I relapse again off weed for like the 50th time I’m so sick of this cycle but I’m mentally not ready to stop smoking but my body is. I only been smoking for one year and develop serve CHS. I thought I could trick my body by skipping days and tryna take breaks but I can’t. I feel like if god was gonna give me a broken brain , kids that need extra help, a sick mom, he could of designed my body to accept the weed cuz truthfully that’s the only thing that helps and quotes my mind and I’m so much nicer happier and I actually wanna stay alive this sucks so bad my adhd makes me have impulses and yes I have meds for anxiety and ADHD, but I keep throwing it up for some reason and yes, they switched it and it’s the same thing. I can’t keep it down for some reason.