Went to the Dr. this morning, open and honest about everything. He says I have bipolar disorder type1. Makes alot of sense. He put me on some meds;seroquel and ativan, anyone ever heard of them? I hope they work. I Have to go see a psycotherapist immediately for a cocktail so I am making an appointment tomorrow. I'm going to be honest with him about my opiate addiction, I guess 60% of people with bipolar disorder have substance abuse problems. I'm kind of scared about this, and a little sad, but it does explain the irratic behavior and mood swings, hopefully on my cocktail I'll be able to manage my moods a little better, and wont fantasize about throwing soup customers.
sorry mate cant help with ur condition....u on the h ? ive just done my first nite of cold turkey.
nah, I was though for 7 years. I kicked cold turkey in feb. sucks man, but it'll pass, feels like a lifetime. The best advice I have for you is to sit in a hot bath and drink green tea without any sugar
id prefer to lay in bed drink plenty of water and try and eat sumthing.
i cant manage hot drink's while turkeying.the hot baths r ok,but 10 min after ur out u feel the same again.i suppose it's a break while ur in the bath tho.
did a methadom cold turkey 2 month ago,that took me 5 an half week's.
at least i no this aint going to be as bad as that.
i cant manage hot drink's while turkeying.the hot baths r ok,but 10 min after ur out u feel the same again.i suppose it's a break while ur in the bath tho.
did a methadom cold turkey 2 month ago,that took me 5 an half week's.
at least i no this aint going to be as bad as that.
comming off of methadone is no fun, i had insomnia for like 3 months!!!
tell me about it,thats why id prefer to go cold turkey now.
not alot else helps,well if u have the money for the right rehab then maybe.
not alot else helps,well if u have the money for the right rehab then maybe.
well, in a rehab detox the most they really do for you is get the dope out of your system, load you up on valium, and then get you into an inpatient center or a 12 step program. The withdrawls are the worst, but there is nothing that they can do for you really to ease the grieving process that comes afterward, it is almost like losing your best friend. I look at it as a freind who had bad intentions all along, and all of the seet times we shared together he didnt get his kicks off untill he watched me and encouraged me to fall and suffer. Sometimes they will refer you to a dr that can describe anti-depressants and such
i had 54 vallies and about 110 tamazapam the other day to start my turkey with.
i ended up doing them all in over 4 days.while still taking the gear.
just wish i hadnt done that,what id do for those pills now.
i ended up doing them all in over 4 days.while still taking the gear.
just wish i hadnt done that,what id do for those pills now.
is there anyway you could get yourself into a detox center? they do use a naltrexone implant so 3 weeks after you get out you Wont be able to use, and the meds would be regulated
the waiting list's r pretty long over here,think it cost a few dollars to av them implanted..cud do with them tho.ive done my turkey so many times now..been a user 10 years.
yeah, 7 years here, hate the cold turkeys. Have you tried buprenorphine? I hear it is easier to come off than methadone
ive never heard of them,i suppose the only real way to get clean is cold turkey...as hard as it is,but many do it,all u need is a bit of will power.
cold turkey is best becasue you get a nice reminder of the horror that lies ahead if you choose to use again, I def agree, but it is goos that help can be there for tose who need it
well trooper im going for my hot bath,take these leg pains off for the first time in 24 hours :)..day 1 out of the way ye ha..my spirts r up anyway..no point in gettinmg down over it,thats not going to help me in anyway..hope to chat soon by for now xxx
trooper,
im bipolar stage 2 if the meds dont seem like they are working right aeay dont get allarmed sometimes it takes a while for them to work (2-3 weeks)and sometimes they have to change them a fey times till they find what workes.dont let me scare you but it took about 9 or 10 months before they got it right for me (everyone is different).so give it time they will get it right and you will feel a lot better.
im bipolar stage 2 if the meds dont seem like they are working right aeay dont get allarmed sometimes it takes a while for them to work (2-3 weeks)and sometimes they have to change them a fey times till they find what workes.dont let me scare you but it took about 9 or 10 months before they got it right for me (everyone is different).so give it time they will get it right and you will feel a lot better.
Hi Trooper,
Thank you for your kind words to myself and Onyx,especially regarding are posts saving your life. I am glad that we HELPED you that evening however YOU have saved your life, and I am smiling right now. As I said on my post on the F&F board, If my friends addiction and suicide could save one other person then his life was not in vain.
Thank you for validating my friends passing by deciding to live. Your decision to get help when our loved ones would/could not and fell in the process honours me and my friends life, Onyx and her friends life but most of all you honour yourself.
THANK YOU SO MUCH and best of luck
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Thank you for your kind words to myself and Onyx,especially regarding are posts saving your life. I am glad that we HELPED you that evening however YOU have saved your life, and I am smiling right now. As I said on my post on the F&F board, If my friends addiction and suicide could save one other person then his life was not in vain.
Thank you for validating my friends passing by deciding to live. Your decision to get help when our loved ones would/could not and fell in the process honours me and my friends life, Onyx and her friends life but most of all you honour yourself.
THANK YOU SO MUCH and best of luck
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I had no idea that BiPolar actually has numbers after it.....did it always or is this something new.......like stages?
I went to therapy....for cognitive therapy.....I know why I used, and I know I need to work through it so off i go......well I might as well talked to myself, and wrote my journal to myself......therapy wise.....THEN......I finally see Doc....well I was right up front too, and BAM I am BIPolar......now I'd have took that diagnosis no problem, but like probably 80% of people at NA meetings are diagnosed as such......well what happened years ago befroe the new DMV?.....Oh wait not Depat. Motor Vehicles......whatever the books called.
So I get a scrip of something I think called Lamicital.....for seizures, and the little and very, very long pamphlet has WARNING: If you don't suffer from seizures this could cause them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What the heck....I'm thinking great give me epilepsy why don't you.....I know people who the BiPolar diagnosis absolutely saved......also this new named medicine.....I'm like I see a trend though.......ya use heroin long enough ya get to be around for trends......so I tossed the script...now my friend takes it, and she's doing good....after Paxil I am not taking any meds for something I can work through myself.
Not meaning you guys can't be helped with them.....I mean I do NOT think I am BiPolar......I truly don't.....yeah I always talked fast and think like stream of consciousness......otherwise I have a bad temper, and that's new.....thanks to therapy......LOL....help me one way, and mix me up on the other.....I just truly wish to know exactly how they diagnose this stuff....anything that helps though I'm glad helps you guys.
I went to therapy....for cognitive therapy.....I know why I used, and I know I need to work through it so off i go......well I might as well talked to myself, and wrote my journal to myself......therapy wise.....THEN......I finally see Doc....well I was right up front too, and BAM I am BIPolar......now I'd have took that diagnosis no problem, but like probably 80% of people at NA meetings are diagnosed as such......well what happened years ago befroe the new DMV?.....Oh wait not Depat. Motor Vehicles......whatever the books called.
So I get a scrip of something I think called Lamicital.....for seizures, and the little and very, very long pamphlet has WARNING: If you don't suffer from seizures this could cause them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What the heck....I'm thinking great give me epilepsy why don't you.....I know people who the BiPolar diagnosis absolutely saved......also this new named medicine.....I'm like I see a trend though.......ya use heroin long enough ya get to be around for trends......so I tossed the script...now my friend takes it, and she's doing good....after Paxil I am not taking any meds for something I can work through myself.
Not meaning you guys can't be helped with them.....I mean I do NOT think I am BiPolar......I truly don't.....yeah I always talked fast and think like stream of consciousness......otherwise I have a bad temper, and that's new.....thanks to therapy......LOL....help me one way, and mix me up on the other.....I just truly wish to know exactly how they diagnose this stuff....anything that helps though I'm glad helps you guys.
Usually they do some blood work, but I think that is to test whether or not you have a thyroid problem. My Dr. could tell because of the severity of my mood swings, one second I am great, than I am extremely angy, full of energy and cant concentrate, and then I want to off myself. Some times the cycle goes for months, but latley I go through a cycle in a week or even a day!! The seroquel today made me pass out a few times, but I think one of the side effects of it was a drop in blood pressure when standing suddenly. I am also on ativan now, and though this morning I felt like I may has well have drool comming out of my mouth, i feel a little calmer.
Awww Trooper.....I'm sorry.....so much to get used to......hey if you drool I'll come sit with you or push you in one of them HUVAROUNDIE THINGS.....I'm messing around...ya have to laugh to keep from balling your eyes out.
I absolutely believe people self-medicate.....to calm something if they have truly very real mental conditions.....what you are describing I never had all that.....just always was real upbeat......people would ask me if I was speeding....I didn't do speed, and actually never ever did it cause I thought i was speedy....I'm a definite opiate girl, and it did tone me down, but that's my personality.....people noticed cause I was all cooled out.
For you though.....I absolutely hope like Bruce said it will help.....don't you be going nowhere you.....you have done too dang well.....you're strong.
My mom was telling me about afriends daughter....I mean this poor girl...wacky.
I call myself that so it's O.K. everyone including me tried to help her....I mean BAD......all kinds of stuff.....even I couldn't take her....so my mom says...oh she just does that....she's faking.....I'm like "Mom would anybody on this earth do that on purpose? Would someone want to hurt that bad????"....got that across to her......NO.....people still have a huge stigma about mental illness....they need to get the heck over it.....I'm my own Doctor now so hey I'm alrightie.....nah I'd gho too......you take care of you Trooper like you're doing....please feel better...I'm going to will it for you.
L-Phenylalanine...that amino acid is for mood....so like a year into being clean I bought it.....vitamins too.....that stuff made be wackadoodle...I swear....I mean I was bizerker girlie....it trul effected me....so now I tell people watch out for those herbs, and amino acids, and vitamins......they're not regulated so ya need to be careful.....my mind was like zipping on that stuff....like vavoom.
Hang in there Trooper.....your turtle is so sad...we need you a cute avatar.
I absolutely believe people self-medicate.....to calm something if they have truly very real mental conditions.....what you are describing I never had all that.....just always was real upbeat......people would ask me if I was speeding....I didn't do speed, and actually never ever did it cause I thought i was speedy....I'm a definite opiate girl, and it did tone me down, but that's my personality.....people noticed cause I was all cooled out.
For you though.....I absolutely hope like Bruce said it will help.....don't you be going nowhere you.....you have done too dang well.....you're strong.
My mom was telling me about afriends daughter....I mean this poor girl...wacky.
I call myself that so it's O.K. everyone including me tried to help her....I mean BAD......all kinds of stuff.....even I couldn't take her....so my mom says...oh she just does that....she's faking.....I'm like "Mom would anybody on this earth do that on purpose? Would someone want to hurt that bad????"....got that across to her......NO.....people still have a huge stigma about mental illness....they need to get the heck over it.....I'm my own Doctor now so hey I'm alrightie.....nah I'd gho too......you take care of you Trooper like you're doing....please feel better...I'm going to will it for you.
L-Phenylalanine...that amino acid is for mood....so like a year into being clean I bought it.....vitamins too.....that stuff made be wackadoodle...I swear....I mean I was bizerker girlie....it trul effected me....so now I tell people watch out for those herbs, and amino acids, and vitamins......they're not regulated so ya need to be careful.....my mind was like zipping on that stuff....like vavoom.
Hang in there Trooper.....your turtle is so sad...we need you a cute avatar.
