Hello, thanks for those who read this...Ill try to keep it short.
I am a college music student.
Ive been smoking weed for about 5 years now, and I have been using regularly (3+ times/week) off and on for 2 years. Since this summer I have smoked almost every day except times when I visit family on a given weekend.
My biggest problem is while being a musician, weed has its benefits. It can help get in the zone when practicing for long periods, boost creativity and ect... But I am also starting to notice how its hurting me. It affects my memory, motivation, and my sociability. Sometimes I dont want to be around people, even family and close friends. Since starting college 3 years ago, I feel like slowly I am losing my ability to click with people. Sometimes I have no interest in people even though deep down I want to meet some new friends.
The holdup with me quitting is 2 big things:
1.I only want to quit about half of the time. When its working for me, I am usually fine with not quitting. The other half of the time, when the negative effects listed above hit, I do want to quit. Sometimes I go through multiple phases during the day wanting to quit, then ending up buying more weed.
2. My closest friends (also bandmates) are regular users and have no intention on stopping.
I dont really want to quit "forever" But do want to take a loong while to let myself detox and get back on the positive road to life before maybe enjoying an occasional toke when appropriate, and never buying it for myself.
Has anyone been in a similar situation where its become such a part of your life you don't know how to stop, and without hurting some vital relationships?
Is it actually that bad for someone in my situation? I am on the way to being a professional musician with gigging out and ect so I likely wont ever have a job drug test.
Thanks
Quit while you can. The longer you smoke it, the more damage it will do. I did it frequently for less than a year and it has had what feels like life changing effects. Although, if you quit now you should be fine if you give it enough time. Check this: http://www.addictionrecoveryguide.o...ST&f=21&t=75644
P.S your life should be much better and healthier in the long run if you quit (it really can screw with your mental health).
I am a musician and spent ten years of my life thinking weed made me more creative. What it did for me was make jamming sound better than it was. But it made it hard to pay attention to the details, which I think is necessary for great songwriting arranging etc. I stopped weed because I couldn't stop, I wanted to but ended up buying, like you. And I tried so many times over many years and couldn't. Ive finally managed now for the first time in over 10 years, to get clean, I am over a year and a half clean now. And guess what, Im working on an album got an album of great songs recorded, and its the best stuff Ive ever done ! Im loving the process, Im focused, and I am much more creative !
I will never again think that weed is essential to my creativity, it isn't for me, and Im much better off without it.
Thats my experience.
If you find that there is a part of you that wants to quit, there is a reason for that. If one of the things that you are hanging on to is that weed = your creativity then I am giving you my personal experience as a musician who used to think the same thing. I should have quit earlier.
I will never again think that weed is essential to my creativity, it isn't for me, and Im much better off without it.
Thats my experience.
If you find that there is a part of you that wants to quit, there is a reason for that. If one of the things that you are hanging on to is that weed = your creativity then I am giving you my personal experience as a musician who used to think the same thing. I should have quit earlier.
