hey homies-the sight has been abnormally slow--is everyone doing that great or god forbid--that bad?????
update on transitional living(almost put trans living) haha thatd wouldve sent a different message alltogether LOL
i worked 10 hours today and i feel good--maybe i should just throw myself into work as much as possible and let my son stay with my mom-as much as that would kill me it might get me out of this place quicker--i dont know but i gotta make adecision soon--before school begins--man itll be hard letting go of my checks even more if they get bigger--im not getting along too well with the world i even freaked out on my mom last night which i havent done in a long long time-then i broke down--anyway i will get through this dark spot the sun is shining on the other side--if ill give it time--this too shall pass-right--ill just keep saying that maybe itll sink in sorry to be so down these days but i know that you all understand--i know using would be the worst thing right now but ive been having worse cravings than ive had in a long long time--im not gonna use but ity sure doesnt help my mood any--love to you all peace out HOOOOMIIIEEEESSSS haha
Hey Amity, yeah using would be the worst thing you could do, i ended up getting out of it on fri and yest i felt sh*t all day... just remember through every dark night there's a bright day after that!! I hope everything works out for you, Take it easy, Kev
Hiya, I was supposed to be going camping yesterday. Drove the bus up to Llyn Brianne, but half way up the mountain the brakes went west. Stopped, and thought about staying for the night, but it was pissing down with rain, couldn't get any reception on the TV, and rain started leaking through a hole in the roof. So figured I drive the old girl home - not an easy task driving through a mountain pass with no brakes in a big old bus - kept her in first gear and used the handbrake. I shoulda called the AA, but my phone didn't work up there. Anyways, got home in one piece.
Had bad dreams last night - heroin dreams. I can't get my head round it. I hardly ever think about the drug when I'm awake, but it comes to find me every night...
love
Diff xxx
Had bad dreams last night - heroin dreams. I can't get my head round it. I hardly ever think about the drug when I'm awake, but it comes to find me every night...
love
Diff xxx
Haaaaa, TRANNY LIVING.........that'd have been right funny, Amity......I mean cause we know you're a chick now and always........otherwise to each his own....and may everyone be happy.
Ya know...........might have been a full moon last night.........thus your down more..........and Diff's dreams were strong......and Diff yeah ya ain't think ya don't think about it during the day but your subconcious is if it comes in the dreams.
Down but not out.........sometimes it just bees this way, Amity.......like all the "normal" people they got these times too.......only they don't know the power of heroin and how BAM all worries gone........until you're back out there.
Hang on tight, Sister.......stay chill.......no using........it will get better.
Ya know...........might have been a full moon last night.........thus your down more..........and Diff's dreams were strong......and Diff yeah ya ain't think ya don't think about it during the day but your subconcious is if it comes in the dreams.
Down but not out.........sometimes it just bees this way, Amity.......like all the "normal" people they got these times too.......only they don't know the power of heroin and how BAM all worries gone........until you're back out there.
Hang on tight, Sister.......stay chill.......no using........it will get better.
Amity - Hang in there keeping busy is good.
Diff - wondered how you could be posting and be away at the same time not sure about full moons Bryn but my man relapsed this week after doing so good and it started with these damn smack thoughts at night and that just once syndrome and I guess I should have been more supportive cuz he has really been trying but I wasn't very supportive a bit off hand if anything. Must be something in the air.
karen
x
Diff - wondered how you could be posting and be away at the same time not sure about full moons Bryn but my man relapsed this week after doing so good and it started with these damn smack thoughts at night and that just once syndrome and I guess I should have been more supportive cuz he has really been trying but I wasn't very supportive a bit off hand if anything. Must be something in the air.
karen
x
