Vwgirl

My name is "VWGirl" (on this site) and I am an addict & alcoholic. My sobriety date is 11/22/03. 5 main factors that brought me to my knees which led to my surrender & provided me with the complete willingness to change my life: my daughter's walking out on me; 2) me walking off my job; 3) trying to commit suicide but wouldn't die 4) sick & tired of being sick & tired 5) realizing I was on the brink of insanity (my moment of clarity). I started to use and drink pretty much on a daily basis when I was 16 yrs old-I am now 45 yrs old. I believe I was born an addict/alcoholic personality. Drugs and alcohol stopped working for me when I was 23 yrs old. I was intro'd to the 12 steps of recovery at that time but never embraced the program. Today, I do what I am told: take direction from my Sponsor, attend meetings regularly, perform service work, share my story with other struggling addicts & alcoholics, work AND live the 12 steps of recovery and connect with my Higher Power throughout the day. It's not always easy, but waking up today on a Saturday morning, no less, without a hangover, the shakes, the sweats and/or vomiting with or without a headache is making me feel very grateful. Being able to participate in this forum is just another gift of sobriety. Thanks to all who share their stories - a lot of times those stories are what keeps me sober one more day!