Help me out guys, I have 68 days vicodin free and I went to an NA meeting yesterday and it was one of those meetings where you could not wait for it to be over, anyway, I got my results for my GED test today and I failed, I can't believe it, I got a 470 and I needed a 510, I am freaking out and I want to stay sober, but I am Having the most horrible panic attack and I don't know wat to do. One thing I do know is I am not going to use! I just need some support from people that have the same pain and feelings as me.
Felicia
One day at a time.
Hey Felisha.To me I can find things EVERYDAY to trigger me but I refuse to do that.Im sorry about your GED but you can & should retest.Im so proud to hear you say you wont give in & use as that wont change anything & will only bring guilt & harder times.
DONT GIVE UP
One thing I ALWAYS say is
Our greatest acheivement is never falling,but being able to pick ourself up after we fall.You stay strong & keep fighting bevause life comes in waves...some good days some bad......I feel you have alot of good ahead of you
molly
DONT GIVE UP
One thing I ALWAYS say is
Our greatest acheivement is never falling,but being able to pick ourself up after we fall.You stay strong & keep fighting bevause life comes in waves...some good days some bad......I feel you have alot of good ahead of you
molly
Felicia,
Sorry you are having a rough go of it today...By the title of your thread "Triggers" I gather that maybe you are feeling a little shaky right now? Whatever you do don't use this setback as a reason to relapse...Feelings are feelings...not necessarily reality...The reality is you CAN take the test again...That's a fact that won't change...Your "feeling" of panic and pain will go away...but you will add the lovely feeling of "guilt" to everything if you use...
Maybe tomorrow you can reveiw the test with someone, find out what you need to brush up on and then go ahead and reschedule it for next month? That's doable right? Something positive?
Hit another meeting too if you can...hey if you get bored, say you have some bad cramps....scuse me gotta run LOL...
Hang in there...all is not lost...
Jan
Sorry you are having a rough go of it today...By the title of your thread "Triggers" I gather that maybe you are feeling a little shaky right now? Whatever you do don't use this setback as a reason to relapse...Feelings are feelings...not necessarily reality...The reality is you CAN take the test again...That's a fact that won't change...Your "feeling" of panic and pain will go away...but you will add the lovely feeling of "guilt" to everything if you use...
Maybe tomorrow you can reveiw the test with someone, find out what you need to brush up on and then go ahead and reschedule it for next month? That's doable right? Something positive?
Hit another meeting too if you can...hey if you get bored, say you have some bad cramps....scuse me gotta run LOL...
Hang in there...all is not lost...
Jan
You have come so far and I know about triggers,,but you were wise enough to realize it and post...that is a huge and positive step...tomorrow is another day and you will have another chance to pass the GED...My 28 yr. old dropped out of high school and ran away...long story short....failed her GED 2 times...3rd time she passed....NEVER GIVE UP....it should be a National Mantra...Love, Sharonn
Felicia-Man I'm sorry about your GED.That's a tough one.
I had a lot of things go down early in sobriety where I felt God was finnaly giving me the payback I deserved.In fact I was really angry at God and life in general.
Things weren' t changing fast enough and certainly not in my time.
I kept plugging away though and you will too.If you keep doing the next right thing,I guarantee you it will turn for the better.It's when we least expect it too.
I think you have a much better attitude than I did actually.
Don't stop talking about it and be willing to sit through those meetings that are boring as all get out.LOL.......It makes hitting the good ones that much better.
I had a lot of things go down early in sobriety where I felt God was finnaly giving me the payback I deserved.In fact I was really angry at God and life in general.
Things weren' t changing fast enough and certainly not in my time.
I kept plugging away though and you will too.If you keep doing the next right thing,I guarantee you it will turn for the better.It's when we least expect it too.
I think you have a much better attitude than I did actually.
Don't stop talking about it and be willing to sit through those meetings that are boring as all get out.LOL.......It makes hitting the good ones that much better.
Thanks guys, I do feel alot better today, it is just so hard to swallow, ya know? Thinfgs in my life have changed alot since Nov. 9, and changed in a good way, so I guess it could be alot worse. Just after I posted "triggers" I read alot of postings and I read your responses to me and its funny how when you feel like "why me?" the higher power shows you that there alot so many others that have it worse than me, I am SOOOOOOOOOOO thinking with a clear head these days, it's amazing!
Felicia
One day at a time.
Felicia
One day at a time.
Felicia-That's a good observation.Just look for the new threads of people coming in and in the middle of this disease.
You will get grateful real fast.
I think you are doing pretty good and could definitely give something back.Actually, by sharing this story you did.
Keep plugged in and doing the next right thing.
You will get grateful real fast.
I think you are doing pretty good and could definitely give something back.Actually, by sharing this story you did.
Keep plugged in and doing the next right thing.
It never ceases to amaze me how we delude ourselves into thinking pills will help us cope, when in reality we cannot think clearly while using and panic even more when crisis arises......have a better day. What Tim said "Keep plugging away" Sharonn
You guys are great!
Felicia
Felicia
Hey Felica...first on congrats on your 68 days of freedom! That in itself is a huge accomplishment..please don't overlook that honey!
I can sense how disappointed you are at your test results....but you will give it another go until you get it right. Someone with your tenacity will no doubt make it.
Triggers are everywhere...you came here when you felt one...thats good...thats very very good. See you are learning...sorry about your meeting...I have been to those meetings as well....you know what they say...keep coming back...lol...what looks one way one day will be completely different the next!!!
I can sense how disappointed you are at your test results....but you will give it another go until you get it right. Someone with your tenacity will no doubt make it.
Triggers are everywhere...you came here when you felt one...thats good...thats very very good. See you are learning...sorry about your meeting...I have been to those meetings as well....you know what they say...keep coming back...lol...what looks one way one day will be completely different the next!!!
