Good morning everyone.I just took my last 12 ultram my detox starts tonite I figure.I start the suboxone tomarrow.I have a full plate today,food shopping picking up the sub giving my mom the rest of my ultram.I've gotten just about everything out of the house.I left my B/Fs vitamins and my daughters moltrin.What I keep wondering is watch I'll get clean & then stumble across a stash.As far as the sub I really think after I get to the dose I;ll be on that it would probaly be for the besr if my mom will hold them.See she only lives alittle bit down the block so it may be better if every morning I go to her house to get my meds.My B/F use to take the ultram with him but with this stuff if he gets caught with it(HE DOES NO DRUGS)he'll get in big trouble.I know I'm not gonna be able to keep them by me because like dahhhhh I can't control my self.So thats my good morning lettere.I'll be on til about 9-9:30 so if anyone needs to chat.....mj
MJ.Good morning....sounds like you've got it all worked out. Good for you!
It's so funny what you said about finding a stash. I was just thinking about that yesterday. What would I do if I find some "hidden" pills? Actually, the chances are pretty slim. Even if I forgot everything else, I (think) I always remembered where I hid pills and have not left any hiding place unsearched.
I hope you have a good day, today.You are very brave to be doing this! I am very proud of you and hope nothing but success! Stay strong!
Thank you mom you have been so suppotive through this is there anything I can do to help you.I would love to be able to make you smile for a while.....mj
MJ, wish to god i was you today, you sound so positvie about your new start. I've been making some phone calls to some docs. trying to get into one and talk about sub., but everyone i call, i get a voice box or some saids their not writing out pres. for that yet but will in the future, i can't wait till the future. Well i got some more to call but they are in Kentucky, which i live close to the border here in wv, so maybe it might be closer to go there. Good luck, and be sure you get all your stashes out of the house!!!!!!!!!
MJ...........you are making me smile right now. Knowing that you have taken action towards getting a grip on the beast makes me happy. Being held hostage everyday by the pills is such a horrible way for anyone to live. When I see someone come to the decision to try and beat it, it does my heart good. And it inspires me to keep doing it, too.
Actually, the past couple of days here have been OK. My anger and sadness have subsided and I've been busy, sorta. It took me about 2 hours yesterday to hem one pair of pants...........LOL........used to take m3 1/4 of that.......but at least I got it done. Didn't help that I looked down and saw a $300.00 price tag on them. They were not mine! I would never spend that on pants. But, anyway, I was afraid I'd mess them up, so I was super slow and careful.
My son is home for another week. We have a really screwed up school calender in our county. THey are slowly easing us in to year round school whether we like it or not. So, I'll be trying to keep him happy today.
thank you abby,I guess I need to stay positive THIS IS THE LAST DAY TAKING ULTRAM!!!!! I never thought I would EVER say that.I got real lucky with my MD hes been with me since I was 17 and we have a very relaxed relationship.He knew what I was doing he wrote the scripts but he also is the type that if you really want help he will do what he can.Keep trying abby and know I'll be around to try & help you OK??????mj
Dear mom do you know what a great person I think you are?I can talk to you about everything from addiction to books to movies to domestic things.Its been a long time since I had a domestic friend to talk with.I'm glad I can make you smile I only wish I could be more help with beating the demons....mj
PS What the heck happened last night I was in the missing??????mj
Morning Molly,
Are you taking your first dose in the doctors.......
Hope all goes well today.....
Have somethings I would like to tell you about the sub, doon't know if you are still on.
Tina
Are you taking your first dose in the doctors.......
Hope all goes well today.....
Have somethings I would like to tell you about the sub, doon't know if you are still on.
Tina
I know 3 in a row silly huh?I just wanted to say thank you all for your support I need to get going and start this day,I will be checking in I'm sure so take care until later....mj
Good for you, MJ! I think you're showing a lot of courage and determination. Hang in, M.
Thanks MJ and Mom, but when mj gets clean you guys better still talk to this addict!!!!!!!!!Just joking, i know you guys will since you talk to me this long and listen to me. I just wish you all the luck in the world you sound so good this morning, better then i've ever heard you sound before. I know you can do this, keep your head in a postive mood and best wishes.I'am also betting your daughters are two smiling little girls today, knowing their mom is going to be back to herself. That is the best late christmas gift you could have ever gave them, mj.
Hi Tina I was just gonna sign off I got phone calls to make but would like to hear what you needed to tell me so I'll be here for a couple more....mj
MJ...thanks! It ain't easy being domestic Godess, is it? LOL During my long run on pills, I took up so many hobbies! With all the energy and "creativity", I got so in to the house, the yard, the mall, you name it! Don't think I will be able to keep it up, and that is just fine with me. I am tired, and now want to rest and be a good mom and wife. Do you sew? That is one thing I have done all my life, so will keep it up to a minimum. But the rest is history.
Abby..........you're on the right track about getting off the hydro. Hope you find someone in your area to help you. I went through your part of the country last year and it is beautiful! Pretty rural, huh? Good luck with your search. I know you are scared, but I really think you could do this without the Bup. Hate to throw that into the mix, just a thought. I wish you luck, though, only you know what's best for you and I support you in whatever route you choose to take.
MJ- We will all be here for you!
Hey if you aren't taking your first dose in the docs make sure you are in withdrawl, like 18 hours worth before you take the sub.....If you don't you will be thrown into full blow withdrawls.......That happened to someone here, was not nice from what they described. Also you shouldn't have to have your mom hold the sub...it can't be abused, and has a ceiling.....but you have to do what you feel comfortable with......
Tideitmom, what do you mean, i can do this without the bup? Do you really think i can do this on my own without sub? I love you, you have really given me a big jump today, no one has ever told me i could do this on my own, that sounds so good coming from you. If you promise to be here for me then I will make the big step and try if on my own but i will need you. I failed on christmas and went back to taking 8 or 9 a day but i think it was because i didn't post for 2 days. So write me back and tell me how to start, what i need like(dayquil, benedril, gatorade, something for dirriea, tell me everything. I'am so excited, if you really think i can do this without sub or anything else!!!!!!!!!!!
Dear Tina I took my last 12 at 7:30am this morning do you think it will be safe if I start the suboxone around 8:30-9:00 tomaarow morning?My Dr said that I'll have to keep in contact with him tomarrow when I start his office is like maybe 20min from my home.Yes I'm getting alittle nervous.Thank God I have a full plate of things to get done today.Staying busy is going to help.I may start having a hard time tonite so I may end up on here.I need to go get dressed and start my running so PLEASE TO ALL KEEP WRITING!!!!ALL your words are comfort to me.........mj
Abby,
I think you can do it on your own too. Just have some faith in yourself, many of us have it in you.....Are you going to taper again or just go ct? Whatever you chose, just keep posting. Someone will always be around to give you a boost!
Take care,
Tina
I think you can do it on your own too. Just have some faith in yourself, many of us have it in you.....Are you going to taper again or just go ct? Whatever you chose, just keep posting. Someone will always be around to give you a boost!
Take care,
Tina
Not sure....don't know how long ultrams half life is.........If you just took 12 this morning, they will be in your system for awhile......I wouldn't start counting hours till atleast 3 today........You might want to call the doctor today and find out when you could take your first pill.
John would know more, where are you John, what do you think about this?
John would know more, where are you John, what do you think about this?
