I've had a very busy 2 weeks. Besides work, I've been suffering from allergies. ( the itching so bad you want to rip your skin off kind!), and I have some friends and thier 3 kids staying with me temporarily. They're both strung pretty bad. All thier poppy goes for gear. (Can you tell I'm reading Trainspotting, Davey?) Anyway, the Dad is slapping the 13 yr. old around. I can't stand by and not do anything much longer. I know my friends have a disease. I have it myself! But those kids are suffering. I've felt like I had too much going on to post but I should have been pouring my fears and worries out. I always feel better when I do. And by the way, bounty hunters from Tn. were here, lokking for my AWOL husband. That's been fun! I live in a very small community and they talked to everybody! That particular bondsman is going to sue me for $3000 and another one for $1500. It's worth it if he stays AWOL. We may not be together but I'd rather give the cake to a bondsman than send it to him in prison. He's FAMILY and where I come from FAMILY is always there for you when you need them most. (no matter what) I'm rambling. Blessed Be, Shirley
Y"ill no be wantin a dictionary..then Shirley d"ya ken,ah telt um..am mhaire better than tham..bad news on the fella front likesay.Alreet ...Davey
please dont laugh or think i am really dumb and stupid but have been trying to understand 'cravings' as i am not addicted to anything and have never been addicted to anything (not showing off here just that havent) and so find it quite hard to undersatnd how it feels to crave something badly
so beacuse i was thinking this and trying to imagine..i thought about icthing...follow me here im not mad i promise you...as i too get really bad itches..at the mo mozzie bites...
...so i thought how bad is it when you have an itch and then dont scratch it...then beacuse you dont scratch it the itch becomes worse untill you can't really think of anything else and you know that it will be so much better is you scratch....this is the test i did and it was pretty torturous and the relief when i gave in and scratched was huge
now i know an itch and heroin craving are COMPLETLY different and i am not sayign that having an itch is in any way as bad as a craving for heroin...but is it along the same lines????
so beacuse i was thinking this and trying to imagine..i thought about icthing...follow me here im not mad i promise you...as i too get really bad itches..at the mo mozzie bites...
...so i thought how bad is it when you have an itch and then dont scratch it...then beacuse you dont scratch it the itch becomes worse untill you can't really think of anything else and you know that it will be so much better is you scratch....this is the test i did and it was pretty torturous and the relief when i gave in and scratched was huge
now i know an itch and heroin craving are COMPLETLY different and i am not sayign that having an itch is in any way as bad as a craving for heroin...but is it along the same lines????
