Detox was a nightmare. A mistake.They refused to give me my ad's and tapered me from 9 yrs./2-4 mgs xanax with 5 mgs. valium in 2 days...I had a seizure and was brought to the hospital. My Bf is contacting the appropriate legal angencies as this facility was beyond substandard. I am home and pretty sick,,,appt to see sub dr in 2 days...my body with the Lupus and all ,almost broke under that treatment. In no way are they capable of opiate detox...I was called a "useless junkie" by the nurse and ignored after vomiting for 9 hours straight. I lay in my own vomit for hours until my roomate cleaned me up. What a bad judgement...I really tried.I hope the sub works..I won't go back to the oxy's...I am taking lots of motrin, gatorade and my ad....my skin is on fire and the restless legs will not give up...hence no sleep to speak of. Please...if you are a newcomer...please seek help. I would never want to see another person go through the horror I did. Sharonn
Sharon-Man I'm sorry to hear about that.Your description sounds like a third world psych ward.Get your head back on straight and then you can make other decisions.Don't try and analyze this right now.Take care of yourself and feel better.Good to hear from you.
Sharonn,
Oh man!!! WTH??? How can a "nurse" even think something like that nevermind saying it! Unbelievable!!!! Glad you are back home with Tony. Get some rest. I know that's easy for me to say! But you know what to do until you get to the doctor...Keeping you in my prayers,
Jan
Oh man!!! WTH??? How can a "nurse" even think something like that nevermind saying it! Unbelievable!!!! Glad you are back home with Tony. Get some rest. I know that's easy for me to say! But you know what to do until you get to the doctor...Keeping you in my prayers,
Jan
Believe me..if I weren't so sick I would tell you al the gory details...Tim..I am so very sorry for your dental woes...I hope somehow it works out...Love S
((((((((((((((((((sharon))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i am so sorry you were treated so poorly...........
that nurse is a stupid jerk to talk yo you like that..........
and one day she will need help, i believe what goes around comes back around.
i love u sharon............
God Bless you..........
reading this breaks my heart..............
thumper
i am so sorry you were treated so poorly...........
that nurse is a stupid jerk to talk yo you like that..........
and one day she will need help, i believe what goes around comes back around.
i love u sharon............
God Bless you..........
reading this breaks my heart..............
thumper
Oh Sharonn,
I'm so sorry, no one should be treated that way. Like Tim said, take care of yourself right now, concentrate on getting you feeling better.
This kinda sh!t pisses me off. How dare they?
much love,
sorry to hear that sharon. what kind of meds did they give you there? did you do a meth taper?
That's just an unthinkable experience, Sharon!
I've never been to detox or rehab but I just assumed they were compassionate and understanding to even be working in such a facility.
Take good care of yourself and I hope you recover from all this soon.
Maybe the Sub will be helpful, I hope so.
xxxxooooo
I've never been to detox or rehab but I just assumed they were compassionate and understanding to even be working in such a facility.
Take good care of yourself and I hope you recover from all this soon.
Maybe the Sub will be helpful, I hope so.
xxxxooooo
Sharonn,im so sorry you were treated this way,that is terrible!!!!!Im glad youre back home,though youre still in rough shape at least you have Tony,your own bed,etc...(i hope you intend to report that nurse,she should not be working with patients in that condition!!!!!And to let you lay there 9 hours,unthinkable!!!!)Im glad Tonys looking into some sort of action,sounds warrented!
I wanted to ask you,have you spoke with your Primary Dr about the restless legg? My husband takes requip and it works like magic,it really does.Maybe you could get him to prescribe you some.Do you normally have the restless leg or is that just part of your WD's?Either way,i would try and get some,it would help you so much.
Hang in there,just 2 more days,i think the sub will help tremendously!
Keep us updated,and stay hydrated as best you can.Take care~KIM
I wanted to ask you,have you spoke with your Primary Dr about the restless legg? My husband takes requip and it works like magic,it really does.Maybe you could get him to prescribe you some.Do you normally have the restless leg or is that just part of your WD's?Either way,i would try and get some,it would help you so much.
Hang in there,just 2 more days,i think the sub will help tremendously!
Keep us updated,and stay hydrated as best you can.Take care~KIM
Sharonn,
I am so sorry that your experience was so awful. Man, I really thought this was going to be the answer for you. You know what though? Atleast you are not giving up. You are so strong, Sharonn. That will be what helps you make it. Someday you will realize that the fight was all worth it. I just know it.
I hope you start feeling better soon. I'll be thinking of you.
I am so sorry that your experience was so awful. Man, I really thought this was going to be the answer for you. You know what though? Atleast you are not giving up. You are so strong, Sharonn. That will be what helps you make it. Someday you will realize that the fight was all worth it. I just know it.
I hope you start feeling better soon. I'll be thinking of you.
Sharon, that is just wrong. Sometimes it makes me wonder??? I know you had your heart set on this and so much riding on it. I am at a loss for words. Its hard to believe that in this day and age where addiction is gaining recognition as a bona fide illness that there is a place like that in operation.
This is just one more hurdle, a very large one....however I so believe that suboxone will help you. You are the exactly the type of person this drug was designed for. It will stop w/d dead in there tracks and help with your pain but more so...it will give you the precious time you need for your brain to heal.
My doctor has explained to me over and over that at the stage you are at...it is purely a brain chemistry thing. Perhaps a few months on the subs will help immensely...and of course once you are feeling better you will feel compelled to start a program of recovery!
My thoughts are prayers are with you! Poor Thing...I hope you sue them to high heaven..there is no excuse for that behaviour!
This is just one more hurdle, a very large one....however I so believe that suboxone will help you. You are the exactly the type of person this drug was designed for. It will stop w/d dead in there tracks and help with your pain but more so...it will give you the precious time you need for your brain to heal.
My doctor has explained to me over and over that at the stage you are at...it is purely a brain chemistry thing. Perhaps a few months on the subs will help immensely...and of course once you are feeling better you will feel compelled to start a program of recovery!
My thoughts are prayers are with you! Poor Thing...I hope you sue them to high heaven..there is no excuse for that behaviour!
Thank you all for your kind words...they gave me 400 mgs.. of ultram for 3 days...by the 3rd day I was vomiting and hallucinating,,visual,audio, and feeling people actually hitting me. Another patient "caught the Dr. in the hallway(told the only way you could get to see him) and told him he was having problems with the med and was switched to sub..when I inquired,several times to different nurses I was told they do not use sub there. 5 patients that I know of were on it. The next day I was tapered to 200 mgs. next day/0.To me this is cruel.You are feeling better and then thrown right back into full blown withdrawal. The first 12 hours after my last dose I got up and literally begged the night nurse for motrin or visterol or a call to the PA on call. She said I have been crying since I came and pain is part of it so it will teach me the the lesson I need to learn...I begged for nausea meds and she threw a camomile teabag at me...went back to bed and walked the floor crying when not vomiting. I was told that Ultram is not habit forming(please),So given that I was treated with no respect and lied to...how could I possibly put my trust in these people to take care of me. It is a dangerous place. The poor heroin addicts in there...you don't wanna know.
Sharon, I am so bad you had that experience. I am so angry for you. That is awful. You are not a helpless junkie. We all love you!
I am glad to hear you are going to give sub a try. I think you will find that it will help you tremendously. It helps with pain; I think just as well as being on opiates for a long while.
Huge hugs to you.
How could they treat they meow lady like that????????
I am glad to hear you are going to give sub a try. I think you will find that it will help you tremendously. It helps with pain; I think just as well as being on opiates for a long while.
Huge hugs to you.
How could they treat they meow lady like that????????
unbelievable
Sharonn, I am so sorry that you had to go through that. How does a place like that stay in business? Aren't they inspected just like hospitals are? I don't understand how they could get away with that. Is this the same place you went to last year? What was it like then? Lisa
Yes...I did not suffer much and it is TOTALLY different....hell on earth. Karma will prevail.
S YGM & I would LOVE to touch base in between running today.Know I care so much & Im always here if only via email to try & help
Your a very special lady & such a great friend...That means the world to me.
I love you sweety
Your little ...s
Your a very special lady & such a great friend...That means the world to me.
I love you sweety
Your little ...s
sharonn
i am so sorry you had to suffer thru detox at such an awful facility especially after we encouraged you that it would be good, please dont let this one bad experience make you believe that detoxing is not worth it because it is.
there are good ones out there.
i have been to two different facilities, first one awful as the addicts were housed with the psych patients, no priviledges whatsoever, 2nd place i went, wonderful! freedom galore!
i found out the nurses can be very nice and some can be very mean! no compassion whatsoever for a suffering addict.
one nurse in particular helped me out tremendously when i had a panic attack there.
i learned this the hard way, i thought that the nurses come to your room like in the hospital to give you your meds when its time. i'm like laying in the bed suffering from withdrawals waiting for my meds, i then realized you had to go to the nurses station to ask for them!
so i wanted my valium my first day for with drawals and the nurses were ok the first day when i'd ask,
then on day two i would be up there like clock work when it was time for the 2nd dose, now the nurses are not so friendly and the valium is now not the full strength pills, the addict in me was upset about that ! i wanted 10 mg!!!!! not 5mg!!! come on i said to the nurse whats up with that? i felt they tapered me down too fast!!
so thats when i would get the comments, julie your behavior is acting like a user! duh!!!
oh do i remember the vomiting!
you should feel sooooooo much better when you start the sub!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the withdrawals are gone! and like the others have said i so agree, sub gave my brain time to heal and it made my attitude positive to seek recovery because i felt good mentally and physically,
i just started stepwork with my sponsor, step one, they all say at the meetings how the steps have changed their lives and they learned so much about themselves, i couldnt understand what that meant, until yesterday, i love my sponsor she helped me to see things in a different way.when she walked into my house for the very first time, she said julie just by looking at your house i can see your an addict! when i opened the fridge to offer her some pop she looked at the inside of my fridge and said again, you are DEFINATELY an addict, i am like what do you mean???? as i was showing her around my house she noticed all the pictures,knick knacks, my shoe rack with 50 pairs of shoes, my earring rack that has about 75 pairs of earrings, my craft table with all the different colors and styles of beads i had,(i make jewelry)
she said you cannot not have just one thing, it has to be 25 or 50 of the same thing (jewelry, shoes) the fridge was FULL of food you could barely shut the door,(thank you Lord for the blessing of food) my walls have not one place to hang a picture on it, i love pictures and mirrors and family pictures are every where! than of course there is clutter too, i am a clutter person, i let magazines, newspapers stack up cuz i think i am gonna read them some day but eventually i do end up throwing them all away when the pile becomes ridiculous,
when i come to reality and realize that i will never have the time to read cover to cover all those things like i want to read.
SO, i said really??? i thought addiction was about pills, drugs, smoking, drinking etc. she made me realize my personality and addiction is obvious just by how my house looks. so that makes me realize that this is who i am, how i am wired etc. then i look at my mother who is an addict also and i couldnt believe how much i am like her too! her house is the same way, she has to have 50 of one thing not just one or two, its an obsession! addicts obsess, we are self centered, we want what we want and we want it NOW!
next she helped me to learn to LET IT GO!!!!!! LET IT GO!!!! LET IT GO!!!!! what do i need to let go you ask? the past, i am so obsessed, hurt, pissed, sad, at people who have hurt me, traumatized me, made me to feel guilty, molested me, killed my unborn child thru abortion ( my dad made me have an abortion when i was a teenager) people who beat me, all the things i MISSED in my life because i am frozen in fear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am terrified of people,places and things, i dont know how to ask for help it feels strange,
yesterday was the first layering of the "onion" the first layer was peeled away, the door finally opened to have a light bulb moment. i opened the door for years that i didnt know how to open and i took my first step into the door!!!!! wow! this feels really neat! i want the serenity these people have! no one knows or understands ME except another addict.
i am so optimistic about this, NA meetings and the program and the sponsor WORK!!!!!! ive seen it with my own eyes and have heard it with my own ears story after story of all the addicts who tell of their pain in addiction and how they got better. it works if you work it! i really believe it today, before i was like yeah right whatever.... i had to become honest, open minded and willing as the na slogan says.
as i stuck around this second time around in NA, i finally started making friendships at meetings and go out for coffee with them and that feels really good, the fear is lifting some that i have at meetings (sharing etc) it was soooo scary to walk into those meetings not knowing a single soul and no support from anyone (family) and i did it.
so thats all, i just wanted to share that with you sharonn, where you are at right now today is hard, the withdrawals omg!!! i remember and pray that NEVER have to go thru that torture again it will get better honey. love jewels
i am so sorry you had to suffer thru detox at such an awful facility especially after we encouraged you that it would be good, please dont let this one bad experience make you believe that detoxing is not worth it because it is.
there are good ones out there.
i have been to two different facilities, first one awful as the addicts were housed with the psych patients, no priviledges whatsoever, 2nd place i went, wonderful! freedom galore!
i found out the nurses can be very nice and some can be very mean! no compassion whatsoever for a suffering addict.
one nurse in particular helped me out tremendously when i had a panic attack there.
i learned this the hard way, i thought that the nurses come to your room like in the hospital to give you your meds when its time. i'm like laying in the bed suffering from withdrawals waiting for my meds, i then realized you had to go to the nurses station to ask for them!
so i wanted my valium my first day for with drawals and the nurses were ok the first day when i'd ask,
then on day two i would be up there like clock work when it was time for the 2nd dose, now the nurses are not so friendly and the valium is now not the full strength pills, the addict in me was upset about that ! i wanted 10 mg!!!!! not 5mg!!! come on i said to the nurse whats up with that? i felt they tapered me down too fast!!
so thats when i would get the comments, julie your behavior is acting like a user! duh!!!
oh do i remember the vomiting!
you should feel sooooooo much better when you start the sub!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the withdrawals are gone! and like the others have said i so agree, sub gave my brain time to heal and it made my attitude positive to seek recovery because i felt good mentally and physically,
i just started stepwork with my sponsor, step one, they all say at the meetings how the steps have changed their lives and they learned so much about themselves, i couldnt understand what that meant, until yesterday, i love my sponsor she helped me to see things in a different way.when she walked into my house for the very first time, she said julie just by looking at your house i can see your an addict! when i opened the fridge to offer her some pop she looked at the inside of my fridge and said again, you are DEFINATELY an addict, i am like what do you mean???? as i was showing her around my house she noticed all the pictures,knick knacks, my shoe rack with 50 pairs of shoes, my earring rack that has about 75 pairs of earrings, my craft table with all the different colors and styles of beads i had,(i make jewelry)
she said you cannot not have just one thing, it has to be 25 or 50 of the same thing (jewelry, shoes) the fridge was FULL of food you could barely shut the door,(thank you Lord for the blessing of food) my walls have not one place to hang a picture on it, i love pictures and mirrors and family pictures are every where! than of course there is clutter too, i am a clutter person, i let magazines, newspapers stack up cuz i think i am gonna read them some day but eventually i do end up throwing them all away when the pile becomes ridiculous,
when i come to reality and realize that i will never have the time to read cover to cover all those things like i want to read.
SO, i said really??? i thought addiction was about pills, drugs, smoking, drinking etc. she made me realize my personality and addiction is obvious just by how my house looks. so that makes me realize that this is who i am, how i am wired etc. then i look at my mother who is an addict also and i couldnt believe how much i am like her too! her house is the same way, she has to have 50 of one thing not just one or two, its an obsession! addicts obsess, we are self centered, we want what we want and we want it NOW!
next she helped me to learn to LET IT GO!!!!!! LET IT GO!!!! LET IT GO!!!!! what do i need to let go you ask? the past, i am so obsessed, hurt, pissed, sad, at people who have hurt me, traumatized me, made me to feel guilty, molested me, killed my unborn child thru abortion ( my dad made me have an abortion when i was a teenager) people who beat me, all the things i MISSED in my life because i am frozen in fear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am terrified of people,places and things, i dont know how to ask for help it feels strange,
yesterday was the first layering of the "onion" the first layer was peeled away, the door finally opened to have a light bulb moment. i opened the door for years that i didnt know how to open and i took my first step into the door!!!!! wow! this feels really neat! i want the serenity these people have! no one knows or understands ME except another addict.
i am so optimistic about this, NA meetings and the program and the sponsor WORK!!!!!! ive seen it with my own eyes and have heard it with my own ears story after story of all the addicts who tell of their pain in addiction and how they got better. it works if you work it! i really believe it today, before i was like yeah right whatever.... i had to become honest, open minded and willing as the na slogan says.
as i stuck around this second time around in NA, i finally started making friendships at meetings and go out for coffee with them and that feels really good, the fear is lifting some that i have at meetings (sharing etc) it was soooo scary to walk into those meetings not knowing a single soul and no support from anyone (family) and i did it.
so thats all, i just wanted to share that with you sharonn, where you are at right now today is hard, the withdrawals omg!!! i remember and pray that NEVER have to go thru that torture again it will get better honey. love jewels
My goodness...what a story...thank you for that. Love, S
Are you feeling any better today Sharonn? I sure hope so. Keep on posting!
