Whats up. Been thinking abot your NA/AA topic. Just got out of AA meeting. Working on *th step amends. Difficult some are going to have to be done by action to prove cause sorry and i promise are just words with no meaning to most people ive hurt. For instance one i did several years ago when in progam, she punched me. Maybe that was her way of getting it out. I probally deserved it. Made one to my banker and i ended up geting a job out of it the other day, doing a pressure washing job(not at the bank). But i brought the topic up that you discussed and i got alot of reaction that the 12 steps would be great in even a normal persons life no matter the program it comes from, but you have to feel comfortable in that progam. Do you work thye 12-steps? Good luck. Hope to hear from ya soon.
Your sick in the head friend,
Brien
One other thing. That DRFEELGOOD blows my mind. Funny ur husband calls u that to. This last post got sent to the bottom.
C ya Q-Bee
Brien
C ya Q-Bee
Brien
Hi Brien!
So glad you made a meeting tonight. I completely think that its so true even "normies" could implement the steps into there life and live it with a better sense of accomplishment.
That 8th step scares me so much. I am still on step 3 because of my...hesitation if you will. I think I am not fully engrossed into the steps because of me. I know them by heart....and think about them often. What a powerful thing to make those amends...and look at you....a job! Not so good about the whack upside the head...but we have to take the good with the bad! I hope it didn't hurt to much!
I have not made NA yet....but thank you for the push...I was going to go tonight and then my usual AA afterwards at 7:00. I had a couple of meetings this afternoon that just wiped me out.
Hobbling about eats at my energy and leaves me exhausted and now with a headache. Its on definitely on the Agenda for tomorrow...I promise absolutely to let you know how it goes...I am really curious and excited about going...this dern broken ankle is slowing me down...I think it carrying those crutches all day too!
I don't know what to do about drfeelNOTsogood. If he wants help...its here and for the taking, but like so many...until he is ready he is playing a dangerous game. I feel for him I do....but feeling for him won't help him or save his life....all those drugs....man he could be in serious trouble!
You keep up the good work....you are one of the good guys! I am so proud of you!
kee kee....aks QB! lol
So glad you made a meeting tonight. I completely think that its so true even "normies" could implement the steps into there life and live it with a better sense of accomplishment.
That 8th step scares me so much. I am still on step 3 because of my...hesitation if you will. I think I am not fully engrossed into the steps because of me. I know them by heart....and think about them often. What a powerful thing to make those amends...and look at you....a job! Not so good about the whack upside the head...but we have to take the good with the bad! I hope it didn't hurt to much!
I have not made NA yet....but thank you for the push...I was going to go tonight and then my usual AA afterwards at 7:00. I had a couple of meetings this afternoon that just wiped me out.
Hobbling about eats at my energy and leaves me exhausted and now with a headache. Its on definitely on the Agenda for tomorrow...I promise absolutely to let you know how it goes...I am really curious and excited about going...this dern broken ankle is slowing me down...I think it carrying those crutches all day too!
I don't know what to do about drfeelNOTsogood. If he wants help...its here and for the taking, but like so many...until he is ready he is playing a dangerous game. I feel for him I do....but feeling for him won't help him or save his life....all those drugs....man he could be in serious trouble!
You keep up the good work....you are one of the good guys! I am so proud of you!
kee kee....aks QB! lol
Cool let me know. The punch in the face was while at my first go in the program in 2000-'03. Theres no rush its just i have been through them and at a time for those years was active before my mthdne got outa hand, I was just getting bashed on the methadone board. they aske what kind of program i work what i do. I tell em am they say im cocky, spoiled rich kid that will probally relapse. One thing i know is i work hard for aa, college, and at work and im an addict and know i have a high risk of relapsing. I wont judge but they r bitter i believe because im happy to b free of methadone? Kinda got to me at first but i was just as bad to defend methadone.
Talk 2mor. Night, Q-Bee
Brien
Talk 2mor. Night, Q-Bee
Brien
Morning Brien!
Thanks for posting to me. If I haven't told you how proud I am of you for beating Methadone well I am telling you now! I think your story is a powerful one. Methadone scares the *hit out of me. I was so desperate and deep into my addiction in Jan 06 and went to an addiction clinic in Canada where the only method of treatment was the methadone program. I did all the required testing and they took me as a patient (lucky me...NOT) My stint with methadone lasted 3 days...I took a very low dose 15mgs per day at the clinic in a little white paper cup. I was so humiliated and scared and deep deep into depression. I was there at 7:00am so there was no one around at that time, I wasn't exposed to the line ups or the stigma that is attached to that drug. However, I knew very quickly that that was another level of hell!!
I am a professional and went on to work after that...I was so sick and scared, looking back I wonder how I got through those days. To make a long story short I just stopped...after 3 days and quickly resumed my old habit. My point!!! Good for you man. Thats awesome. I would like to hear your story you sound like you are working a good program and are staying clean!!
Have a good one!
Thanks for posting to me. If I haven't told you how proud I am of you for beating Methadone well I am telling you now! I think your story is a powerful one. Methadone scares the *hit out of me. I was so desperate and deep into my addiction in Jan 06 and went to an addiction clinic in Canada where the only method of treatment was the methadone program. I did all the required testing and they took me as a patient (lucky me...NOT) My stint with methadone lasted 3 days...I took a very low dose 15mgs per day at the clinic in a little white paper cup. I was so humiliated and scared and deep deep into depression. I was there at 7:00am so there was no one around at that time, I wasn't exposed to the line ups or the stigma that is attached to that drug. However, I knew very quickly that that was another level of hell!!
I am a professional and went on to work after that...I was so sick and scared, looking back I wonder how I got through those days. To make a long story short I just stopped...after 3 days and quickly resumed my old habit. My point!!! Good for you man. Thats awesome. I would like to hear your story you sound like you are working a good program and are staying clean!!
Have a good one!
Kee Kee(Q-Bee)
I check on the soboxone board and back in Jan. it really helped me and now it just sucks. I try n post but nobodys there kinda like inside my head but ussually its pretty scrambled. Just went to a big book discussion. I hate reading but do read it but it helps as a grour to discuss it and hear how everyone else thinks.There still bashing me on the methadone board. Im just going to stay away cause i like to argue and fight and i tryin to be a differnt person besides not using and drinking
Brien
I check on the soboxone board and back in Jan. it really helped me and now it just sucks. I try n post but nobodys there kinda like inside my head but ussually its pretty scrambled. Just went to a big book discussion. I hate reading but do read it but it helps as a grour to discuss it and hear how everyone else thinks.There still bashing me on the methadone board. Im just going to stay away cause i like to argue and fight and i tryin to be a differnt person besides not using and drinking
Brien
Brien who is bashing you where? Don't make me go over there and kick some *ss!
I know the sub is a great tool....I have found that while it definitely takes care of the cravings and gives you time to sort out your head and go to meetings. I believe without the relief that I got from it...I perhaps wouldn't have found the meetings as quickly as I did. I would have got there eventually BUT I do believe that's what the sub did.
Now, well....I know in my heart that it is time to move on to the next phase of my recovery. Maybe this is what is happening with you too. Your growth shines....you keep it up man, what an amazing life you have ahead of you...I am guessing you are....25....hmmmmm, and a genius! LOL
I know the sub is a great tool....I have found that while it definitely takes care of the cravings and gives you time to sort out your head and go to meetings. I believe without the relief that I got from it...I perhaps wouldn't have found the meetings as quickly as I did. I would have got there eventually BUT I do believe that's what the sub did.
Now, well....I know in my heart that it is time to move on to the next phase of my recovery. Maybe this is what is happening with you too. Your growth shines....you keep it up man, what an amazing life you have ahead of you...I am guessing you are....25....hmmmmm, and a genius! LOL
OMG Q-Bee u r a freakin genius. Its on the methadone board on another site. Ill tell em u said not to pick on me. Did u say u have a grand kid???????????????
Pictured you young. I guess alot of us r emotionly young cause of our lifestyle. Sub is a graet tool that gives me no high. I actually dreaded it taking it the first week cause everytime it put me in percipitated w/d's. Horrifying. Really thought i was going to die everytime. I cant explain. I knew it would happen but wouldve taken 5 more yrs to wean off 300mgs. I dont wana be on it for life and i shoot for 9mths n then start tapering.Nity Nite(that sounds so GAY)
Brien
Pictured you young. I guess alot of us r emotionly young cause of our lifestyle. Sub is a graet tool that gives me no high. I actually dreaded it taking it the first week cause everytime it put me in percipitated w/d's. Horrifying. Really thought i was going to die everytime. I cant explain. I knew it would happen but wouldve taken 5 more yrs to wean off 300mgs. I dont wana be on it for life and i shoot for 9mths n then start tapering.Nity Nite(that sounds so GAY)
Brien
OK i saw ur pics and see ur married. Ur pretty hot urself but would u please mail me your dughter. Youd have a good son in law. I just got divorce in september and im ready. She looks beautiful. I can arrange the paper work to be sent for the marrage liscence. God she looks hot. If shes married i hate him.
Theres a new Queen Bee for Brien. Move over Kee Kee. Youll always b the Q-Bee of this mthrfkn joint.
Brien
Theres a new Queen Bee for Brien. Move over Kee Kee. Youll always b the Q-Bee of this mthrfkn joint.
Brien
Morning Brien!! Thanks for the compliments! Yes I am a Granny...I adore my her..she is a gift from god this I know for sure...not many things that I am 100% clear on but this I am!!
Trust me you wouldn't know what you are getting yourself into when you come into my little family!! We put the FUN in dysFUNctional!!! Watch what you wish for...you just might get it!! LOL...LOL
You are so young to be divorced already...actually maybe not...I was married and divorced with two little ones by the time I was 23! Crazy.....you know what they say about recovery and relationships...take it slow the first year.....no new relationships and don't make any big decisions about the one your in if you are!
Where your pic Brien....come on don't be shy! I know you still have all your teeth so how bad can it be!!!!! LOLOLOL...just kidding!!
How is your day going? Good I hope!
Trust me you wouldn't know what you are getting yourself into when you come into my little family!! We put the FUN in dysFUNctional!!! Watch what you wish for...you just might get it!! LOL...LOL
You are so young to be divorced already...actually maybe not...I was married and divorced with two little ones by the time I was 23! Crazy.....you know what they say about recovery and relationships...take it slow the first year.....no new relationships and don't make any big decisions about the one your in if you are!
Where your pic Brien....come on don't be shy! I know you still have all your teeth so how bad can it be!!!!! LOLOLOL...just kidding!!
How is your day going? Good I hope!
Kee kee I love you
LOL
How are you--man another week -its freaking April soon.
How you feeling>
Jeff
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How are you--man another week -its freaking April soon.
How you feeling>
Jeff
Q-Bee
Im not shy i m just retarded when it comes to getting pictures onto the computer. I will this weekend then your daughter will fall in love. Cant b worse than my last relationship. B**** is crazy, more than me. Thats one thing i tend to not wana hear is the one year thing. It doesnt say it in the book just like my sponsor is a woman. Hard core lez. Cool as hell. Talk to her more i would a guy. Ill get some pics up in next two days.Not to many recent ones but i look the same as i did 8 yrs ago. Im not shy. I might autogaph a few for you. Im not that cocky. Used to be when i was an oxy monstor. I knew the sun set just for Brien Strong.
Brien
Im not shy i m just retarded when it comes to getting pictures onto the computer. I will this weekend then your daughter will fall in love. Cant b worse than my last relationship. B**** is crazy, more than me. Thats one thing i tend to not wana hear is the one year thing. It doesnt say it in the book just like my sponsor is a woman. Hard core lez. Cool as hell. Talk to her more i would a guy. Ill get some pics up in next two days.Not to many recent ones but i look the same as i did 8 yrs ago. Im not shy. I might autogaph a few for you. Im not that cocky. Used to be when i was an oxy monstor. I knew the sun set just for Brien Strong.
Brien
