P.S. Maggie........PLEASE don't feel like a failure! You have 3 kids in college!!! That is a lot to contend with! But you must have raised some great kids! You will get past the daily dosage you are now at and it will be fine! Hang in there!
I cried all the way home, too. And then we were going to wrap packages that I had placed into shirt type boxes already the night before and my husband said the boxes were too big to place into the shipping boxes and we had to take them all out. I cried about that, too. It was such an effort the night before just to get them all put into boxes. This is crazy. I don't know where to turn to have someone help me. My husband thinks I should be down to one half pill or none instead of the one. He says he doesn't understand why I take them in the first place. I feel like such a phony. I don't know if I'm capable of living a normal life without meds. Maybe these strong anger feelings are part of the healing process as we were numbing ourselves before and now we just are learning to deal with feelings. I don't know. I just want to stay in bed and have someone else take care of everything. I appreciate your support!
Hi Maggie - The mental anguish associated with these pills can be so overwhelming! It doesn't matter how much or how little you take each day, to be so obsessed with these monsters is what drains us emotionally, physically and spiritually.
Have you considered an NA meeting for support? You can just sit and listen to others share what they're going through, and how they use this wonderful program to stay clean. Think about it.
Stay strong;
Jim
Have you considered an NA meeting for support? You can just sit and listen to others share what they're going through, and how they use this wonderful program to stay clean. Think about it.
Stay strong;
Jim
maggie, you can do it. I felt like a MAJOR WHACKJOB....it does get better...
I felt like I had done some major brain damage....now I just think the damage I did is minor...lol...
Just be really kind to yourself. cry scream run sing run people over with the carts....do whatever, but just don't go back. I echo JR....go to a meeting. It will help you know that you aren't alone...
Kerry
I felt like I had done some major brain damage....now I just think the damage I did is minor...lol...
Just be really kind to yourself. cry scream run sing run people over with the carts....do whatever, but just don't go back. I echo JR....go to a meeting. It will help you know that you aren't alone...
Kerry
