Hi there everyone. One day until Friday,,, my hardest time to not want to reach for that drink..I've done exceptionally well but Fridays always seem to be the toughest to get through. It's definetely a trigger day for me. Please put me in your prayers to keep me strong.
God Bless
lovedove
Hey,
Let's pray for each other. My weekend binges (usually) occur on the weekend, like Friday after work I'll go to the bar (where I work) and drink. Last time I did that I needed a ride home-go figure lol! Plus it's been a crazy week and have a huge test tomorrow that I need to pass, so I'll surely be feelin the urge tomorrow nite. And (does it ever end!!!) my parents went out of town (I live w/ them til school is done) and they left me alone w/ a hige wet bar. This could be dangerous. I think I'll be okay, but scared too.
So again, let's pray for each other?
Take care,
Amanda
Let's pray for each other. My weekend binges (usually) occur on the weekend, like Friday after work I'll go to the bar (where I work) and drink. Last time I did that I needed a ride home-go figure lol! Plus it's been a crazy week and have a huge test tomorrow that I need to pass, so I'll surely be feelin the urge tomorrow nite. And (does it ever end!!!) my parents went out of town (I live w/ them til school is done) and they left me alone w/ a hige wet bar. This could be dangerous. I think I'll be okay, but scared too.
So again, let's pray for each other?
Take care,
Amanda
Hi Amanda! Thanks for your support and prayers! Wow alone with a wet bar, that would have been one of my dreams come true! That I must say would be a HUGE temptation, but then again, there is a cold beer and wine store just around the corner from me so it's never really hard is it?? It's just all about choices, I find that if I eat really good it usually helps with the cravings, but not always, the cravings seems to always be there, it's just what we do with them! I wish you the best of luck with your exam, and just remember how you feel the next day after a binge, and you definetely don't want to feel like that the day of your exam, you'll need a clear head for sure! I will be praying for you, and thanks so much for including me in yours! I'll probably be on the site tomorrow night around this time 6:00pm western time (I live in British Columbia Canada) and I'll let you know how I'm doing, and if your around check in and let me know how you are. I rented Walk the Line and Derailed to watch tomorrow night, good distraction, I'm a big movie buff these days!!
Love and Light
Liz :)
Love and Light
Liz :)
Hi Girls, May I suggest to pray for the obsession and cravings to removed when you awake in the morning and pray with gratitude when you hit the pillow at night for another day sober. You both are doing so well....think the drink all the way through....remember it's easier to stay sober than get sober. I believe in both of you...take it easy!
Good Morning VWGirl! Thank-you so much for your words of encouragement, and praise! I did pray this morning to relieve my cravings and my thoughts about alcohol, and I'm feeling really good! I love waking up with a clear head, and remembering what I did the night before! there is nothing like it! I think I am going to go and get my nails done today! (never had a manicure, and maybe I'll even get a pedicure!!)
God Bless!
liz :)
God Bless!
liz :)
Hey,
Just wanted to say thanks & let everyone know I got an 86% (that's really good in nursing school) on my exam today. I studied so much and there were a few times last night I thought about having a beer-just cause my parents are out of town and no would know. No one except me thought. That's the thing that I really keep thinking about. If I wanted to I could drink tonight. No one is here to stop me or be disappointed in me. But I would feel so awful for letting myself down that I don't think that kind of misery is worth it.
It's hard cause all my friends from school were talking about going out to happy hour to celebrate b/c we all did well on the test. And I can't be a part of that. That's a disappointment I can't really describe. I guess I should try not to focus on that though and pay more attention to the good that will come from me not going (no risk of drunk driving, no saying things I can't remember, no kissing (or worse lol) guys I don't know, no embarrassment b/c my friends had to take care of me. When you weigh your options, going out has far more negatives than staying in. I still miss my friends & socializing though :-(
Enough-I passed my test I should just enjoy that!
Off to work--Have a great night. Oh...Walk the Line is awesome-I'm obsessed w/ joaquin phoenix & the music is great!
Later,
Amanda
Just wanted to say thanks & let everyone know I got an 86% (that's really good in nursing school) on my exam today. I studied so much and there were a few times last night I thought about having a beer-just cause my parents are out of town and no would know. No one except me thought. That's the thing that I really keep thinking about. If I wanted to I could drink tonight. No one is here to stop me or be disappointed in me. But I would feel so awful for letting myself down that I don't think that kind of misery is worth it.
It's hard cause all my friends from school were talking about going out to happy hour to celebrate b/c we all did well on the test. And I can't be a part of that. That's a disappointment I can't really describe. I guess I should try not to focus on that though and pay more attention to the good that will come from me not going (no risk of drunk driving, no saying things I can't remember, no kissing (or worse lol) guys I don't know, no embarrassment b/c my friends had to take care of me. When you weigh your options, going out has far more negatives than staying in. I still miss my friends & socializing though :-(
Enough-I passed my test I should just enjoy that!
Off to work--Have a great night. Oh...Walk the Line is awesome-I'm obsessed w/ joaquin phoenix & the music is great!
Later,
Amanda
Amanda,
Congrats on your test score!!! Awesome! Also congrats on not picking up that drink.
You guys are doing great. I like what VW says about it's easier to stay sober than to get sober.
Keep holding on. We can do it.
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Congrats on your test score!!! Awesome! Also congrats on not picking up that drink.
You guys are doing great. I like what VW says about it's easier to stay sober than to get sober.
Keep holding on. We can do it.
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Hi Amanda! CONGRADULATIONS on your exam score! 86% is awesome!! it does seem strange not having a celebration drink or should I say drinks, but you could always do something else with your friends like go get a manicure or a pedicure, get a facial or spa treatment, something that will make you feel great inside and outside! I am going to get a manicure and pedicure to celebrate my test scores as well (I'm a pet nutrition consultant, and also own a pet sitting service) I'm getting 100% marks, I couldn't have done that before when I was actively drinking that is for sure! I'm so proud of you Amanda! and I really appreciate our chats together! and our support system we have going, I look forward to reading your posts! I laughed so hard when you said that about the guys kissing or something else, been there done that!! YUCK!! things we do when we drank..double YUCK!! Hope you have (had) a great night at work, I 'm looking after 2 labs and a beagle tonight, and watching walk the line, I'm glad you said it's good, I've heard it is can't wait to watch it!!
love and light,
Liz
love and light,
Liz
Good Evening Ladies from where I live, SoCal...First off, I loved, loved Walk the Line, in fact I watched it twice. Taking care of yourself and treating yourself nice is something we alcoholics are not very good at...so LD, good for you for going to get a manicure and pedicure. If your an alcoholic like me (and believe me I can identify with all that each of you has shared) nothing good comes from drinking, remember one is never enough...and more than one is too much! What helped me in early Sobriety was being accountable to one person and check in with that person (my Sponsor) to let her know I would do whatever it takes to stay sober just for that day...you gals could do something like that...be accountable to each other each day, one day at a time. Where I live in SoCal there are a ton of meetings, fellowshipping and I never feel alone (lonely). In fact there will be a sober party on Sunday to celebrate the March birthdays. There will be two live bands, all kinds of food, dancing all without drinking..these parties are so much fun...take it easy, you guys are doing it!
Hey,
I so much appreciate the conversations I have with all of you! But, I feel like a total failure cause I had a drink tonight. I'm more sorry to myself, but I feel like I let all of you down too.
I was doing good, but I got off work & got more bad news about my ex-b/f. And my sister was there drinking and blah,blah,blah...
I feel like such a failure b/c I was feeling so good about myself all week. I think I need to find an AA meeting. Even writing this now makes me feel so ashamed b/c I feel like I'm disappointing everyone. I'm trying so hard to deal with all of this.
I'm sorry for what I did. I'm sorry b/c I should be...and b/c I so look forward to talking to you all every night.
I hate to even post this, but I have to be honest with myself...
Hope everyone else is doing well,
Amanda
I so much appreciate the conversations I have with all of you! But, I feel like a total failure cause I had a drink tonight. I'm more sorry to myself, but I feel like I let all of you down too.
I was doing good, but I got off work & got more bad news about my ex-b/f. And my sister was there drinking and blah,blah,blah...
I feel like such a failure b/c I was feeling so good about myself all week. I think I need to find an AA meeting. Even writing this now makes me feel so ashamed b/c I feel like I'm disappointing everyone. I'm trying so hard to deal with all of this.
I'm sorry for what I did. I'm sorry b/c I should be...and b/c I so look forward to talking to you all every night.
I hate to even post this, but I have to be honest with myself...
Hope everyone else is doing well,
Amanda
Hi Amanda, I'm doing great this morning, no hangover, cottonmouth or waking up not remembering what I did last night. You need not apologize to anyone for drinking that's what alcoholics do...drink. However, there is a way out and there is a solution...try to hit an AA meeting and try to bring an open-mind, willingness and you already have shown you can be honest so take that with you too. You never have to feel the way you do right now again. It takes every drink to get us where we are...check back in and let us know how you are doing.
Good Morning Amanda, Oh hun don't be hard on yourself, you just need to find a stress release other than booze,it's hard because we all know that once you have that first drink, you think ah whatever. Today is all you have, check to see if there are any AA meetings around your area, and check one out, I'm going to do that this week. I managed with the grace of God to stay sober this weekend, and boy it was hard, my on and off b/f was a complete jerk, but that's his choice and I'm finally learning to take care of me which has been a real struggle all in itself. Don't feel like you let us down, we are here for you, and I really like the support we give each other, and VW Girl you are a wonderful lady and I so appreciate your words of wisdom and care. I actually did my own manicure, bought myself a manicure set, new pretty pink nailpolish and some nail stickers to put on my nails, they look SO nice! haven't done that before!! and yes Walk The Line was an excellent movie, I cried, thought the movie was so touching.I'd watch it again!! Have a wonderful day, I'm off the work soon, it's a rainy kinda day so it won't be so hard to be stuck inside!
Love waking up feeling so refreshed, I was actually up at 5:40am this morning!! that used to be the time I would be crawling home at!!
God Bless,and Amanda as always stay strong and I will be praying for you!!
Liz :)
Love waking up feeling so refreshed, I was actually up at 5:40am this morning!! that used to be the time I would be crawling home at!!
God Bless,and Amanda as always stay strong and I will be praying for you!!
Liz :)
Thank you both for what you said. I'm not gonna let one time mess everything up for me. I just keep thinking about how good I feel not drinking. I get a little overcome by everything and drinking has always been my first escape, and that has to change.
My ex b/f admitted he relapsed again (on heroin). He got locked out of his apartment. I let stay at my house...big mistake. When I got to work on Sat. I realized 30 dollars was missing from my wallet. When he finally called later on Sat. I got him to admit he relapsed. He says he didn't steal the money but I know he did. Now he has no place to stay (he's at a "friends" house) and he hasn't called his parents. He missed a counselor meeting on Fri. cause he got high and missed his recovery meeting on Sat. I've been telling him that I couldn't talk to him if he missed those things. I told him I love him, but I can't have this in my life anymore.
I have to worry about myself, and all he brings to my life right now is added saddness & stress (which just triggers me to want to drink) When I take a step back and look at what's going on I just can't beleive this is the reality of my life right now. I knew this could happen w/ him and it did. I took that chance, but now I've gotta let go and worry about myself. That's really har for me cause do much of my make-up is worrying and caring for other people (go figure I'm gonna be a nurse!) But my personal likfe can't be about worrying about others and never myself.
Liz, I'm so happy you made it through the weekend:-) You're doing great. Thanks for all the encouragement (everyone). I really need it right now.
Enjoy Sunday
Amanda
My ex b/f admitted he relapsed again (on heroin). He got locked out of his apartment. I let stay at my house...big mistake. When I got to work on Sat. I realized 30 dollars was missing from my wallet. When he finally called later on Sat. I got him to admit he relapsed. He says he didn't steal the money but I know he did. Now he has no place to stay (he's at a "friends" house) and he hasn't called his parents. He missed a counselor meeting on Fri. cause he got high and missed his recovery meeting on Sat. I've been telling him that I couldn't talk to him if he missed those things. I told him I love him, but I can't have this in my life anymore.
I have to worry about myself, and all he brings to my life right now is added saddness & stress (which just triggers me to want to drink) When I take a step back and look at what's going on I just can't beleive this is the reality of my life right now. I knew this could happen w/ him and it did. I took that chance, but now I've gotta let go and worry about myself. That's really har for me cause do much of my make-up is worrying and caring for other people (go figure I'm gonna be a nurse!) But my personal likfe can't be about worrying about others and never myself.
Liz, I'm so happy you made it through the weekend:-) You're doing great. Thanks for all the encouragement (everyone). I really need it right now.
Enjoy Sunday
Amanda
Hi Amanda! Wow are our lives so much the same.... I didn't know you had a b/f that was addicted to heroin..well mine is addicted to crack... yikes!! and I can SO relate to the stress and how it makes you want to have that drink!!!! in my post this morning i told you what a jerk my b/f was, well he went out and did crack again.. I knew he was going to, probably before he did!! I know it is so hard to stay strong, when your "team mate" is falling in the worse way.. how about you email me and we can chat emcleod@telus.net
God Bless
Liz :)
God Bless
Liz :)
Amanda
don't beat yourself up cause you had a drink - you're not perfect, nobody is. What matters is that you are doing your absolute best to stay sober one day at a time.
nor have you given up and said "oh heck with it" you are back working your own program.
i'm new here only 2.5 days sober so far - boy those weekends are HARD. The fact that you and the others is making such an amazing effort is really an inspiration to me, to know that it can be done.
I got through Saturday not drinking even though my partner was drinking all day and completely plastered - for me that was a big accomplishment. It is SO hard when others in your life are indulging in the very behaviours you are attempting to rid yourself of. But it CAN be done. We prove that every single day we don't drink.
don't beat yourself up cause you had a drink - you're not perfect, nobody is. What matters is that you are doing your absolute best to stay sober one day at a time.
nor have you given up and said "oh heck with it" you are back working your own program.
i'm new here only 2.5 days sober so far - boy those weekends are HARD. The fact that you and the others is making such an amazing effort is really an inspiration to me, to know that it can be done.
I got through Saturday not drinking even though my partner was drinking all day and completely plastered - for me that was a big accomplishment. It is SO hard when others in your life are indulging in the very behaviours you are attempting to rid yourself of. But it CAN be done. We prove that every single day we don't drink.
Like I've stated before it takes whatever it takes to reach that "surrender". You guys are doing well....be good to yourselves and focus on your sobriety, not your significant other's addictions...you will know a "new freedom and a new happiness" if you stay sober...all that you have to do is not pick up just for 24 hours at a time...and remember nothing changes if nothing changes. In order to stay in recovery we just don't drink no matter what: we don't drink on Fridays, we don't drink on Saturdays, also holidays, because we are happy, because we are sad....because we are angry...we just don't drink no matter what. Hang in there everyone!
Liz,
Hey I tried to send you a message to that email address but I got that failure delivery notice. Bummer cause I wrote this long message-sometimes it helps to justwrite it all out though. Anyway, my email is anvano412@yahoo.com. Try sending me soemthing and see if it goes through. Yesterday was the first day I didn't talk to my ex-He could be dead or sleeping on the streets who the hell knows!!!
Hey I tried to send you a message to that email address but I got that failure delivery notice. Bummer cause I wrote this long message-sometimes it helps to justwrite it all out though. Anyway, my email is anvano412@yahoo.com. Try sending me soemthing and see if it goes through. Yesterday was the first day I didn't talk to my ex-He could be dead or sleeping on the streets who the hell knows!!!
