Well, I did it. First I had my weeking therapy session this morning. She encouraged me to attend the meeting that was starting right after our session two blocks away. So, without really allowing my self to think too much about it, I just walked right over there and went in.
Someone on here had mentioned the vast amount of smoking that goes on.....wow! I'm a smoker and even I was bothered by the large cloud hanging in the air. But, hey, that's OK.
I didn't share, but I think all of the other 36 people in the meeting did. Almost. It was very lively and interesting. All of the ones who talked were alchoholics. I didn't talk to anyone at all, and do not know if this place offers NA or not.
So....now I have to think about. Will I go back. I can't for sure that I will. I keep reading your posts that say it doesn't matter if it's AA or NA, but feel like I would benefit more from listening to drug addicts and talking to them.
Lastly, I thank God for this daily, and I may be delusional (sp), but I truly do not think about taking a pill. I do not crave pills. It is like my prayers have been answered and I am finally able to live life each day without the constant need to take one. But going there and thinking about it for an hour almost made me want a pill. Does that make sense? Triggers?
Just wanted to let you know that I have gone to the next level with this whole recovery thing. Thanks for listening. Any input or advice is welcome!
Everybody have a great day!
Carol
That grrrreat!! i told you all they do there is smoke and drink coffee..... CONGRATS!!! and keep up the great work!
I am so proud of you Trideltmom.......Way to go!
Thanks girlfriends! I'm proud of me, too.
All that time this morning (2 hours) working on "me" and then running errands has really worn me out. I'm going to take a nap and will be back on later to talk.
Way to go...
Yep, those are triggers...
Aren't you glad the compulsion was removed?
Kerry
Yep, those are triggers...
Aren't you glad the compulsion was removed?
Kerry
I am so happy for you you are doing great.I wish I could talk myself into going but I just can't yet....mj
Carol- I've been to both. It's simply a DOC. I recommend, since they now know you, to go back to that meeting. But GREAT for you.
Trideltmom-
When I first got sober, I went to all AA meetings (90 in 30 days) and at first I wondered wether I shouldve been in an NA meeting rather than an AA meeting but I just kept going back. After some time, I started to mix it up between NA and AA and finally realized that even though I identify myself as an addict, I enjoy AA meetings more and the people there dont care if I am an alcoholic or not just as long as l have a desire not to drink like everyone else there. Dont worry about which meeting you should go to or anything else, just keep going back to the meeting and get some time and meetings under your belt. Then look around and see if there is a better meeting out there for you. This is the same advice someone else gave me early in my sobriety and it worked for me so I thought I would pass it on. Congrats on your first meeting!!
-Jack
P.S. Where were you a Tri-Delt at??
MJ, Danny, Jack and everyone, thanks for the back slap. The topic today was
"willing to do the work", and I know that applies to us all regardless of our DOC. I know that it applies to either or. I just have gotten so much from this board and talking to other people who ate pills like candy that I thought it would be nice to have some face-to-face with other pill poppers. Make sense?
I am still in that "I want what I want...when I want it" mode, I guess.
At this stage of the game, there is nothing more important to me than staying drug-free. I will do what it takes. I will go back. And eventually maybe find another meeting.
I have thought about it this afternoon and realized that it did me good.
Jack.......I wasn't a TriDelt. Actually couldn't have been any farther from it. My sweet little debutante daughter was (president) at State Univ. of W GA. I have often wished I had used a different name on this board, but what the hell, it's out there now. I have used that as a password for 5 years and it's always the first thing that comes to mind. LOL!
congratulations i only did one myself felt really out of place will be doing group with the addiction doc soon go back for me and tell me if it feels better the second time
lol, and all this time I thought your nick was supposed to be short for "Tried-It-Mom." Like been there, done that.
Congrats on going to your first meeting. It was suggested to me to make a commitment to go to 10, then evaluate how I felt about them -- and try not to form too many opinions in the meantime. Seemed to work for me.
My first meeting was a Men's nooner meeting in Maine. I sat as close to the door as I could get. I couldn't get over the laughter. I made a quick exit....but went back the next day.
Congrats on going to your first meeting. It was suggested to me to make a commitment to go to 10, then evaluate how I felt about them -- and try not to form too many opinions in the meantime. Seemed to work for me.
My first meeting was a Men's nooner meeting in Maine. I sat as close to the door as I could get. I couldn't get over the laughter. I made a quick exit....but went back the next day.
