How DID we get here? Bet theres a million stories out there in the Naked City.I got swayed by the ol" Rockn Roll,Art-School-Existential Freak Out that was going round like a record while Reagan was in office. Remember, all you old timers out there? It was like, Those God-Bothering Maniacs are @ the Helm, o man, he'll nuke the Russkies & Whoops! Apocalypse!-there goes the Future.Thanx guys! For me there was the added quasi-despair of attending art school & hoping for a bunch of Freaks but finding a bunch of Accountant types armed w/ airbrushes looking for a satisfying career designing typefaces. To say I was disappointed would be putting it mildly.Towering rage, Wagnerian angst & an overwhelming urge to "Freak out the squares" led me to do mighty nutty stuff: growing a Mohawk, piercing other people,going to life drawing class on acid etc.Aaah, College! It sounds mild enuf NOW but then if u looked like that EVERYONE HATED you:cops, dogs, small children, little old ladies. ...There was also this Night Club...where the music was Nick Cave, Velvet Underground The Stooges, etc, & every 3rd person was a tar-baby. This is in L.A., the early 80's.And I fell for all of it- it seemed in the culture(!?) all round me-dope use. Funny how u find yrself ...swayed. After all, who, @ 10 yrs of age sez "Oh, I'd like to geeze smack when I grow up " ? No one from this Multiverse, I bet.THEN I met This Guy. (Girls: don't we all Meet THAT Guy?) He sez Hey u spoilt Yank , come w/ me to India to see how the other half lives! I say Dude! I been to Tijuana! But no, He goes so I go too.("Whither goest thou, so go I,yr. people shall become my people...") That LOVE thing.Many Adventures but nothing too crazy-just enuf.(This is NOT beaming round the world from an Indian prison,FYI.)Many More Adventures( & one weird wedding) later I am here in Dum Dum Town,in the Antipodes,too wordy for anyone,strung every which way,but wanting to get myself clean.Am ready after 20+ yrs.Shenanigans.I love this site.Here I feel Free, for a few minutes, anyway.So, what's a nice person like you doin in a place like this?Talk to me, kid;I ain't goin no where...
I love the way you write you use creative words. I was also into the punk sceen. Decline of westeren civilation, tattoos, fishnet panty hose. I remember the anti drug commercial in the 80's where the guy/girl would say: nobody say's I wanna be an addict when I grow up... man we thought that was a laugh. I'm younger then you but, i've got many years of differnt addictions in my time. Pot at 10, pills 11, drinking at 14 regularly. Coke 16, acid 17, then the heroin 26. The guy turned me onto it lol. He was a roomie and sexy and charming "in prison now". I had saw my brother use, buried 2 cousion already b4 I ever tried it. I never would do it with other people, I knew, who had done it in front of me. I TRUSTED this guy!. I had been banging coke for years b4 the smack. I was strung out on coke and adapecks "upers" speed. I was crashing hard no sleep in days recently ended a 8 year relationship with my daughters father. He says this will help you sleep. I'm ready to hop out a window just to close my eyes. I let him cut me out a lil. OMG I came down felt relaxed and drifted off for a few hours. Later that day I want more! He gives me more we get high make out and I was in love "with heroin". Right off it was a every day thing I was totally stupid about how BAD it was. I had seen it ruin people but, I had the i'm stronger then them thing going on NOT ME...I'LL NEVER BE A JUNKIE. He brings it home everyday gives me smack for rent and food. 5 months later he gets pissy and moves out. I get dope sick for the 1st time I start the shaddy crap that has got me to here. I still write this guy in prison I have told him I hate that he gave me this sickness. Heroin screws with your head like no other drug i've ever done. I still get mad that he knew what he was giving me. I have never turned on anyone to heroin. I would never give this crap to anyone knowing what it dose to your life. At 1st he says you can only do it for 2-3 days then you need to stop or you'll get addicated. He was hiting my vain mixing 4 me everything. 12 days in I say you know it's been like 12 days I start feeling crappy a few hours b4 you get home...and we laugh. A few years later I lose everything.
I ment heroin at 25 I used for 2.5 years nearly 3, I'm going on 29 now, clean 11 months.
Their r 8 million stories in a naked city, some ice cold and told without
pity. About the mean streets and the ghetto cultures.
The pimps , the pushers , the sharks and vultures.
The things that happen when it reaches dark,
all the things u hear about central park.
K.B.
pity. About the mean streets and the ghetto cultures.
The pimps , the pushers , the sharks and vultures.
The things that happen when it reaches dark,
all the things u hear about central park.
K.B.
