Ok well I have to admit....I have been doing really good dealing with my pain, I even went a few weeks back and got a toradol shot..( normally its a toradol and demerol shot)..I was hurting last week more then I have in along time, so I did take 2 vico's..felt really guilty for doing so, but then after talking to Rachell I felt better since I really took them for pain..I was finally able to get into see my dr about a plan on what to do when I have a flare up, and be able to stay away from the narcotics....each time I do get a flare up I have been taking aleve and napraxon, but it has been tearing my stomach up bad, ...so taking zantac along with it....
After talking to my dr. and going over my recovery with her and telling her I didn't want to take narcotics, she put me on relafan ( anti inflamatory) and prilosac, and has referred me to the nuerologist again for another MRI to see where I stand...she said that I may really want to think of surgery now, since I am dead set about not going back on pain pills..( my back will only continue to get worse)...I have to admit I have been really scared about surgery, but after the last year and half of being on methadone and not hurting...and then going thru the hell of what they do to you when you are on them, and then thru the withdrawel..I guess it is now time to really think of the surgery so I can have 4 or 5 years of good quality of life without pills...........and then go from there..
So I guess my question is...I have 2 disc that are falling apart and 2 that are buldging.......for those of you that have the same problem and had surgery...please tell me how you feel and if you were able to go on with your life without pills........If I had stayed w/ the pain clinic dr...she said I would have to stay on methadone the rest of my life...actually she was upset that I wanted to go off of them...it will be 2 months what on the 10th I think..that I have not taken methadone....so I figured the reason for the pain and flare ups now is that the drugs are out of my system..
I just need some advice cuz I am alittle scared at the thought of surgery since it is my nerves that are affected. Am awaiting the call from the dr for the MRI but I really need insight on what others have gone thru...
Any input you guys can give will be helpful....I don't want to sound like a big baby, I had a hysterectomy and had my apendix taken out and was not scared, but for some reason with my back I am...
Thanks ahead of time for your input
Traci
Traci,
Dont know your whole story, or how much you were abusing your original pain pills, but i am sorta in the same boat. REAL BAD PAIN problem. My pan??? Take whatever and try whatever is non narciotic.....If i end up back to where I will kill myslef from the pain....to be honest i would go back on them. I would.
But i would put all the stops in place first, be honest with my past abuse, and go from there. My doctor has several people thatare former heroin addicts and are now suffering terribly with AIDS...he says that even though he knows they can abuse them, he can not stand by and let the die in pain. Cant do it.
It may not be as bad as you think it will be luv...many have said that there pain actually lessened once they were clean for awhile and they were able touse non narcotics.
Keep contact with support and be honest and share your fears with your Dr.
Im sorry that your back is so bad, will pray for your pain to stop,
Hugs,
Ali
Dont know your whole story, or how much you were abusing your original pain pills, but i am sorta in the same boat. REAL BAD PAIN problem. My pan??? Take whatever and try whatever is non narciotic.....If i end up back to where I will kill myslef from the pain....to be honest i would go back on them. I would.
But i would put all the stops in place first, be honest with my past abuse, and go from there. My doctor has several people thatare former heroin addicts and are now suffering terribly with AIDS...he says that even though he knows they can abuse them, he can not stand by and let the die in pain. Cant do it.
It may not be as bad as you think it will be luv...many have said that there pain actually lessened once they were clean for awhile and they were able touse non narcotics.
Keep contact with support and be honest and share your fears with your Dr.
Im sorry that your back is so bad, will pray for your pain to stop,
Hugs,
Ali
Hey Traci, it is good to see you back here again. Listen girl, I'm really sorry about your back and it took a lot of internal fortitude for you to tell us that you took some pain meds. I too understand your dilemma with the surgery and pain meds. Life just deals some of us a bad deck and when and if you have your surgery, just be honest with your doctor and let someone else hold your meds for you. I'm sure that I will have days where I need pain meds, something stronger than Tylenol or Aleve, but I will just deal with those days when they come. Oh, I know what you mean when you speak of the Aleve tearing your stomach up. I took some the other morning and it didn't stay down thirty minutes. Alot of good it did me, huh....Take care and keep posting, we are here to help you out, anytime...
Hey Pam, nice to see you again...
I have been wondering about you and how you are feeling....I have to say I am the lucky one here compared to you with all your pains........man I don't know how people do it.......I guess with strong will power and trying to get your mind off the pain..I try and talk myself out of the pain...but sometimes the pain speaks loud and clear to me....I stayed off the horses this last week end since I was feeling a flare up coming..
Whats nice is that the Dr is willing to try whatever it will take to help me thru it, without resorting to narcotics.....BTW this is my regular dr..not the pain dr that put me on the crap to begin with....
Ali..
my story is that I have siatic nerve issues and have been in pain for about 4 years....dr put me on vico's for about 3 and half year, I was taking 100 every 2 weeks, having epadurals and taking flexeral........then they referred me to the pain clinic which took my off of the vico's and put me on methadone..saying it was gonna help me out to have a better quality of life..........I have to say I didn't have the pain like before, but everything else in my life went to hell.....I went numb to everything, was very content staying home, noone would have known from the outside all the pain I was feeling on the inside from just not caring but not knowing how to fix the problem....Then when I relized I started having anxity issues of running out of the meds...I knew I needed to take control of my life and get off the methadone.......I weaned myself down to 5 mg a day then when I ran out I didn't call to refill..I had told the pain dr I was going off of them..man was she mad at me, telling me I would be back begging for more before to long..
After going thru pure hell for 2 weeks w/ withdrawels, and starting to laugh again, and this board helping out.I know I will NEVER go back on that crap again....I just need to learn how to deal with the burning sensation now all the time, OMG I was so embarressed yesturday........my friends dog got out of my back yard, so I took off running and fell flat on my face from my leg giving out..
so if I have to have surgery I guess I will have to nut up and do it, so I can live a somewhat normal life for awhile.....I want to ride horses and go hunting again...but can't if my leg is gonna do that..
Talk about a TOTAL pain in the leg.LMAO
I have been wondering about you and how you are feeling....I have to say I am the lucky one here compared to you with all your pains........man I don't know how people do it.......I guess with strong will power and trying to get your mind off the pain..I try and talk myself out of the pain...but sometimes the pain speaks loud and clear to me....I stayed off the horses this last week end since I was feeling a flare up coming..
Whats nice is that the Dr is willing to try whatever it will take to help me thru it, without resorting to narcotics.....BTW this is my regular dr..not the pain dr that put me on the crap to begin with....
Ali..
my story is that I have siatic nerve issues and have been in pain for about 4 years....dr put me on vico's for about 3 and half year, I was taking 100 every 2 weeks, having epadurals and taking flexeral........then they referred me to the pain clinic which took my off of the vico's and put me on methadone..saying it was gonna help me out to have a better quality of life..........I have to say I didn't have the pain like before, but everything else in my life went to hell.....I went numb to everything, was very content staying home, noone would have known from the outside all the pain I was feeling on the inside from just not caring but not knowing how to fix the problem....Then when I relized I started having anxity issues of running out of the meds...I knew I needed to take control of my life and get off the methadone.......I weaned myself down to 5 mg a day then when I ran out I didn't call to refill..I had told the pain dr I was going off of them..man was she mad at me, telling me I would be back begging for more before to long..
After going thru pure hell for 2 weeks w/ withdrawels, and starting to laugh again, and this board helping out.I know I will NEVER go back on that crap again....I just need to learn how to deal with the burning sensation now all the time, OMG I was so embarressed yesturday........my friends dog got out of my back yard, so I took off running and fell flat on my face from my leg giving out..
so if I have to have surgery I guess I will have to nut up and do it, so I can live a somewhat normal life for awhile.....I want to ride horses and go hunting again...but can't if my leg is gonna do that..
Talk about a TOTAL pain in the leg.LMAO
Oh hey Ali I was gonna ask how you are doing ...have you total stopped taking your meds??? If you haven't but am on a real low dose, you should be able to go off of them with the help of vitamins and herbs.......GABA and Vit. C worl real well, along with lots of bathes and liqiuds..
hang in there....its a long road but you can do it
hang in there....its a long road but you can do it
Hey Traci, can you have the Micro Spine Surgery? They do that here where I live and people travel from all over the world to come here and have it done. Usually it is done on an outpatient basis, if you can believe that one.. If you want the information on it, I will be glad to look it up and get it to you. Let me know....
KRAZY,
Oh sweetie, let me first say that after reading your story, i am just struck with whata strong woman you are. you bend...dont break...I am angry thatthey put you on methadone, really upset...ive seen pain clinics too..bio pain feedback. wearing that thing that gives you the shocks...lolo...but they told me I just have to live with using the dilaudid...and if it means my tolerance becomes higher and need more every year, so be it....They sure didnt offer methadone and thank god because when you are having terrible pain you will do anything to stop it. Trust anyone who tells you THIS will work. You are vulnerable when your in bad pain............
But whats past is past, and im so proud of you girl for being so strong...now you know you can get through anything!!!!
Im not down to 0 yet, am down to 5...tomoorrow will be 4....do that for a couple of days and taper. Im not even TEMPTED! Its a blooming miracle..it really is.
Of course knowing I have them in the house probably helps me mentally...I dont know............but Id be lying if I said I wasnt really really scared.......I will tolerate any flu like symptoms but am worried about anxiety...im prone to it as it is, cant drink cofee...so im praying PRAYING the anxiety wont be more than i can handle......
Thanks for asking about me...know im rooting for you and admire your strength.
Hugs,
Ali
Oh sweetie, let me first say that after reading your story, i am just struck with whata strong woman you are. you bend...dont break...I am angry thatthey put you on methadone, really upset...ive seen pain clinics too..bio pain feedback. wearing that thing that gives you the shocks...lolo...but they told me I just have to live with using the dilaudid...and if it means my tolerance becomes higher and need more every year, so be it....They sure didnt offer methadone and thank god because when you are having terrible pain you will do anything to stop it. Trust anyone who tells you THIS will work. You are vulnerable when your in bad pain............
But whats past is past, and im so proud of you girl for being so strong...now you know you can get through anything!!!!
Im not down to 0 yet, am down to 5...tomoorrow will be 4....do that for a couple of days and taper. Im not even TEMPTED! Its a blooming miracle..it really is.
Of course knowing I have them in the house probably helps me mentally...I dont know............but Id be lying if I said I wasnt really really scared.......I will tolerate any flu like symptoms but am worried about anxiety...im prone to it as it is, cant drink cofee...so im praying PRAYING the anxiety wont be more than i can handle......
Thanks for asking about me...know im rooting for you and admire your strength.
Hugs,
Ali
YVW Ali............
OMG I had anxity so bad, I thought I was gonna have to have my hun take me to the ER ..my heart was racing so badly...I took valerium root to help with that though, seemed to be worse when I would lay down at night, just begging my body to go to sleep...I think the not sleeping just added to it.......but now I am doing so much better....now I just try and keep buzy..I am back working part time, taking care of an 88 yo man..such a sweetie.makes my day to help him out and keeps my mind buzy..
Pam,
I Have not heard of the micro.would love to know more about it...I think I gave you my email addy but if not..
here it is..
Krazishyone@aol.com
I hate to run now, but Kyle and I are going to go to my guy that I take care of and have dinner with him.. My hunny is in Hawaii still working so nights are pretty quiet around here, and since he is gone this is a good time to go and be company for an older man who is all by himself....
I will be back in about an hour and half or so.hope we can catch up then..
nice chatting with you two...take care and see ya soon...
Krazi Traci
and Ali if you want to email me you can to..we all need a little bit of help along our road to recovery.....
OMG I had anxity so bad, I thought I was gonna have to have my hun take me to the ER ..my heart was racing so badly...I took valerium root to help with that though, seemed to be worse when I would lay down at night, just begging my body to go to sleep...I think the not sleeping just added to it.......but now I am doing so much better....now I just try and keep buzy..I am back working part time, taking care of an 88 yo man..such a sweetie.makes my day to help him out and keeps my mind buzy..
Pam,
I Have not heard of the micro.would love to know more about it...I think I gave you my email addy but if not..
here it is..
Krazishyone@aol.com
I hate to run now, but Kyle and I are going to go to my guy that I take care of and have dinner with him.. My hunny is in Hawaii still working so nights are pretty quiet around here, and since he is gone this is a good time to go and be company for an older man who is all by himself....
I will be back in about an hour and half or so.hope we can catch up then..
nice chatting with you two...take care and see ya soon...
Krazi Traci
and Ali if you want to email me you can to..we all need a little bit of help along our road to recovery.....
Traci, here is the link to the Surgery Center that I was speaking about... I will email this to you as well. Good Luck...
http://www.microspine.com/index.html
http://www.microspine.com/index.html
