He is almost 26 years old. I saw a smart, promising athlete crash and burn, without caring who is in his wake. He has been struggling with pain pills for 2 to 3 years, that I know of. He had a spinal fusion one year ago and was on pain management a year before that, he claims he is still in pain. This was my honor society, advanced studies diploma kid who dropped out of university because he couldnt get up out of bed. His addiction may have started right out of high school, who knows. I only finally got it this past September when he stole my purse. I didn't even get it when he took my pain pills from rotator cuff surgery. This is the hardest thing I have ever dealt with in my life. I love him more that life itself, but i cannot rescue him anymore. This issue is costing my sleep, health and well being. I am a fixer, most mom's are. But I can't fix him. I would give my life for him in a heartbeat, he was/is my baby. This is so hard, it was almost unbearable. I reached out to the good Lord for strength to endure. I am still here. I blamed myself, my husband, anyone and everything until I realized it was his bad choices. How i long to hug him and hold him and tell him it will be ok. But it won't. He is currently in jail awaiting trial, not for drugs, but i am sure that is around the corner. I would give him a kidney, but I wouldn't give him the key to my front door. I just don't know what to do and how to help.
Check out the Families/Partners of Addicts posts! There is great support in there. Consider NARC-Anon - a meeting for people who love addicts. You can love your son, nothing wrong with that and he needs it. But you can't enable him and you can't cure him. If you can, let him know about this site, NA, PA and other support systems. He has to care for himself; but he does not have to do it alone!!! Best wishes - from one mom to another!!!
This is truly heart breaking . It's one thing hurting ourselves with pills but watching your child must be unbearable .
I know how hurt my own parents would be looking at my situation and thank god I realised I had a problem before things really took a turn for the worse .
Don't know what else to say ......I pray to god that things work out for you and your son .
Hugs
Millie
Ps Firststeps is right if you look on the board they're unfortunately other parents in a similar situation xxxxx
Narcotics Anonymous can help your son and Nar-Anon can help you.
Look Nar-Anon up in your phone book or on-line and get to their meetings.
There you will meet lots of folks like yourself who got caught up in a loved-one's addiction.
They will help you out.
All the best.
Bob
Look Nar-Anon up in your phone book or on-line and get to their meetings.
There you will meet lots of folks like yourself who got caught up in a loved-one's addiction.
They will help you out.
All the best.
Bob
