Hello, my name is Jennifer and I am the mother of a beautiful daughter/meth addict.
A turn has happened since my past post. My daughter lost it, went to a crisis recieving unit for ten days and then was commit to a treatment facility which she wanted to go . She has expressed a sense of releif sort of that this may finally becoming to an end for her. I have seen her twice, we have had a family group day , too. I got a glimmer of my daughter, her smile that once lit the room up, the sound of her laugh, the feel of her skin again. She has gained 18 pounds. She is gaining perspective into her mental issues as well as her addiction. She has shame and compassion . Both of these emotions I have not seen in a long time. I was not sure she felt anymore.
I am scared and hopeful and proud and uneasy all at the same time. I miss her. I hope and pray to get her back. I hope her love affair with Crystal Meth is over.
May all of you find the sun shining on you tomorrow! Jen
My heart is smiling and doing cartwheels right now :)
I love it when an addict hits their rock bottom and instead of taking a shovel and digging in deeper ... they see their need for help .. and from that deep dark pit (the last thing you expect to see) is their hand reaching up out of the pit searching for something to grab onto so they can pull themselves out ... This is a real turning point in an addicts life ... it means they finally have had something go on inside of them that made them finally realize they have a problem and it is a problem they want to get rid of ... so they go on their own accord and do the footwork to get the help they need .. (a real big step ... because she realized she couldn't do it on her own) .. I can understand that you'd feel all the emotions you listed ... and I still wouldn't let my guard down competely, but I can tell you that this is a good sign ... and the fact that she has shown emotion over and for someone other than herself is a wonderful sign too ... it shows a heart change ... heart changes in an addict mean are very good signs of true change ... I am hopeful with you ... and I am glad you got to see your daughter again ... I'm sure you are sleeping alot better knowing she is getting help and not out on the streets getting high. I am happy for you and for her .. God Bless You Both ...
You and your daughter are in my prayers,
Passion
I love it when an addict hits their rock bottom and instead of taking a shovel and digging in deeper ... they see their need for help .. and from that deep dark pit (the last thing you expect to see) is their hand reaching up out of the pit searching for something to grab onto so they can pull themselves out ... This is a real turning point in an addicts life ... it means they finally have had something go on inside of them that made them finally realize they have a problem and it is a problem they want to get rid of ... so they go on their own accord and do the footwork to get the help they need .. (a real big step ... because she realized she couldn't do it on her own) .. I can understand that you'd feel all the emotions you listed ... and I still wouldn't let my guard down competely, but I can tell you that this is a good sign ... and the fact that she has shown emotion over and for someone other than herself is a wonderful sign too ... it shows a heart change ... heart changes in an addict mean are very good signs of true change ... I am hopeful with you ... and I am glad you got to see your daughter again ... I'm sure you are sleeping alot better knowing she is getting help and not out on the streets getting high. I am happy for you and for her .. God Bless You Both ...
You and your daughter are in my prayers,
Passion
Dear Jennifer, it is 3:00 a.m. I am due at work at 8:00..why am I not asleep? I am having another of those sleepless nights wondering if my daughter is alive and safe. So I came here...and I find your post full of all the hope that I need to make it through another day. My daughter is a meth addict..22 years old. She managed to get herself to a psyche ward just last week, but was discharged after the mandatory 3 days. I had hoped and prayed she would stay..this time. She has become someone I don't know..and like you I long for that little glimmer of the girl I love. Thank you for posting...it's so important to hear of addicts finally getting help so that we know it does happen and don't give up hope. I wish you and your daughter all the best in the world. She's going to make it..you get your daughter back. Keep us updated, please. Until my daughter gets help, I need to hear great, inspiring stories like yours. Best of luck and prayers to you both.
thank you for your support!
