to( winkles) to everybody on here . This site has helped me in many of ways. I do appreciate the time & the things that people have suggested to me . Well here I am now in a new story today . Its bin geting rough really rough on me addictions are very hard. its suggested alot of it is do to the chemical balance in our minds and how our bodys precieve of these narcotic or controlled drugs in my point of view.
( xanox2mgs qty 30 pills as needed)
today is febuary 28th yesterday i went to go see The doctor he perscibed me 2mgs of xanax as needed or a 30 day supplies I still have the script i never got it filled I was recently on klonpin for 2 weeks I came of of it at a steady dose 3 times a day with out withdrals . All my life for the past 4 years i bin on benzodiazphine alot of differnt brands I never had a probllem with them because I never liked them sounds like a contridiction right ? well as of me when I have a head ache I would run to take asprin as of if i had a panic attack or if i get atgitatated in anways but it takes alot for me & nervous as well. so i guess i will be ok on it . ( I ALWAYS TAKE IN MIND THAT IT CAN CAUSE A BAD ADDICTION ) so im going to try to be a sport about takeing it . ( i also made a appt with a phyctirist but i cant get in until the end of march my birthday is march 8th i will be 23 just blahing around for a second . Well as of now im think im on the right path im no sure ?
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TODAY i only took 1 pill 1 8mg pill into apose of takeing it twice a day i seem to be doing ok . for now . today im ging to the suboxone doctor its 1 hr from here for the last time . im not telling him that because i know he will try to wein me off . So im going to take a script for 60 pills and 1 refill its a schedule 4 narcotic so all togeather i will have 160 pills for 2 months . on my last bottole of qty 60 pills of sub im going to wein down really slow , hopefully enugh not to suffer from severe withdrawls. On this medical detox therapy medication . . I suppose if i need help in the end i will call him as of the sub doctor its 100 a visite . my gf just got a new job at head start takeing care of kids from 10 to 5 pm i miss her being around but we all have to work to live .
.............................................................................................................. MY INSURANCE MEDICATE IS RUN BY A COMPANY CALLED UNIONCIS PAKAGE G . (MY INSURANCE RUNS OUT IN JUNE ) so im trying to take care of everything that needs to be takeing care of . I did fial for ssi again i have a lawer now so i do have a big shot even knowing i dont have to much work credtits he said . My primary diagnoses is that I have hypertention, chronic aniexty disoder / post tramitic stress . And of course a drug addiction . And my left hand was ampuated after the quater stick of dynmoite took most of it off
winkles dont you think im a good canidit ? for ssi. I want to get off of all narcotics bottom line because if i do not take them they make me very sick . such as cold sweats , hot sweats, the craps, the shivering , the shakeing , the coldness, the brand robbing your mind for seritona . insomia , night sweats . now this is just off of suboxone . the old weing instructions anoter doctor gave me that did not certifi in that feild was like oxycontin weing off instructions .
1/day x 7 days - alternate 1 and 1/2 /day times 2 weeks - 1/2 / day until gone ? he said it will still cause wiuthdrawl but DEAL WITH IT . because he wanted me to be on klonpin instead of sub my family doctor he said that sub is just another opiod as of me replaceing 1 from another . he said eaither drop the sub or we are disconting you from our practice from the use of klonpin 1mg twice a day . Well i listen to him about 5 months ago it got me in a hole . I had a few rute canals gone bad he perscibed me ultram and winkles ultram is kinda like a opiod it got me hooked i went doctor shoping for lortabs vicodens , percocets the mickey mouse s*** ! then i became honest to them on the phone he told me i could stay on my klonpin still and tryed to wein me off with lortab 7.5 / 500 .qty 30 pills i just abusd them u kidden ! I went back to suboxone it saved my life my realtonships everything . he droped me from klonopin and had the nerve not to wein me off when i could of went into a sezure at the time i had donibelatol it was for my stomache its a barbituate i used that as needed . the benzo withdrawls kinda felt like a crack withdrawl for 2 weeks . Is that male practice ? there is so much more to this guys . Im moveing to pa in the nd of summer as soon as i come off of suboxone im going to be a full time bartender i went to school for that 1 . while on sub 8 months ago . I dont even have a driver licence so im going for my permit because i f***ed around alll my life with probation drugs jails i di get into college although and did alot of good .
in the summer me nd shawna are moveing to bedford pa to live togeather i love her to death i bin with her for 7 months now . Im hopeing i know shes the 1 . winkles im doing im trying im trying hard to fight the mortal addiction ,
if anybody wishes to e male me its drfeelg@netzero.net . or my yahoo sn is blue _confustion. & mondoscarface . winkels maybe we could chat sometime or you can give me some tips and help and this is for everybody else as well.
thank you guys for your correct support sin josh
thank you guys for your correct support sin josh
monodoscarface is my aol instant messanger .
You're consumed with taking drugs.What are you doing to feed your soul?
Drugs are only a symptom of our disease.Breaking free of addiction requires changes other than consumig more chemicals.
I would suggest you spend some of that energy into researching some psycho-spiritual solutions.
Drugs are only a symptom of our disease.Breaking free of addiction requires changes other than consumig more chemicals.
I would suggest you spend some of that energy into researching some psycho-spiritual solutions.
Feelgood, I'm not going to judge you or criticize or anything..just some advice.. first, with the benzo's. You say you've never had a "problem" with them. Yes you have and yes you do. You been on a number of different types and for a number of years and in large quantities. To you this is not a problem. To everyone else, it is. You do know that anyone can find a Dr. that will prescribe them anything, in any amount, in any combination, given enough time and money. I don't think you realize that yet. You will eventually. I don't expect you to listen to me, believe me. What I believe you will do is quickly dismiss my comments because of your experience, etc. Dude, you are in for a huge crash. HUGE. Take it with a grain of salt if you want, I said this to you before. You will reflect back (if you are not seriously brain damaged by then) and say " gee, they were right".
Feelgood, when I was on benzo's, everything was 100% OK..no problem..my doctor was right..he said I was a wreck..I was a wreck..I was this..I was that..I never abused them..I didn't like them..I functioned..they helped me..it heped me sleep..no anxiety..I was a-ok....nothing..you know when I had a problem? When it came time to f***ing quit them..you need Sub to quit pain meds/opiates because of withdrawls? Jesus christ, how in the world do you even think you will even remotely come close to even partially succeed at quitting benzo's. You are not talking a whole new ballgame or even sport..you are talking a whole different world my friend. And I was on less that 1/2 of what you are currently doing. "nervous" and "Agitated"...thoses will be WELCOME feelings compared to what you are in for.
Sub- I don't know jack about Sub because I quit pain meds cold turkey.
The rest, you certainly do have problems. You are an drug addict my friend, even if you don't want to believe it. Your life is unmanageable. You have been on probation, in jail, stressing about your insurance paying for drugs..yet you have no problem.
Feelgood..EVERYONE here has been in your boat to one extent or another dude. You have a serious drug cocktail going on.
You problem is you are smart enough to figure out how to get this s*** but to dumb to know you are in serious trouble.
I'm trying to not come across as critical. Because I don't mean it that way. I'd just like to reach into the computer and slap a little reality into you.
Feelgood, when I was on benzo's, everything was 100% OK..no problem..my doctor was right..he said I was a wreck..I was a wreck..I was this..I was that..I never abused them..I didn't like them..I functioned..they helped me..it heped me sleep..no anxiety..I was a-ok....nothing..you know when I had a problem? When it came time to f***ing quit them..you need Sub to quit pain meds/opiates because of withdrawls? Jesus christ, how in the world do you even think you will even remotely come close to even partially succeed at quitting benzo's. You are not talking a whole new ballgame or even sport..you are talking a whole different world my friend. And I was on less that 1/2 of what you are currently doing. "nervous" and "Agitated"...thoses will be WELCOME feelings compared to what you are in for.
Sub- I don't know jack about Sub because I quit pain meds cold turkey.
The rest, you certainly do have problems. You are an drug addict my friend, even if you don't want to believe it. Your life is unmanageable. You have been on probation, in jail, stressing about your insurance paying for drugs..yet you have no problem.
Feelgood..EVERYONE here has been in your boat to one extent or another dude. You have a serious drug cocktail going on.
You problem is you are smart enough to figure out how to get this s*** but to dumb to know you are in serious trouble.
I'm trying to not come across as critical. Because I don't mean it that way. I'd just like to reach into the computer and slap a little reality into you.
yes im a drug addict . winkles look here this i just riped the xanax script up last night . i didnt even come on until today . have i ad a problemm with benzos i dunno if i really did. ya i suppose when i came off of 3 years of k pin that was it . thats the honest truth . i never wish what i go through on nobody .
and the truth is the reason y i respond to you more because it seems easier to understand you more and the truth .
What are you doing for your emotional wellbeing?
You said you were going to go to a therapist in April (I think) but what about now? Do you know where AA or NA meetings are in your area?
You said you were going to go to a therapist in April (I think) but what about now? Do you know where AA or NA meetings are in your area?
