Hi Valarie, how's the reading going? I'm interested to know what you thought of the book you bought?
"H : Autobiography of a Child Prostitute and Heroin Addict"
Cheers!
Izzy
Girl that book was unbelievable!!! I finished it a bit ago. I will probably read it again. I had no idea what that drug entailed and I have a new found respect for anyone that has recovered from it. Absolutely amazing! Thanks for the suggestion. I think it is a must read for any addict/alkie.
On another note....how are you doing on the home front? Have you been doing better with coping? Have you told your therapist the truth? Tell him/or her that they are annoying you and perhaps that will help? Or find another therapist. I am one to talk though. I am much better at giving advice than taking my own. I have been trying to get up the balls to see one for over two years now. LOLOL
I am an ostrich at the moment and prefer to keep my head in the sand. LOL
Hope you are doing well. Thanks for the shoutout! :-)
I never used that drug but all of the emotions were quite familiar. When you saw Christiane go down the road of despair and do ALL of the things that she said she would never do it was quite sad. (I.E. The Wogs) We have all been there and done things we never thought we would when we were in the grips of addiction.
On another note....how are you doing on the home front? Have you been doing better with coping? Have you told your therapist the truth? Tell him/or her that they are annoying you and perhaps that will help? Or find another therapist. I am one to talk though. I am much better at giving advice than taking my own. I have been trying to get up the balls to see one for over two years now. LOLOL
I am an ostrich at the moment and prefer to keep my head in the sand. LOL
Hope you are doing well. Thanks for the shoutout! :-)
I never used that drug but all of the emotions were quite familiar. When you saw Christiane go down the road of despair and do ALL of the things that she said she would never do it was quite sad. (I.E. The Wogs) We have all been there and done things we never thought we would when we were in the grips of addiction.
Hi Valarie, things at home are really good actually. I just read the thread about building things up and making mountains out of molehills, and I did exactly the same with my dad. I thought he was gonna moan non stop and have a go at me when he got out of hospital but he's been the total opposite. I'm really quite amazed... and proud of him, funnily enough...
Have I been honest with my therapists... not in as many words, no... I just seem to manage to get the good bits of my week out and the bad bits get totally forgotten as they're so pleased that stuff went right for me they think it's massive progress, which some of it is, but it's starting to stress me out now. My mum has said she is gonna come and help me explain, which I'm really needing her help to do otherwise this whole thing is gonna get out of control.. I know what I'm like. And I don't know why I just nod and agree with what people say. I'm scared of letting myself be put out there under the scrutiny of some bloke I hardly know... ??? Is it, or am I just not facing up to myself...?
As for the books lessons... yes, I found myself relating totally to Christiane. I've never been physically dependant on alcohol, so I can't relate to the physical dependance to heroin. But I can imagine it... especially the psychological aspects and the feeling of desperation to get hold of the substance you are abusing.
I think your next read should be about Nancy Spungen, another book I think all people who deal with addicts and mental illness should be informed about. If you want the details I'll post them up here for you.
Izzy!
Have I been honest with my therapists... not in as many words, no... I just seem to manage to get the good bits of my week out and the bad bits get totally forgotten as they're so pleased that stuff went right for me they think it's massive progress, which some of it is, but it's starting to stress me out now. My mum has said she is gonna come and help me explain, which I'm really needing her help to do otherwise this whole thing is gonna get out of control.. I know what I'm like. And I don't know why I just nod and agree with what people say. I'm scared of letting myself be put out there under the scrutiny of some bloke I hardly know... ??? Is it, or am I just not facing up to myself...?
As for the books lessons... yes, I found myself relating totally to Christiane. I've never been physically dependant on alcohol, so I can't relate to the physical dependance to heroin. But I can imagine it... especially the psychological aspects and the feeling of desperation to get hold of the substance you are abusing.
I think your next read should be about Nancy Spungen, another book I think all people who deal with addicts and mental illness should be informed about. If you want the details I'll post them up here for you.
Izzy!
Glad things are going better with your Dad. I do the same thing all the time. I always have a totally different script running in my head how I think things will go and they 9 times out of 10 go the exact opposite. I am working on it though.
Is your shrink a man? If so perhaps a woman would be a better fit for you? Just a thought. I know for sure that I wouldn't spill it to a man. Not that men don't make good psychiatrists but for me personally a woman would be better. Glad your mum will go with ya and help explain you a bit better. If it works that is fantastic.
I am sooo happy to hear you are doing better!
As for the new read suggestion....post away girlfriend. I am always up for book suggestions. The last one was fantastic.
Hope your day is going great!
Take care!
Is your shrink a man? If so perhaps a woman would be a better fit for you? Just a thought. I know for sure that I wouldn't spill it to a man. Not that men don't make good psychiatrists but for me personally a woman would be better. Glad your mum will go with ya and help explain you a bit better. If it works that is fantastic.
I am sooo happy to hear you are doing better!
As for the new read suggestion....post away girlfriend. I am always up for book suggestions. The last one was fantastic.
Hope your day is going great!
Take care!
Thanks Valarie.
Ok, the details are:
And I Don't Want to Live This Life by Deborah Spungen
I'm not sure how readily available it is as I had to search for months for my copy. I'll have a look on Amazon and post back.
Ok, the details are:
And I Don't Want to Live This Life by Deborah Spungen
I'm not sure how readily available it is as I had to search for months for my copy. I'll have a look on Amazon and post back.
Thanks pal. Have a great day Izzy!! :-)
I just ordered it. I should have it in a couple of days.
I just ordered it. I should have it in a couple of days.
Hi Izzy. glad to know things seem better for you. Take care girl and I wish you all the best. Give all your pets a hug for me. God bless and be safe.
Valerie....I've been thinking about you often. Glad to hear you're doing well. Being an ostrich isn't always a bad thing. I find it good to regroup and just sit back and listen...taking the cotton from my ears and putting it in my mouth. :) I, myself, have been kind of quiet these days until I just wrote poor Lacey a novel on another thread. :)
xoxo thinking of you xoxo
xoxo thinking of you xoxo
Hey Zipper
No worries pal am good. I just have been taking a bit of the break from the boards. They become addictive for me sometimes. Thanks for thinking of me.
When I was referring to being an ostrich I meant avoiding things that I need to take care of in my life. I take what I need in many places and definitely leave the rest.
Hope you are doing well too. Take Care.
No worries pal am good. I just have been taking a bit of the break from the boards. They become addictive for me sometimes. Thanks for thinking of me.
When I was referring to being an ostrich I meant avoiding things that I need to take care of in my life. I take what I need in many places and definitely leave the rest.
Hope you are doing well too. Take Care.
Hey Val hope things are going well with you. whatever you do girl don't bury your head in the sand you are way too outgoing for that lol. Take it easy and please do keep posting on here. God bless and take care
Thanks Pirate and Zipper,
Don't worry I am good. I am still sober so at the moment that is my main priority. You know the drill though. Eventually we all have to get to the root of why we escaped with drugs and alcohol in the first place. Nothin like being a dry drunk/addict. I think it's all part of the process.
First we get sober and all the feelings we were running from come crashing in. Then we learn to feel again and deal with it. The thought of dragging up past crap is just not stuff I am willing to do at the moment. I think we all go through it though. It's part of recovery.
Have a great day ladies! :-)
Don't worry I am good. I am still sober so at the moment that is my main priority. You know the drill though. Eventually we all have to get to the root of why we escaped with drugs and alcohol in the first place. Nothin like being a dry drunk/addict. I think it's all part of the process.
First we get sober and all the feelings we were running from come crashing in. Then we learn to feel again and deal with it. The thought of dragging up past crap is just not stuff I am willing to do at the moment. I think we all go through it though. It's part of recovery.
Have a great day ladies! :-)
YEP VAL I know 100% what you are talking about. Good luck!
Hi Valarie, I hope you like the book...!! I got a lot out of it myself...
Best Wishes,
Izzy
Best Wishes,
Izzy
Thanks Izzy,
It hasn't been delivered yet. I expect I will get it early next week. I will definitely let you know how it comes along.
Hope you are having a peaceful day. Stay in the now. :-)
It hasn't been delivered yet. I expect I will get it early next week. I will definitely let you know how it comes along.
Hope you are having a peaceful day. Stay in the now. :-)
Hi Valarie, I look forward to your comments regarding the book.
I've had a good evening, we all sat down together and watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, the one with Johnny Depp. It was on the tv and I hadn't seen it before. I was convinced I was going to hate it, being somewhat of a Gene Wilder fan myself, but it was really good. I laughed at it... I had a good time.
The clocks change here tomorrow (UK).
Bye for now,
Izzy
I've had a good evening, we all sat down together and watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, the one with Johnny Depp. It was on the tv and I hadn't seen it before. I was convinced I was going to hate it, being somewhat of a Gene Wilder fan myself, but it was really good. I laughed at it... I had a good time.
The clocks change here tomorrow (UK).
Bye for now,
Izzy
Anything with Johnny Depp in is worth watching, he is gorgeous!!
Mmm yeah, yummy! lol!
Just jumpin' in to say hi Gals!
Hello!!
Who do you like man wise? My favourite for years and years has been Johnny Depp....
Who do you like man wise? My favourite for years and years has been Johnny Depp....
