Hello,
I just wanted to start a thread to welcome all the newcomers to this forum. I have a little over three years of sobriety and can relate to all of you, thank you for sharing. I'm staying sober one day at a time by staying connected (most of the time) with my Higher God and have immersed myself in the 12 Step program of AA. I drank and used for 28 years and tried to get sober for 20 of those years and could never do it. Until I admitted that I was powerless over alcohol and that my life had become unmanageable was I able to put some time together. Again, welcome, there is hope and there is a solution.
Thank you for starting this thread VWgirl. It is encouraging to hear that you are now sober and working the program.
I can not say the same for myself...yet.
A couple of days ago I made the decision to quit drinking and smoking marijuana on Monday (Jan. 29th) / tomorrow. I have quit before but never with lasting power. My life has become unmanageable in simple everyday ways, such as not working, or exercising and gaining weight from eating badly, shutting myself in my apt. away from friends and family, and I'm embarrassed to say this, but even showering everyday can be a chore.
My partner was laid off in December 2006 due to company closure, since then we've been home drinking and smoking our days away.
I hope I never forget the depths of depression and heartache that have resulted from drinking and marijuana smoking. I turn 30 next month and I want to turn things around. I need to turn things around, or god forbid I'll end up like my mother at 46 yrs., who passed away 2001 from cancer but it could have easily from drinking.
I pray to god that I can stick by my decision to stop using tomorrow, regardless of my partner's desires. I think an AA meeting will be in order too. Last summer when I was attending meetings regularly some of the men wouldn't stop flirting with me and it became very uncomfortable, so I have to remember principles above personalities.
Thanks for listening;
Athena
I can not say the same for myself...yet.
A couple of days ago I made the decision to quit drinking and smoking marijuana on Monday (Jan. 29th) / tomorrow. I have quit before but never with lasting power. My life has become unmanageable in simple everyday ways, such as not working, or exercising and gaining weight from eating badly, shutting myself in my apt. away from friends and family, and I'm embarrassed to say this, but even showering everyday can be a chore.
My partner was laid off in December 2006 due to company closure, since then we've been home drinking and smoking our days away.
I hope I never forget the depths of depression and heartache that have resulted from drinking and marijuana smoking. I turn 30 next month and I want to turn things around. I need to turn things around, or god forbid I'll end up like my mother at 46 yrs., who passed away 2001 from cancer but it could have easily from drinking.
I pray to god that I can stick by my decision to stop using tomorrow, regardless of my partner's desires. I think an AA meeting will be in order too. Last summer when I was attending meetings regularly some of the men wouldn't stop flirting with me and it became very uncomfortable, so I have to remember principles above personalities.
Thanks for listening;
Athena
Athena, I can relate to your post. I am on day 7 now without a drink and it is very hard especially since friday, because I lived for the weekend to drink. It was a habit to go to the store and pick up a case for the weekend.Beer became my best friend because I rarely went out to dinner with friends I stayed home took care of the house and kids, even though my fiance was home he is no one to confide my deep feelings to. I felt like beer was the one to turn to, make me feel wanted/good and drank my problems away. It is so hard sitting here typing I would like to jump in the vehicle and drive to get a six pack/twelve pack for the day.But I have got to stay strong and focused. Since I started drinking so much I also was eating more and of course putting on weight which didnt help my outlook on life. So i'd drink more and said oh well more of me to love.... I would thnk of beer as a reward, yep I deserved some because of a hard day at work. Now i have got to try and find another alternative reward CHOCLATE, yes I think i'll have some today, I deserve it for the week. Good luck Athena you can do it, I have not thought of AA meetings b/c i live in such a small town where everybody knows everybody and they talk. Also the men, some are there just b/c they have to be there b/c they lost their drivers liscense and pick up women. Not all of us women are out to have affairs. I will stop rambling on i'm sure to put you to sleep....LOL...I have so much to get off my chest i could type for days and still not be done. Good Luck and i'll pray for us to stay clean/sober.... ONE DAY AT A TIME....WE CAN DO IT...
Luvs
Cathy
Luvs
Cathy
Hi VW....and Welcome Athena & Cathy....
I'd like to thank both of you for sharing....I could relate to what you both have posted...towards the end of my run, I was isolating so much and reached a spiritual bottom that was worse than death....I came to a point where I didn't want to live but was afraid to die...AA took me in and saved my life, one day at a time....I couldn't for the life of me stay clean and sober holding on to my old ideas....I was asked if I was willing to go to any lengths and I was and still am....
Might I suggest to you ladies a women's only meeting? Let me know if I can help in any way, even if you need the listing for the women's meetings....
Keep posting and take it slow & easy....One day at a time....
Take care,
Stacey
I'd like to thank both of you for sharing....I could relate to what you both have posted...towards the end of my run, I was isolating so much and reached a spiritual bottom that was worse than death....I came to a point where I didn't want to live but was afraid to die...AA took me in and saved my life, one day at a time....I couldn't for the life of me stay clean and sober holding on to my old ideas....I was asked if I was willing to go to any lengths and I was and still am....
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Might I suggest to you ladies a women's only meeting? Let me know if I can help in any way, even if you need the listing for the women's meetings....
Keep posting and take it slow & easy....One day at a time....
Take care,
Stacey
I too would like to extend a heart-felt WELCOME to all newcomers here.
I have found that working the program one day at a time and staying connected with AA has transformed my life into one that I could have only dreamed of.
We are taught in AA to introduce ourselves to all that are new and make them feel welcome.......so a big hug from me to each of you.
Thank you VW for reminding me .
Carolyn
I have found that working the program one day at a time and staying connected with AA has transformed my life into one that I could have only dreamed of.
We are taught in AA to introduce ourselves to all that are new and make them feel welcome.......so a big hug from me to each of you.
Thank you VW for reminding me .
Carolyn
Welcome Athena and Cathy...Sobriety and inner peace are possible...One day at a time...well sometimes its a moment at a time...I got sober by going to AA, working the steps, getting a sponser and being active in AA. It was not always easy but it is so worth it...It might be hard to imagine now but my worst day today is better than any good day I had when drinking...
Keep posting...We are here for you...Gina
Keep posting...We are here for you...Gina
How's it going Athena and Cathy? Hope you gals are doing well!
Hello, I have enjoyed reading everyone's stories. I have some decisions to make about my alcohol use. I'm finding all your stories quite encouraging.
Bye for now, Cookster
Bye for now, Cookster
Cookster,
Welcome!
Welcome!
Hi,
Nice thread VW. *wink*
I'd also like to welcome the newcomers. I don't read or post here much anymore but I do drop in on occassion. Admitting complete defeat was my hang up. I knew I was an alcoholic and addict for years. But kept believing the lie I told myself constantly that I could get a handle on it and control it. I heard someone say one night; "I had to surrender to win". That really clicked for me, I got it. It's usually something simple that someone says like that, that catches my attention and really clicks. And it Always is Exactly what I need to hear when I hear it.
Welcome everyone. I've never heard of a program of recovery failing anyone. I've heard of people failing a program, me included. It truely works if you work it.
Take care, God bless
Bob
Nice thread VW. *wink*
I'd also like to welcome the newcomers. I don't read or post here much anymore but I do drop in on occassion. Admitting complete defeat was my hang up. I knew I was an alcoholic and addict for years. But kept believing the lie I told myself constantly that I could get a handle on it and control it. I heard someone say one night; "I had to surrender to win". That really clicked for me, I got it. It's usually something simple that someone says like that, that catches my attention and really clicks. And it Always is Exactly what I need to hear when I hear it.
Welcome everyone. I've never heard of a program of recovery failing anyone. I've heard of people failing a program, me included. It truely works if you work it.
Take care, God bless
Bob
