This is the first weekend that I've not NEEDED to go to a meeting and for that I'm grateful. Instead, I've WANTED to go. Of course, that may have something to do with going to one both yesterday and today, but that's good for me if it's working. My decision to 'hire' a sponsor and get on THE Program instead of working MY Program has empowered me--suddenly opened my eyes to "How It Works."
My Sponsor explained to me WHY we are powerless over alcohol and WHY it's beyond our control. Right out of the chute! It's a medical opinion! Well Eff me runnin'! Suddenly it clicked! He also told me to read the doctor's findings in the Big Book and gave me some 'home work' to practice over the next week or so: ASK for MY HP to show me something "cool" each day and then to look for it, and finally to THANK MY HP for showing it to me. I suppose an effort to define Gratefulness everyday--something I already get. So far it works, though. And each day is filled with a new wonder for the details of life that I'd covered up with either hangover symptoms, self-pity, busy-ness, or drink. I know I've talked about this before but I've found a renewed sense of security and serenity.
Anyway, so suddenly I feel that I don't NEED to go to the meetings but rather, I simply want to be iin the fellowship. I'm no longer frightened of drinking. Weird, huh? It's like, TA DAA! MY Higher Power said, "See? I TOLD you everything would be okay!"
Anyway, just checking in. If you don't mind, I'd like to share the journey--just kind of "pass it on" as it were... :) I am, in fact, grateful to be a recovering alcoholic.
peaceness
Hey Skg!! Your threads are always soo uplifting and positive! :) Thank you for them.
I just wanted to make a comment. Know that your alcoholism is working double time to get you back. At 6 months plus it scared me to see you say you were no longer frightened of drinking. I don't think you should be frightened but I definitely would always keep a healthy respect for it.
The sense of peace is awesome but it is also when we have to be our most vigilant and not let our guard down! JMHO :)
Hope you are having a great day!
I just wanted to make a comment. Know that your alcoholism is working double time to get you back. At 6 months plus it scared me to see you say you were no longer frightened of drinking. I don't think you should be frightened but I definitely would always keep a healthy respect for it.
The sense of peace is awesome but it is also when we have to be our most vigilant and not let our guard down! JMHO :)
Hope you are having a great day!
Hi Valarie,
Thank-you. Really. I appreciate that you're skeptical--I am too--of the simple transformation. Perhaps I didn't use the right words and that's not surprising! I guess it means that I have TOTAL faith in MY Higher Power that now that I've taken the most difficult step toward recovery, He/She/It has taken my fear--just for today--so long as I lquit trying to snatch back the power.
Yeah. That's it.
Don't Be Snatchin' It Back!
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| it scared me to see you say you were no longer frightened of drinking. I don't think you should be frightened but I definitely would always keep a healthy respect for it. |
Thank-you. Really. I appreciate that you're skeptical--I am too--of the simple transformation. Perhaps I didn't use the right words and that's not surprising! I guess it means that I have TOTAL faith in MY Higher Power that now that I've taken the most difficult step toward recovery, He/She/It has taken my fear--just for today--so long as I lquit trying to snatch back the power.
Yeah. That's it.
Don't Be Snatchin' It Back!
Hey Skg....don't get me wrong I wasn't skeptical of you at all. I think it is awesome how far you have come and I love to read your positive uplifting posts.
I only wanted to warn you what happens around 6 months. I have never relapsed but I remember every feeling I have had along the way. I try to always stay a step ahead of them. Just want you to be prepared for everything because you are doing so great. Didn't want you to have any surprises.
Keep up the good work and have a great day my friend.
BTW...how do you put the little box around the quotes like you did??? I can never figure out this computer stuff!! LOLOL
I only wanted to warn you what happens around 6 months. I have never relapsed but I remember every feeling I have had along the way. I try to always stay a step ahead of them. Just want you to be prepared for everything because you are doing so great. Didn't want you to have any surprises.
Keep up the good work and have a great day my friend.
BTW...how do you put the little box around the quotes like you did??? I can never figure out this computer stuff!! LOLOL
Gidday Skg
Just wanna say thankyou for youre posts and the laughter in my head and heart when i think of the happiness gratitude and hope that you spread
light and love zac
Just wanna say thankyou for youre posts and the laughter in my head and heart when i think of the happiness gratitude and hope that you spread
light and love zac
Hi Valarie,
Thanks for that. I've been aware of the creeping, cunning, baffling sense of accomplishment--and that would require some drinking--so it's one of the reasons that I dove into the Sponsor issue: Because MY Program wasn't working. I have to work THE Program.
Thank you for the bumps--it's a WE program and I need it too. :)
PS: The "quote" html is the open square paren box next to the 'p' key with the word quote in it, then closed with the slash first.
and zac, thank you for your consistent positive comments. You RAWK. :)
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| I only wanted to warn you what happens around 6 months. I have never relapsed but I remember every feeling I have had along the way. I try to always stay a step ahead of them. Just want you to be prepared for everything because you are doing so great. |
Thanks for that. I've been aware of the creeping, cunning, baffling sense of accomplishment--and that would require some drinking--so it's one of the reasons that I dove into the Sponsor issue: Because MY Program wasn't working. I have to work THE Program.
Thank you for the bumps--it's a WE program and I need it too. :)
PS: The "quote" html is the open square paren box next to the 'p' key with the word quote in it, then closed with the slash first.
and zac, thank you for your consistent positive comments. You RAWK. :)
