Want To Use! Feeling Empty.....

HI wrote in this morning...wicked craves.....feel the want.I have no pills in the house good.If I did i would! That sucks! Ihave said I have been clean for 15 days .....no o.c....no .....percs .......pills are bad RIGHT? would like some support.. anyone....need something positive to read...........help.......
Hey Florida, yes pills are definitely bad...you know it! What else on earth could make us feel so bad after making us think we feel so good doing it? What else could control us so much? Think about it. Believe me, I struggle every day not to succumb back to where I was taking 20 lortabs and about 20 somas A DAY! When I think about that now, I do not know How I maintained for so long doing those little pieces of evil. They just totally take over if you let them, and sometimes, you don't even let them, it just happens before you know it. I am glad you don't have anything in the house if you really want to stop now. All I can do is be here for you. When I get like you are feeling I remember how bad I felt after taking so much dope and how I swore to myself I would never do that to my body again. It is absolutely the worse feeling going thru withdrawals isn't it. Well, you hang tight. I will be up for a little longer. Good luck
DEAR SOUTHRENGRL

HOPE YOU ARE STILL UP. WHAT IS A SOMAS MY SISTER IN LAW IS ALWAYS ASKING FOR THIS DRUG GEE YA THINK SHE HAS A PROBLEM?
WELL I'M IN DAY THREE GOING FROM 6 T0 8 7.5 VIC A DAY DOWN TO THREE. CAN GO FOR ABOUT 5 HOURS THEN CRAVES START DOES IT GET BETTER EACH DAY MORE TIME INBETWEEN PILLS. THANKS ALOT TO EVERYONE I,M STILL HERE

SUEFOX83
I give thanks southern for the kind words I know this s*** its not good ......withdraws suck.......ITS HARD to think of how bad you feel. for me only a week ago ... I was so sick and yet I still would love to get high..I know thats bad ...I am still clean right now Thats what counts right one day and one at a time right ? one sleepless night at a time......anyone in the same boat....hope we all stay afloat.or sink to the bottom once more.
hey sue read your message soma in a muscle relaxant.
Florida, are you going to meetings, or doing something to shore up your resistance to the addiction? Meetings will not hurt your chances of getting sober. I promise.

August
florida,
I agree with August...And also, I was told , it's ok to want to use, but, we don't have to...Hang in there, this could be your last obsession!!!!
Take care............................God bless.......................................Bob
Florida,
Just a quick note to remind "you don't want to use", first of all the emotional baggage kills you, and you feel awful doing it, second of all, it's not what it used to be, now you know you don't want it in your life. So basically, you use, feel good 1 hour, and shi* the rest of the day, and feel like your back to square one, scared of the withdrawals, but know what to expect. Go to a N.A. meeting/and or find a sponsor. I just took Oxy for 6 days, feel like crap, withdrawing again, after 3 weeks of no Oxycontin, and feeling sooooo good, head clear and almost all energy back. I can't wait for my mind to get clear, and feel again. I only took 2 tablets a day! Believe me, the last thing you want to do, is THIS!!!! Sorry Florida, just wanted to remind you , that using SUCKS!!!!! Take care, and congradulations on your one week I believe, can't wait to be there again. Sorry if I was hard, but it's the truth. Best Wishes
DEAR FLORIDA

HANGIN THERE! I'M IN DAY 4 AND IT LOOKS A LITTLE BRIGHTER THAN YESTERDAY SO PLEASE HOLD ON RIGHT NOW I'M WASHING ALL THE DISHES THAT HAVE PILED UP FOR THE PAST THREE DAYS. MY HUSBAND IS GREAT BUT HE DOESN'T DO DISHES VACUMES BUT NO DISHES. SO DO WHAT EVER YOU CAN TO KEEP BUSY IF YOU CAN'T MOVE READ THIS BOARD IT HAS HELPED ME GET THROUGH THESE DAYS, I'M NOT THERE YET BUT I CAN SEE HOPE SO PLEASE..........DONT' USE MY HOPE WILL BE WITH YOU AND I'M HOME ALL DAY IF YOU WANT TO TALK

SUEFOX83
SueFox,
Great job, good for you, your smart getting up and moving the best you can. Each day will get better is right. I was on long-acting Oxy, but by Day 6 or 7 I was up and out each day, and just kept going, finally cleaned house from top to bottom, and the rest was history ;o). Your doing great!!!!!!!

P.S. in a relapse now, but I learned a GREAT LESSON, love feeling normal, so I am hoping the w/d will be easier, but the emotional garbage is awful. You never want to be in this place again. Thanks it was good to see your doing so well, inspiring to many others.......
You go, I'm in day one and at work. The chills and the leg pain is almost unbearable. I cant wait to get to day 4 or 5. I know I'll feel better then.
Keep your chin up!!!