Well I Did It! (for Now)

Heroin
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i've been clean from H now for 2 years!! but then i did get a DUI last october but i cleaned up my sh*t and im prolly gettin off probation in march!! everythinhg is goin great now, im not talkin to the guy that got me started on h and i got a new man that treats me awesome. he used to be an alcoholic but hes turned his life around too. my mom stopped drinkin after she found out she had cerosis of the liver. but i feel myself thinkin about "when i get off probation i can DO WHATEVER I WANT" and its scaring the hell outta me. i dont wanna be a junkie again but i kno if i dont have jail hangin over my head im lieable to do anything and everything that comes my way. how do i keep myself from goin in that mind set? help!!!
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Keep that mindset of fear that you have while you are on probation when you get off. Doing whatever you want can include chosing to continue the cycle ending with jail or death...or the biggest one....living beyond addiction(i would say this is the best choice).......it's not easy as we all who suffer know BUT it is possible.
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CONGRATS i'll be 2 years off may 2007. I still drink thou. The biggest thing i tell myself now to keep "clean" well off h... is : allmost everyone i know who's had a bad overdose or died was BECAUSE they had stoped for a while or they were in jail then got out ......when you go back with a low tolerence and try to do what you use to do it can and may kill you! I'VE SEEN IT. That mind set keeps me stright even thou a little voice still tells me just a little won't hurt. It dose acually scare me thou I don't want to die i don't want the life H has to offer i want the high but you can't have it that way. With H it's all or nothing.
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Kudos on the two years.

Keep going........just keep going.

Congrats........be proud.
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My apologies for not saying.....WAY TO GO on your 2.....AND COUNTING!!!!!!


CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!