as a daughter. I am very proud of ul
My dad died of cancer also and it is a horrible thing to go through. I started taking more meds when he was ill, because my best friend my little sister was killed n a car wreck in 1990 and my dad who I was closest to died n 1993. I know it was along time ago, but trust me u never forget. One day your brothers will regret it but u won't. U r a strong person and stood the course.
I usually post on the pain board or other presc. drugs but I am here everyday.
I read your story and fell so for u. God has something special planned for u girl.If you would like to talk or talk private JTRCHEAD@BELLSOUTH.net. Much love to u and I hope for the best doc in town.
Loveya,
Tina I post under Kyra as my screen name
Hello sweetie.. o boy what a time of it you had ... my story is nothing like yours IM so very sorry dear... you been throw alot and your strenght is owsome.... your something esle.... and getting on sub is great.. how are you feeling now?I have to go to work so I will post to you later about me ok .... thankyou for posting sweetie..... your going in the rite path .....love poopie....so nice to meet you....................
