Today's thoughts are:
There is a big difference between saying what you do
and doing what you say.
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Learn to listen; listen to learn.
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Many of us fail to recognize opportunity
because most of the time
it is disguised as hard work.
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I'm not one of those people who has memorized the Big Book. I figure that's OK because it's all written down for me to look up.
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It's the Twelve Steps, not the twelve standstills.
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We all know that God never closes one door without opening another,
but it can be painful in the hallway.
good morning janet, i love your posts, i read them everyday, i was just curious, what step are you on right now?
I do the waltz of 1,2,3 daily....I am not working on the steps with a sponsor right now...I had one, but I was too impatient to do the 90 in 90, and my health and financial situation made it impossible for me to go to meetings everyday.
I do however read and meditate daily, I also pray.
At this time, I am very busy with 2 houses (cleaning the old one to move into the new) so there's no time for a meeting, I plan on getting back into them after the first of the year.
I feel pretty strong in my recovery, I've had cravings, but not given in. I have too much to lose, so that is the strongest motivator for me right now.
I do believe in NA, there's no doubt in my mind that it works if you work it.
Oh, and I have 5 months clean on Dec. 2nd
I do however read and meditate daily, I also pray.
At this time, I am very busy with 2 houses (cleaning the old one to move into the new) so there's no time for a meeting, I plan on getting back into them after the first of the year.
I feel pretty strong in my recovery, I've had cravings, but not given in. I have too much to lose, so that is the strongest motivator for me right now.
I do believe in NA, there's no doubt in my mind that it works if you work it.
Oh, and I have 5 months clean on Dec. 2nd
five months is awesome, you should be so proud of yourself, sometimes we have to work the program on our own. one two three waltz huh. lol. thats funny. im with you though, i guess i dance everyday to then, just hadnt thought of it like that.
yes I am very proud of myself, when I used to not be able to piece together more than a week...
I really miss my NA group, but it's a 35 mile trip up and back. I haven't been working, though I am looking, once I get back to work I hope to start meetings again. The only thing I don't like about the night meetings is that I get home at 9:45 and usually have to do a sinkload of dishes, but that should change, once i get into the new house and have a dishwasher. I can't trust my oldest son to wash dishes, I usually have to rewash after him, and he's not home half the time, he turned 19 Thursday.
I did work the first 3 steps in Inpatient and then in Outpatient Rehab, but I think they are a daily thing.
Gosh I need another cup of coffee...not used to being up so early!
I really miss my NA group, but it's a 35 mile trip up and back. I haven't been working, though I am looking, once I get back to work I hope to start meetings again. The only thing I don't like about the night meetings is that I get home at 9:45 and usually have to do a sinkload of dishes, but that should change, once i get into the new house and have a dishwasher. I can't trust my oldest son to wash dishes, I usually have to rewash after him, and he's not home half the time, he turned 19 Thursday.
I did work the first 3 steps in Inpatient and then in Outpatient Rehab, but I think they are a daily thing.
Gosh I need another cup of coffee...not used to being up so early!
i know what you mean about missing your meetings, i do go regularly but when time to time i cant make it on a given night for some reason, i really miss it. its become my sanity. the first three steps are definitly the building blocks. you ll get to the rest in time, i know people who have been there a year or two or even longer who havent gotten past them yet. but i also know the most well adjusted and most contented people seem to be the ones who have been all the way through. good luck on the new house and GET YOUR COFFEE. i cant imagine a morning without coffee. lol
before i started my coffee I went back and added another scoop.
My goal today is to be out wiping down walls in 2 rooms, washing inside windows, sweeping and mopping the floors...trying to get out there by 7 at least....because I still have to come back in the trailer and finish vacuuming.
I have fibro and I imagine by the time I'm done, I'll be in intense pain, right now I'm forcing myself to work through it, with only Ibuprofen
My goal today is to be out wiping down walls in 2 rooms, washing inside windows, sweeping and mopping the floors...trying to get out there by 7 at least....because I still have to come back in the trailer and finish vacuuming.
I have fibro and I imagine by the time I'm done, I'll be in intense pain, right now I'm forcing myself to work through it, with only Ibuprofen
oh i can only imagine how hard that would be. i wish i had had that excuse or any for my pill abuse, alas i was just and am just an addict. but it must feel nice to be able to do that hard work and not count on the drugs to numb the pain. and i can sure relate to the extra scoop, i try to get my coffee made and drank before anyone gets up and gets on me for making it so strong. lol i guess im an addict in alot of ways...hope you have a productive morning.
thanks bestill! I'm working on it.
