Hi. I was clean for 15 months and then I fell and broke my arm. They put me on Vic's and at first it wasn' to bad. Its been about 2 1/2 months and I am having a hard time stopping them. I keep telling myself I need them for the pain but I know I am just lying to myself. I am a nurse and am finding my old habits coming back. I haven't had any in 24 hours and I am really starting to think about getting my next fix. I have 2 small children and don't want to go through what I went through 2 summers ago. I need help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hello, i read your post and i am a nurse as well & you need to have someone hold your pills & wean off and go to meetings, eaiser said then done but its all that I can think of, hope this help , fellow addict...
Well I don't have any left but I know I can call my doctor and get more. I am trying not too. I haven't been to a meeting in a while. The closest na meeting to me is about 1/2 hour away and is on monday. I plan on going but I am having problems getting thru the weekend. Thanks for the advise. I know what I have to do, but actually doing it is what I am having problems with.
ok, for the time being do a on line meeting, there is one way, ask for the medcine and have someone other than yourself hold it and let them give you a set amount a wean off and keep going to meetings and get a sponcer work the steps, you can do it!!!! i am here 4-u!
Zannie- I'm where you are at...
Thank you all for being here. I really need it right now. I have quit the program a while back and still stayed cleaned. I thought I didn't need the program. Now I wish I didn't stop. My sponsor passed away 3 months ago and haven't really been looking for a new one. I live in a small town and most of the meetings around here are AA meetings. I;ve been to them but they don't really work for me. Its all these older men sitting around telling the same stories week after week. wasn't really doing anything for me. I really wish there were more na meetings locally. How do I do an online meeting? Never done it before. What web site do I go to. Love ya all, Ann
I don't know if I can do this again. I feel like my whole world is crashing down on me and don't know where to go. the closest na meeting is tomorrow and I want to go but I don;t know if I am going to be able to attend it. Does anyone or can anyone tell me how to go about getting to an online na meeting? Need help desperately. I guess I am waiting for someone to wave their magic wand and this will be all better again. I know it is me who needs to do all the work in order for me to get clean again, but I'm scared. :( Ann
Anne, I have never tried an online NA meeting, but you might try typing in "Narcotics Anonymous online meeting" and seeing what links you get. Move heaven and earth to get to tonight's NA meeting in your area, maybe ask for a temporary sponsor, and as important if not more, don't refill that script! Then you're on your way.....a lot of that depression and hopelessness will lift when you take those first few positive steps toward recovery....and follow your heart. Please let us know how you're doing. Peace, M.
If you've been addicted to drugs/pain killers in the past then there is no reason at all that you can justify using the drug ever again. Be it medical, or whatever. Once you've been addicted to something you can NEVER take even one pill again or the cycle will surley repeat itself as it already has in your case.
hey sweetie, i undesrand what u r going thru, i did all to many times my self, i use to be addcited ti meth, for about 6 -7 months and just one day i did some thing horrible (rather not say) and i got on my knees and preyed to god that i could quit and I never touched that nasty stuff again and i ask my self why can't I stop these damm friking pills?? they grap a hold of your neck and do not ever let go, i hate being an addict and i have seriuos pain issus and can not even handle holding my own meds, ahhh.. well i am here 4-u and anyone who needs me, take care, fa
p.s. may i ask why your sponcer passed away?, was it a relapse/overdose??
p.s. may i ask why your sponcer passed away?, was it a relapse/overdose??
Kiwi, I know I am an addict but why should I have to suffer when my humerus was broken in half. I suffer everyday with headaches and neck problems. I deal with them and stayed clean for 15 months but then I had this accident and needed something stronger then motrin. Addict or not no one should have to suffer with that kind of pain. I am not making excuses to use again, if I did that then I would have started using for my neck pain. If any one out there can go through that kind of pain without meds my hat off to them. If there is another way to deal with pain after an acute trauma than please let me know. Ann
Hi Zanni, sorry to hear about your predicament..having 2 little ones isnt going to make it any easier i'm sure.. you did it before and i have faith that you will quit again.. please hold on and keep trying.. never give up trying.. if at first you don't succeed try try again! My daughter is having the same problem as you.. we live in a small town and the closest meetings are 45 minutes and then they are mostly in the evenings and are aa... she has trouble getting there as she has 3 little girls and with cheerleading, daisies, gymnastics etc.. there is always something going on..she lost her 9 year love on easter sunday and is having a tough time of it.. she went thru rehab in august and has come to live with me and husband.. she has had 1 relapse and we are coping as best we can.. being an addict myself ( ex cocaine current vics) i can relate to all she is going thru. anyway i too cannot sleep tonight as i am on day 3 of weaning... i have a dr appointment today and i am going to keep it.. i am going to ask for some ambien and a refill on vics.. i am determined but not willing to suffer anymore than neccessary..if it takes a couple days, or weeks than that's just the way it is.. take care and don't be too hard on yourself.. we are human and have limits.
Thank you for that. I have weaned myself down to 2 vics a day and know its now or never to stop before it gets to out of control. I know I can call my doctor and he call me a refill in in a heartbeat, but I am refraining from that. Ask your dr for trazadone, it helps with insomnia, but it is not addictive. It does work, I took it myself a while back. just a suggestion. My problem is I did have severe pain in the beginning but know I am lying to myself to keep taking them. It is a non stop war i my head--stop taking them/keep taking them,everything will be better. Its almost like losing a part of me if I stop taking. Wierd huh!!! I hope everything works out for your daughter. Its tough with little ones and trying to cope with the disease. let me know how things work out.. Ann
Good morning! Thanks for that suggestion..i took ambien in the past here and there only for a few nights and never had the incline to keep taking them.. i am afraid to even mention a new drug to my doctor.. maybe... it was an awful night.. i only slept a few hours... anyway.. sometimes i think that diaologue going on in my head is the worst part.. take them .. stop... drives me nuts..that has almost stopped.. now i hear myself more and more committed to trying life on lifes terms again.. however like i said it is going to be as gradual as neccessary..wow.. congrats on being down to 2 a day!.. are you too restless at night? i guess being a nurse and all you probably get a case of the guilties now and then huh? how long were you on 2 a day before you ran out> best of luck
