HI hows it going yes iam posting again i had a session with my counsler this morning and i came out of that room feeling alot less guilt the pain is still very hard i know its going to take awhile to get over my grief but i feel like a waight has been lifted off my shoulders i showed my counseler the letter brian left behind for me and he helped me read between the lines my cousin had made up his mind a long time ago to end his life and the fact that he was so much at peace with himself and so happy just like that all of a sudden and did not need any support thats when he decieded to end his life he was just sticking around to say his goodbys in his secretive way by going to visit people and family he had not seen in years with out us catching on well it made more sense the way the counseler said it but anyway i know now that i was there for him and i tried to help him but iam not a mind reader iam only human and he OD himself no one helped him so i want to thank u my dear friend and the others here for helping me decied to go see a counseler iam going to be fine i know i will make it. LOVE AND HUGS LITTLE H.
Hi H sometimes out of sorrow comes positivity im so pleased your understanding the grieving process and its not altered your plan of recovery your such a strong person i know you can get through this and come out the other side a better person with much more understanding. I am not sure this is what you might not of thought about but for some people reading your struggle and how your coping its got to be a inspiration for them they can see that in times of need people can be there for you no matter who they are or what they are going through you are in my thoughts hun and always will be where ever you are and whatever your doing. to me you are one of the most compassionate and loving people i know and im honored to be your friend. jackie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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You two really inspire me, thanks for being here
Paul
You two really inspire me, thanks for being here
Paul
Paul ((((((((hugs)))))))))) take care of you jackie xx
HI PAUL thanks for your kind words when i first came on this pain site i was so mixed up there are alot of kind careing people on this board but jacky was my life line its very rare to come across someone like her wich u can share each your own opinions with and not have them throw it back at u with anger and insults just because u dont always see things the same way but jacky is the type of person who respect ones opinion as do i anyway keep posting paul u are wellcome here .
