Your sharing of a very personal story helped someone today. That someone was me. I have tears in my eyes that we live in such a f***ed up world, that even when you reached out to better yourself, there is still always a predator in the waiting.
I am also a victim scratch that, SURVIVOR of a ghb soul stealing event. I was a teenager when it happened. I believe it may have led to my using to begin with. I wish you well and may you have people come into your life who will want nothing but the best for you.
I have to walk to my car alone after my group sessions, I will be very cautious. Thank you for that. You may have saved a life.
Forever grateful.
Hi there wonderwomen what a great post and im a firm believer that for everything negative there is a positive all we got to do is look jaxxxxxxxxxx
wonderwoman,
thank you for that and i am sorry about your experience. definately park under lights, check your back seats. you can use your keys as a weapon, i even carry pepper spray now. but when your drugged not much you you can do to defend yourself. it definately helps in suxual abuse recovery to help someone else who has been there and you can offer hope and strength. for me i think it helped build character. definately i went through some crap but when i made it out the other side i am certain of who i am and my surroundings. no one has the power to take away who you are or what you stand for. yeah most woman become addicts after an assault, for me it was the other way around. so i recovered from both at the same time. i definately built some mental muscles : )
terrianne
thank you for that and i am sorry about your experience. definately park under lights, check your back seats. you can use your keys as a weapon, i even carry pepper spray now. but when your drugged not much you you can do to defend yourself. it definately helps in suxual abuse recovery to help someone else who has been there and you can offer hope and strength. for me i think it helped build character. definately i went through some crap but when i made it out the other side i am certain of who i am and my surroundings. no one has the power to take away who you are or what you stand for. yeah most woman become addicts after an assault, for me it was the other way around. so i recovered from both at the same time. i definately built some mental muscles : )
terrianne
Thank you for the advice. Take extra care of yourself today....when I have flashbacks about that night.....I need to say "I am safe." over and over in my head. It helps me alot. The three guys that were involved...I feel nothing for them. I know this is not healthy, but it's just where I'm at. Comfortably numb works for me, sober or stoned. Maybe someday, I'll face it appropriately. Maybe it's about self-preservation, maybe it's about not giving them any power. i don't know. i gotta go get on the treadmill, now, take care.
hey wonderwoman,
when i get those thoughts i just remind myself that they are only thoughts and that thoughts cant hurt me. also trust me the hardest but most important thing i did was to forgive my attacker and mean it. i wanted to hunt his grave down and piss on it and defile it, but once i was able to truly forgive. true healing came alot faster and i became alot stronger and empowered.
terrianne
when i get those thoughts i just remind myself that they are only thoughts and that thoughts cant hurt me. also trust me the hardest but most important thing i did was to forgive my attacker and mean it. i wanted to hunt his grave down and piss on it and defile it, but once i was able to truly forgive. true healing came alot faster and i became alot stronger and empowered.
terrianne
I have alot of respect for you and your ability to stay clean after that. I am proud that you didn't use after that, I know I would have.
I am also amazed that you don't bash NA for that. That shows much maturity.
Kerry
I am also amazed that you don't bash NA for that. That shows much maturity.
Kerry
kerry,
thank you and that was so nice of you to say : ) i judt did what i had to do and i thank go i had a great councelor and a friend i call angel who would stay up hours endlessly night after night whenever i needed. god definately had my back is all i can say. i really appreciate the compliment and feel so much better putting my story out today.
terrianne
thank you and that was so nice of you to say : ) i judt did what i had to do and i thank go i had a great councelor and a friend i call angel who would stay up hours endlessly night after night whenever i needed. god definately had my back is all i can say. i really appreciate the compliment and feel so much better putting my story out today.
terrianne
