As I stand here watching the sunrise, feeling the starting warmth of another day. Feeling the freshness of the air surrounding my body, I am wearing my insides out. Coming alive by the miracles and mysteries of my life I pour out my soul, my inner being is in touch with every feeling. Problems seem so far in the distance giving me a brake from the world. Every nerve is alive with love and compassion for self and others. To embrace the day with knowing my life is a gift giving to me by my God, my friend, my mentor. I never want this to end, I want to stay here forever. Is this a glimpse of heaven?
Then the day wears on, I see problems coming and I hear the distant thunder. My insides retreat back to their safe place while my mind is hardened by the misery and harshness in the world. The callousness of everyone around making me feel incompetent and inferior for not playing their game. Where did my glimpse of heaven go? Oh, what I would do to have the strength to stand before the day.
I cant wait for the morning so I can wear my insides out once again.
I had to post this, just to tell somebody how I feel, thank you.
Oh God, Lineman, that's just how I feel. I've been so much happier this past week and yet today everything feels grey. You write beautifully and it lifted my spirits to read your description of the joy that you felt.
The day is grey but suddenly I don't feel so alone and you have reminded me that the colours will soon come flooding back.
And that thought leads me to this: the colours are always there. It is me who flees the world. I want to find and use the tools that will help me see them with my soul and hear the birdsong with my heart.
Thank you for taking me there.
Take care.
The day is grey but suddenly I don't feel so alone and you have reminded me that the colours will soon come flooding back.
And that thought leads me to this: the colours are always there. It is me who flees the world. I want to find and use the tools that will help me see them with my soul and hear the birdsong with my heart.
Thank you for taking me there.
Take care.
Hey Lineman a beautiful post and one I am sure we can all relate to. I love watching the sun rise. I get up early every morning before the sun rises so I can be alone .It is my favorite time of day and it's MY time. A time for me to think,to reflect,to plan,to do just whatever I want because no one or nothing can touch me. The universe is mine to hold. There is nothing in this world so peaceful as to hear the birds chirping in the early morning as they begin their day and to see the sun come over the horizon. At that time of day I am at peace and the world is a beautiful place. I think what we have to do is hang on to that moment as the day takes us where it will. We have a choice to let the harshness of the world invade the peacefulness ,the happiness ,the contentment we feel at that moment or we can keep ourselves surrounded by the warmth that was bestowed upon us ,by keeping our thoughts positive and to cling to that image for the rest of the day. I truly believe that if you were to go outside and watch the sunrise ,you are beginning your day with God as he lightens your darkness .The sunrise is a beautiful recurring event that is taken for granted . It brings us to a brand new day where we have the free will to choose our attitude for that day.We may not be able to chose all that happens to us but we can chose how we will react. So lineman the next morning when it's nice weather ,take your coffee outside watch the sunrise and get a dose of positivity to start your day. God bless and take care
Thank you for the replies Martin and Pirate, you have helped me and brought me further along in this quest for everlasting peace.
Pirate, what I would do to be trained in the discipline of mind to keep these feelings alive throughout the day. Maybe I am my worst enemy, maybe I feel too much, maybe I take things too seriously, maybe I think of others too much? Maybe I need to wear my rain gear to let the life's storms of the day be repelled from my mind.
Martin, with every flutter of the little bird's wings I hear the words faith, hope, love, courage....I need to listen for the birds thoughout my day.
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| We have a choice to let the harshness of the world invade the peacefulness ,the happiness ,the contentment we feel at that moment or we can keep ourselves surrounded by the warmth that was bestowed upon us ,by keeping our thoughts positive and to cling to that image for the rest of the day. |
Pirate, what I would do to be trained in the discipline of mind to keep these feelings alive throughout the day. Maybe I am my worst enemy, maybe I feel too much, maybe I take things too seriously, maybe I think of others too much? Maybe I need to wear my rain gear to let the life's storms of the day be repelled from my mind.
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| I want to find and use the tools that will help me see them with my soul and hear the birdsong with my heart. |
Martin, with every flutter of the little bird's wings I hear the words faith, hope, love, courage....I need to listen for the birds thoughout my day.
Lineman: I don't think there is such a thing as feeling too much. It's how we deal with those feelings that determines what state of mind we are in At present I am in cognitive therapy and am trying to change the way I react to a thought. I have learned that a lot of my thoughts were negative (surprise surprise) lol and some what I perceived to be bad which brought on guilt. I am learning that I can have a thought which is not so pleasant about someone and still love them.I can feel angry and have the right to be when someone say something or have done something to me that hurts or is just plain mean. But it's how I deal with that anger that is the important thing. A lot of my anger stemmed from guilt a guilt caused by my inability to accept or deal with my feelings. It is important to let yourself feel. Isn't that why we drank and drugged and tried to escape the world we lived in?because we couldn't or wouldn't deal with our feelings and our thoughts. Our thoughts and feelings make us who we are. we are what we think,therefore we create our own reality. YOu also said maybe you think of others too much. In what way do you mean that? It is great that you show the people you love how much you care and think of them. However if you are doing things to "please" people because you don't want to upset them or you want things to run smoothly or you don't want to rock the boat then you are doing it for the wrong reasons. Kindness is a wonderful trait for any human to have and so is compassion but it has to be shown not because you feel you have to but because you want to. People pleasing is not kindness ,there is a difference between pleasing and caring. You are a beautiful person lineman and I know you are kind and thoughtful and yes maybe you do think too much but that is what makes you so endearing. I believe it takes a strong man to express his feelings,heck anyone can keep things to themselves,and bury it up. that is not difficult at all. The difficult part is letting it all out in the open where it can be dealt with. I don't think you need your rain gear as you put it. Let the feelings come and when they do face them ,but with the brightness and the warmth of the morning sun that you started your day with. Have a great day Lineman and God bless and take care.
I agree with you pirate. Thanks for reminding me....I so need reminding lol
Great thread! Don't be to hard on yourself. Remember who walks beside you at all times. Progress not perfection. We can progress in our thinking and actions. But, it isn't our job to be be perfect, it's God's job.
