Just thinking Sunday night.
I always have such a problem with Sundays anyway he's down to one bag a week. And he's joining a gym after christmas 45 a month it's an awful lot for him as he's not working. But he reckons it will help and he'll be able to see something concrete from the money he's saving by not scoring. So it all seems to be going well so why do I worry that having come this far that it's all going to fall apart and he's going to be back to a bag a day - why can't I trust that something will turn out right for once - is it a woman thing - a sunday night thing or is it that trusting means some sort of weakness.
And where does it end when/if he kicks totally at what point do I stop seeing him as someone who could slip - do I ever - will it be always there. I hate Sundays.
karen
hate to be a drag, but why cant it be no bags a week--he cannot have tha awfull of a withdrawl if hes only doing one bad a week--trust me if hes using at all theres always room for the amount to increase--he(and you) are playing with fire
Hi Karen, I gotta say, what's this one bag a week lark? Acute withdrawals last somewhere in between 7 and 10 days - by day 5 you're normally over the worst of it. So why put himself back at square one every week? I don't get it. If he's down to one day a week, then he should be off it completely. It doesn't make any sense to me.
Gotta go - baby is wanting to play!
love
Diff xx
Gotta go - baby is wanting to play!
love
Diff xx
Sunday's no good for Pisces.........yo, Jaz thinking of ya.
yeah this one bag a week thing, it's a control issue for him, makes him feel like he's got a bit of power over something when really the drug is still controlling him. He needs to stop lying to himself, doesn't want to stop using. It's hard to give up, like an ex girlfriend or alienating your best friend, the mental bit is the worst part after the acute withdrawls are over. Getting clean is scary. f*** I'm scared as hell, but he needs some hope and help. Lucky he's got you, frankly
Yeah, I do remember the fear, the desire to periodically revisit old ground, just to make sure everybody and everything were still where I left them. But in retrospect the fear was fear of the unknown. I didn't know what lay ahead of me, but I knew what was behind me, and better the devil you know. But after a few months of commitment to being clean, the fear was replaced by excitement. I realised that I had taken my first steps towards a new great adventure, and I was up for it. It's a great feeling, like you really do have a blank page, and you can fill it with whatever you want. The loneliness, the feelings of despair, they are temporary. Life goes on, and it's up to you what you do with it. Just don't waste a fantastic opportunity to be the person you dreamed you could be.
love
diff xxx
love
diff xxx
He will always be somebody that can slip, we all are. But that thought will never get any further away as long as he's using. Once a week, once a day, theres no difference, period.
I get what people are saying but addicts and the way they deal with that addiction is different for everyone. On the families board there are a million posts saying what all addicts do or don't do and it's wrong because I've seen this now for a long long time from the girlfriend perspective and from working with addicts and you can no more generalise about an addict than you can anyone else.
The bag a week drives me insane but to be honest it's a world away from a bag a day -period. Firstly now he works, he has money, eats well and he's living in the real world instead of that twilight zone of clutching the mobile phone - so no one will change my mind on that one. And I believe that if it takes a person 24yrs or so to get where they are as an addict they are never ever going to get clean quickly or just because they want to. It is a long hard road one step at a time. He doesn't have wts at all without the gear now perhaps because he has come down so slow I think it's totally psychological - the ritual the needle going in, like a kid with a dummy. But it's his addiction, his way of dealing with it and I have no control over it nor would I want to have.
And although this once a week score is insane even without it he still wouldn't be clean because he's addicted to methadone and he'll only consider himself clean when he's a none addict and doesn't inject meth amps.(As many of you know he can't take the syrup because of medical problems)
I believe that the wts for meth are awful - he's got himself booked in for a medical detox they've warned him that if he keeps having siezures during his detox that they'll stop the detox because itt could kill him - he had to sign some form saying it's his choice they're in no way responsible.
I've never heard of anyone dying of wts but then I don't know of any other epileptics who've to kicked the methadone if there's any out there please let us know.
Thinking of everyone Diff girl hope your first Christmas with the little one has been good and you're bloke has behaved himself.
Bryn - keep rocking
Thanks everyone for sharing
All is quiet and wet here
k
x
The bag a week drives me insane but to be honest it's a world away from a bag a day -period. Firstly now he works, he has money, eats well and he's living in the real world instead of that twilight zone of clutching the mobile phone - so no one will change my mind on that one. And I believe that if it takes a person 24yrs or so to get where they are as an addict they are never ever going to get clean quickly or just because they want to. It is a long hard road one step at a time. He doesn't have wts at all without the gear now perhaps because he has come down so slow I think it's totally psychological - the ritual the needle going in, like a kid with a dummy. But it's his addiction, his way of dealing with it and I have no control over it nor would I want to have.
And although this once a week score is insane even without it he still wouldn't be clean because he's addicted to methadone and he'll only consider himself clean when he's a none addict and doesn't inject meth amps.(As many of you know he can't take the syrup because of medical problems)
I believe that the wts for meth are awful - he's got himself booked in for a medical detox they've warned him that if he keeps having siezures during his detox that they'll stop the detox because itt could kill him - he had to sign some form saying it's his choice they're in no way responsible.
I've never heard of anyone dying of wts but then I don't know of any other epileptics who've to kicked the methadone if there's any out there please let us know.
Thinking of everyone Diff girl hope your first Christmas with the little one has been good and you're bloke has behaved himself.
Bryn - keep rocking
Thanks everyone for sharing
All is quiet and wet here
k
x
With Sean it's even less often than that now but he still can't let go for good yet. You know your boundaries and what you will and won't accept. I always think you sound as though you have your head screwed on and that can only be helpful for him.
Good luck, here's to a happy and healthy 2008 for you both,
Maddy x x x
Good luck, here's to a happy and healthy 2008 for you both,
Maddy x x x
Maddy - have you and sean split or did i dream that.
Anyway have a good time Liverpool rocks New Years Eve it is the one night that it's great to go out.
k
Anyway have a good time Liverpool rocks New Years Eve it is the one night that it's great to go out.
k
Yeah we officially split months ago but we're still kinda hanging on...odd really...we're close friends...and everyone still thinks we're still together...we both know there's no future here but can't quite let go...it's actually a lot more healthy now than it was before...I've let go emotionally but still care about him so much...he helps me without even realising it...a mutually beneficial relationship I guess...I got introduced by his best mate as his girl the other night which threw me a bit...but no we're just friends...oddest relationship I've ever had!
Happy new year to you!
Maddy x x x
Happy new year to you!
Maddy x x x
