where are you? how are you feeling ..its hard I no ,,,day 7 for me ,,,,you 3 days,,please post soon ,,,sorry for being so pushy.worried...love poopie
i second poopie. where are you? please advise.
Poopie how you feeling? You are at a hard day, hope you are staying as comfortable as possible! Westwind must be feeling pretty lousy too at this point. I know I couldn't even post untill 8 days. Hang in there you two!
Brenda
Brenda
hello ,sweeties,,this is how it went for me ,,,,1day ,bed shower,ate banaea,thought of pills,,,,day 2 ,got up ,took dogs to park ,ooo it felt so dreffrent taking them on pills ,,it seemned so much more fun,,you no how that goes,ate banana,tea ,read book .tv little ,tv dinner ,,yuki ,but needed to eat ,,,day 3 cleaned living rm ,,that was hard crying in the middle of the floor ,saying house is ugly ,,but not ,,I felt ugly inside ,,a failure.relapesd....went to bed ,,now I did sleep...but took patr of a ativan ,day 4 ,,went for a ride ,store ate fish sandwich,was good ..but always felt a little sick,,,,came home tv ,,book ,,,and mind you I never watvhed tv in my life ,till the past 2 mounths .thats bad for me.belief me ,,day 5 ,,,cleaned house took 6 hours ,,only 2 when on pills ,,,low energy ,burstes of tears on and off ,,meeting .ooo I have 3 dogs small..oo and my rat terrier loves ink pens ..thank goodness I always got her ,,rite cg ,,they have alot of energy.day 7 still feel down ,,but eating much better ,,boredom is my danger area...thats what lets my guared down,beware of that angels,book tv eat,,day 8 ,,is harder ,for me little tears ..on and off,,,oooo I want to feel good not ,,it will do mood ,,,I have done this alot sweeties ,,hope this is the last ..its up to me ...what will I do today ,,,facing life sober ,,,love poopie
Hey, I didn't notice anyone had made a post for me until now. Wow, that is such a cool feeling, to know that people are paying attention and really reading my words. Thanks so much you guys!
I'm on day 5. This pain is absolutely legendary, I've got nothing but anxiety and shame running through my head.
I got through the New Year. I made my resolution, and I don't have to tell you guys what it is.
There is some big news: I changed my cell phone number so that my dealer could never get a hold of me again. AND, the good news is that when I was using, I knew in my heart that I would want to live clean someday, I never memorized his number, I just kept it as a speed dial. So since I've erased it I've never been able to call him. And never will again. I feel so good about that.
I'm spending a lot of time in the bath with my gameboy and magazines. The OTC thread really really helped, and reading everyone's posts makes me stronger. I'm taking it one hour at a time. I almost can't believe that I've made it this far. I'm completely dedicated.
Tomorrow is my first pills anonymous meeting. I'm really nervous, and I look like crap. I mean, bags under the eyes, lot's of weeping... I haven't cried this much since I was a little kid. But I'm going, and that's that.
I really feel like I can do this. I'm praying a lot, and thinking about how great it will be to start a new year clean.
Thanks so much for checking on me. I'm so happy to hear that you're doing good, I'd feel extremely proud if I were you. Good luck! Stay strong! I know now that we can do this - bring it on!
I'm on day 5. This pain is absolutely legendary, I've got nothing but anxiety and shame running through my head.
I got through the New Year. I made my resolution, and I don't have to tell you guys what it is.
There is some big news: I changed my cell phone number so that my dealer could never get a hold of me again. AND, the good news is that when I was using, I knew in my heart that I would want to live clean someday, I never memorized his number, I just kept it as a speed dial. So since I've erased it I've never been able to call him. And never will again. I feel so good about that.
I'm spending a lot of time in the bath with my gameboy and magazines. The OTC thread really really helped, and reading everyone's posts makes me stronger. I'm taking it one hour at a time. I almost can't believe that I've made it this far. I'm completely dedicated.
Tomorrow is my first pills anonymous meeting. I'm really nervous, and I look like crap. I mean, bags under the eyes, lot's of weeping... I haven't cried this much since I was a little kid. But I'm going, and that's that.
I really feel like I can do this. I'm praying a lot, and thinking about how great it will be to start a new year clean.
Thanks so much for checking on me. I'm so happy to hear that you're doing good, I'd feel extremely proud if I were you. Good luck! Stay strong! I know now that we can do this - bring it on!
ooo sweety.sooo hoping you will find that .lite ,,and you will.stay strong angel ..you will do this ...day 9 ,feel much better,,,,,still need alot of work ,,going to meeting is a great help..you wont feel so alone,,,,how old are you?just wondering?if you dont want to tell ..thats just fine? oo you said you are hurgry ,,do you havr good apetite,,if so thats really good .now post ok ..we care huddles....love poopie
I am sending both of you cyber hugs....
You can do this. You can.....I know it.
Be kind to yourself and lots of hot baths. Just know that you will make it through....
Y..you are so missed here.
WW, cutting off all sources is absolutely crucial. Huge high five!!
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You can do this. You can.....I know it.
Be kind to yourself and lots of hot baths. Just know that you will make it through....
Y..you are so missed here.
WW, cutting off all sources is absolutely crucial. Huge high five!!
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
