Just wondering whether anyone out there could give me some advice or should I say some exp, strength and hope on my problem? I have been going to AA now for about 9 months now, I just recently ask a lady to be my sponser and I'm terrified to tell her that I've been on methadone now for almost 18 months.I'm now weening down slowly trying very hard to get off this horrible stuff, I want to be drug free but I know I can't rush it.I'm afraid she won't understand and really judge me harshly and then if she does she may even go tell other's not that it really matter's but I think that would be wrong.
I chose her because she seem's real so it may be me being paranoid,but I feel I need to be honest about everything in my life. what do you guy's and gal's think?
I say be honest sweetie.. If she doesn't like and respect your honesty or has a problem with it then maybe she shouldn't be your sponser anyway,ya know... You are going to need ALL the love,support and understanding as you can get to get off and stay clean.I know I have been clean from methadone for about 2 years now but I used for 2/2 years and it was a horrible overall experience for me..Not just the horrible withdrawl I went through but the mental part of it,etc.... Be honest and get the help you'll need.. Good luck to you!! Rae
I agree with rae. Just be honest..I have found that even though it sucks, it makes you feel so much better. Good luck...
Kerry
Kerry
I agree also.To tell the truth would be better for your recovery...mj
Jennie,
Honesty is always the best way to go. I am willing to bet that when you do tell her, she will go one of two ways, away, or closer to you. Either way, having that kind of secret is bound to eat away at you. I am on Methadone for my pain level, but I did use it for recovery and treatment not too long ago, and my sponsor was aware of it, and she is wonderful. I have had to move up my dosage with my medical issues, but I am still going to meetings, and I am doing a 90 in 90 right now due to a relapse not too long ago.
The choice is ultimately yours, but you will feel so much better when all is out on the table. You might be really surprised at the outcome. I will pray for you, and I wish you the best.
God Bless,
Lady M
Honesty is always the best way to go. I am willing to bet that when you do tell her, she will go one of two ways, away, or closer to you. Either way, having that kind of secret is bound to eat away at you. I am on Methadone for my pain level, but I did use it for recovery and treatment not too long ago, and my sponsor was aware of it, and she is wonderful. I have had to move up my dosage with my medical issues, but I am still going to meetings, and I am doing a 90 in 90 right now due to a relapse not too long ago.
The choice is ultimately yours, but you will feel so much better when all is out on the table. You might be really surprised at the outcome. I will pray for you, and I wish you the best.
God Bless,
Lady M
Jennie-
One of the most important things in AA/NA is "rigorous honesty." If I were you, I would definitely be upfront and tell your sponsor. You will be glad you did down the line in your recovery. Your sponsor will like others have said, either be cool about it and still work with you or walk away. If she does, dont worry about it, there are a lot of great sponsors out there, you just have to find them.
Good luck, Jennie!!
Jack
if u are definitely getting off of methadone, & working on it, then maybe be honest... maybe feel it out. i dont care what anyone says, most of these na people have no tolerance whatsoever when it comes to methadone maintenance & might push u toward something u r not ready for. dont tell her just to tell her. thats one of the things i dont like about na, they can be very intolerant if u dont fit their mold, almost as bad as born again dcotrine, where they are the only ones right.
I must aggree that honestly is the best policy, she's your sponcer , she, out of all people should & will understand!, i know its hard for you but look its your oblagation to tell her hun, so please do, it wont be that bad, i promise. look try telling your sponcer that you hade been using and lying to her about being sober and i had been using, " the whole time"!!!, that was me and i told and she stuck around, but was disappionted in me and was really pissed for a while, but i do not blame her at all, i just god that she stuck around.....
Lesson Learned, my friend, a "BIG LESSON" in deed!, take care and i hope it all works out for you, it will just be honest... thats all they ask for , thats all anyone asks for.....
Lesson Learned, my friend, a "BIG LESSON" in deed!, take care and i hope it all works out for you, it will just be honest... thats all they ask for , thats all anyone asks for.....
I went to my first AA meeting on Sunday and the first thing I said was that I wasn't clean yet.... I know most people there were off of alcohol/drugs already, but I wanted everyone to know this is a battle I am still fighting. I didn't want to lie because part of my addiction that has been the worst has been the lying. I think honesty is the best policy and if they aren't accepting, then find a new place to go.
