A.A. member, or N.A. member?
I think Cowgirl tried to start a thread simular to this a while back. There are quite a few folks here that claim to be working a 12 step program. I thought it might be nice for any newcomer here, to see how surrendering and entering a fellowship such as A.A. etc.. isn't a death sentance or the end of "The Good Times", but rather ( for me ) the beginning of a new life without the need of alcohol/drugs, and a fellowship where there are no strangers just friends we haven't met yet. So, maybe share just briefly, where your at as compared to before, what step your working on, etc... And saying your working the program through this board, or any other online group doesn't count! lol
Hi, I'm Bob, and I'm an alcoholic/drug addict...( this is where you all say.."Hi Bob...lol )
I took my first drink at around 10 or 11 years old. I remember the night, the beer was Schaffer, cans, and I loved the taste. I was already in love with the atomsphere of a bar, due to being taken there with my dad as a kid. I already had all the ism's, didn't feel good about myself, low self asteem etc..
Anyway, I took a drink whenever I had the chance from that point on, which wasn't often till I hit 14. Then, being in a new neighborhood, I fell in with some kids trying to be cool, and started drinking on the weekends. I liked it right away because it gave me false courage, confidence, etc.. Along the way I picked up Cocaine and fell in love. This went on for years, then in 1995 I was introduced to pain pills and never looked back. Between 1984 and 2005 I tried to get sober a few times and did at one time actually get two years sober. But, Always being set in my ways and head strong and stubborn, always figured I could do things my way. Well, after a string of bad events, and horrible consequences on August 15th 2005 I drank my last drink and took my last drug.
I admitted complete defeat and surrendered to my disease and accepted I am an alcoholic and drug addict. My sober date is 8-16-05, I went to a meeting with 24 hours sober, shook like a willow tree and got my white chip. I got a sponsor,
who told me he doesn't like the word "Sponsor" but we'll be two friends that help keep eachother sober. That sounded good to me. I been to a meeting almost everyday since, sometimes twice or even three in a day. I love goin', I don't dread it, I took the coffe commitment at my homegroup. I spoke on my 90 days,
and I plan to go downtown to innergroup and pickup some commitments. Maybe the prison commitment. I like that one, I spoke in prison a couple times before and talk about leaving a meeting feeling grateful! Anyway, I started my 4th step, my sponsor said to hold off a bit, since I started going to a step study once a week, wait till I get to the 4th with that, and then start writting again. Unless I wannna do it now, which he said was fine, thats what he suggested. So, I've decided to do that. I've done the first three steps, the first step is the only one I need to get perfect everytime, and I continue to work them everyday.
1= I can't
2= He can
3= I think I'll let Him
I work the other steps in my life to the best of my ability, even though I'm not technically on them yet, I do review my day at night, I don't pass the oppritunity to make an amend if it presents itself, I help others whenever I can and I do pray and attempt meditation on a daily basis. The obsession to drink/drug has been lifted, I still have days that aren't great, but I'm ok. I know now happyness comes from within. Things around me may be screwed up but I'm getting better.
And I'm slowly cleaning up my side of the street. I now find it easier to live one day at a time, I understand that thinking now and it feels good. Everyday is a good day as long as I don't pickup, somedays are better than others, but I don't have bad days anymore, for today. Thanks for letting me share.
Take care...........Bob
Ok, it's your part of the meeting........Who's next?.......*wink*
My name is Carrie and I am an addict.........
Will share later...... feeling the sweat pouring.....
LMAO..... HI BOB
Carrie
Will share later...... feeling the sweat pouring.....
LMAO..... HI BOB
Carrie
Hi there,
My name is Marie and I am an addict. Too tired right now to tell my whole story but will, promise.
Hey Carrie, how's it going, girlfriend? Sorry I havent called you back yet. Please call me again or email me so I can get your new #. Hows the new place?
I'm finally buying my VERY OWN (well besides my two youngest) home soon. Have started looking. Prices are outrageous for this area. At least gas here is down to $ 2.28 a gallon. We all need to stop driving for just one day out of the week and watch how fast those proces will go down!!!!
Love you,
Marie
My name is Marie and I am an addict. Too tired right now to tell my whole story but will, promise.
Hey Carrie, how's it going, girlfriend? Sorry I havent called you back yet. Please call me again or email me so I can get your new #. Hows the new place?
I'm finally buying my VERY OWN (well besides my two youngest) home soon. Have started looking. Prices are outrageous for this area. At least gas here is down to $ 2.28 a gallon. We all need to stop driving for just one day out of the week and watch how fast those proces will go down!!!!
Love you,
Marie
Hi I am an addict /alcoholic and my name is Cristina I ahve a very long story myself shoot I dont feel like posting the dang story right now let me see what I can do about this!!!Maybe nothing though we'll see I posted my story somewhere else .Be right back.C
Joined: October 2, 2005
Here is my story I am an addict ..Cristina
Ok here goes I just want you to know that I am doing this for myself as much as I am doing it for you and your daughter so I guess I need to tell you to sit back and dont even start reading unless you have a few minutes.
I grew up in a small coastal town in NC I had a fairy tale life .My mom and dad had my brother in 1970 and myself in 1974.I was a very happy little girl my life was full of dance lessons ,modeling and of course swimming my dad owned a real estate bus. and my mom stayed at home to take care of my brother and I.I can remember that we always had company my brother and I and my parents.My earliest memories are of being my daddys princess I could do no wrong.I was a cheerleader, homecoming queen ect .This all ended when I was 12 yrs old as my dad told my brother(Cameron ) and I that he had been having affairs and he was leaving my mother little did I know that he was leaving me too.You see my mother was an alcoholic and my dad was tired of it all her drunk binges which he drank also and I guess he was tired of being a father too because he ran off w/ a woman who had no children and has been married to her since 1992 .I was devastated you see I was the apple of his eye.My mother began drinking more and I was in so much pain she packe d us up and we moved to the city mind you I grew up in a town of maybe 1000 people i was terrified and I saw that my mom was dealing w/ her pain thru drink so I decided I would try this too Well it worked so I began to drink at the age of 12 and I drank whenever I could and this was often because mom had plenty for both us .Eventually I added pot this is like 6 months later I was 13 .Well mom got in an accident so we had to move again I did not fit in w/ these city people they even made fun of the way I talked !!! SO we moved to Raleigh well it was on then because people here partied!! I immediately got into the crowd of kids that skipped school and took acid and smoked weed and stole their parents pills I am `14 at this time well I never made it past the 9th grade as I was more interested in drugs and stealing cars you see this is how i got my parents to communicate by screwing up they just had to talk about what I had done now.I was picked up in a stolen car at the age of 14 and this is when I commited to bee in trouble with the law for the next 17 years .It was one thing after another and finally my mom had enough and sent mr to livew/ my dad and step mom this was at 17 my dad is an x marine and a prick for real .at the age of 17 I went to adult high school and got my diploma and started college at this time i was smoking pot and taking pills everyday becaus i just liked to be high plain and simple for just that reason.I had always had a bf and was never really promiscuous but always had a bf that had a job to make sure i got the drugs I wanted and 9 times out of 10 i dated the ones that sold the drugs .Finally i met my x husband i ahd finally met the man I was always looking for I ahd no idea what I was getting into really and moved otu of my dads 1/2 million $ home into a trailer .I got marreid at the age of 19 and had Arielle right before i turned 21 I actually did slow down and quit everything when I was pregnant for the 1st time since I was 12 yrs old I ahd a beautiful baby girl up until now I was r eally only taking valium and xanax whem I was taking pills but after having a c section i was precribed percocet and here we go again I was really in love now.Well my husband turned out to be bi polar manic depressive and had a terrible rage problem and boy we were the rednecks that were fighting in the front yard Big time I left him when Arielle was 6 months old.He loved drugs just as much as I did too.
I decide to move from the beach back to my mom with Arielle to go to cosmo.school at this time i was bartending and 21 years old and living with a g/f well my last weekend at the beach we decided we were going to go out in /Myrtle and do it up I took some xanax some speed and a hit of acid and off we went we went to a heavy metal bar and most of the night was a blur butI remember not wanting to drive becaus I did not want to get the DUI for real well at 1:54 am I went thru a windshield at excess of 100mph my neck was cut from ear to ear 1/2 inch from my jugular vein and I was rushed to the hospital my BAL was .27 and I had just about every drug you could fiind in my body so needless to say 220 shot of novacaine in my head hurt BAD I stayed in the hospital for exactly one week on morphine looking like the elephant man my head was about the size of 2 footballs it was gross!!! This was 11-17-94 and one week to the day before Arielles first birthday .My family was horrified and evry person that walke din the hospital room turned around and walked out trippin.Anyway i talked them in to letting me leave the hospital to go home for Arielles 1st bday .They sent me home w/ damn near every pain killer that you would want .I was stuck after thisI did move home with mom and layed on the couch for like 6 months high as can be as i had also developed aserious case of PTSD and could not even ride in a car unless I took valium and sat in the back seat I did go to school though .
Well low and behold it was time for me to get my settlement from the accident and I got max pay out on the 2 cars involved which was only $70000 and of course I quit school at this time Ariellle waslike 3 and i was 24 I think well w/ all this money I started buying coke by the ounce.I was paying people w/ it to break into vet. offices and to steal me liquid valium,ketamine and phenebarbital.I was stil taking my pain pills too and drinking and evrything else .I ended up spending all this$$ on drugs in 6 months and lost my daughter in the process she went ot live w/ her dad and his new wife.I move dback down to the beach again and started dating this guy who introduced me to my first pain clinic and heroin .I was surrounded by people that did as I did.Eventually my pain management dr got arrested for over prescribing pills and hung hisself in jail so I was forced to go to the methadone clinic and whilst on meth I started smoking crack well to support these habits I was staeling 30 cartons of cigarettes a day and selling them for $10 a carton and continued to do this for 2 solid years .It was absolutely insane and during this time I learned how to write prescriptions pretty well I might add.I eventually had to move back to moms again as she was fearing for my life because I had gotten into another accident and hit a telephone poll at 75 mph because I nodded while I was driving.I moved to Raleigh again and stayed on the meth and quit the craclk and instead was writing scripts for Adderall which is an amphetamine and that was a much better buzz than the crack anyway.Well i got busted finally for writing the scripts and ended up in jail with 8 felonies and was fortuante to only serve 18 months all together prison sucked and I got in all sorts of trouble while I was in there but I maxed out and was finally at the age of 28 no ton probation for the first time since I was 14.I stayed clean for another 3-4 months I think and it was off to the races again then I cmae in and out of the program I guess until I was 30 and finally was able to get Arielle back for the first time in a long time and everything was great until December of last year and it had been buildng up I slowly stared to dabble in pills again an next thing you know I had stolen 3000 $ from mom and shot it all up in one weekend well needless to say she kicke dme out and i called my old b/f and moved to Va boy that is where they seperated the men from the boys I was barely making it between heroin and crack I was all consumed in the worst way and got arrested a few times and finally called mom in August and begged her to get me a bus ticket home to see my daughter I was in terrible pain and by now they were too so I got some methadone pills and hopped on the bus.Mind you this whole time since the age of 15 I was introduced to AA/NA and was in and out but I could never get it I was always doing it for someone besides myself and while I was up here visiting my brother whom I love dearly and have always loved so much said to me Tina honey you know I love you and I am telling you do not go back no matter what I dont care if you live on the streets here atleast we will know where you are.I had always been honest with my big brother he peotected me for many years as he is 6'4" and weighs about 300 lbs but has a heart as sweet as chocolate .Hold on a minute this part is so hard for me I need a cigarette ok He said ever since you told me last night you were living in a crack house and doing all this s*** I think this will be the last time I will see you if you go back and I love you and I cant sleep at night because of the nightmares and I have a family to take care of please consider staying here in NC so we can atleast be close to you.Well something clicked for me and I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that if I left again I might as well put a gun to my head so I quit evrything and started calling drs to find one that prescribed Suboxone and I wnet to see this addiction specialist and you know the deal from there I am about 10 weeks clean I have my own home my own business and have just stared my 2nd job and spend everyday w/ my family now and work a real honest program in AA/NA for the first time in my life and the miracles are every day that I wake up alive and breathing I am so happy now but I still ahve alot of issues to work thru but I am ready finally and it just isnt that bad as long as I take it one day at a time and keep doing the next right thing and I ask God to keep me sober in the morning and I thank Him at night .This is my story although I have left alot of the details out I am sure you catch the drift and the point is this.... If there is hope for this girl there really is hope for everybody as long as it is really what you want and you have been as desperate as only the dying can be ..There is hope and thanks for letting me share my story w/ you .Good night,sweet dreams to you and yours
BTW I posted this a few weeks ago and I copied it to your thread I have 90 days today for anyone that might get confused I had 10 weeks sober when I posted this on the families /partners forum .Thanks for letting me share my story with you !!Cristina
Cristina,
I think I said briefly! lol ...Just kiddin'..*wink*
Thankyou so much for your story and honesty. Helped me big time. Your a true gift. Boy would I love to have you speak for me too. lol
Now if thats not a story of hope for someone here, I give up! lol
How grateful I feel right now to be alive, and to be a part of this thing called recovery. And I'm grateful for being able to add you to the list of friends I have who are all an important part of my recovery. I love ya'......
Take care..........Bob
Ok who else had there hand up?..
I think I said briefly! lol ...Just kiddin'..*wink*
Thankyou so much for your story and honesty. Helped me big time. Your a true gift. Boy would I love to have you speak for me too. lol
Now if thats not a story of hope for someone here, I give up! lol
How grateful I feel right now to be alive, and to be a part of this thing called recovery. And I'm grateful for being able to add you to the list of friends I have who are all an important part of my recovery. I love ya'......
Take care..........Bob
Ok who else had there hand up?..
Sorry it wasnt brief Bob but I copied it and if I were to have edited anymore I might have deleted the part that helps someone ya know? Glad to add you to my list too!!! Alright I will give someone else a chance to share and quit hogging all the time!!! Dont you hate it when people do that ?? Love you too brother,C
Hi my name is Dawn and have no problems admitting that I am an addict and a member of NA. I can qualify for the majority of the other anonymous programs but NA is where I got my foot in the door and the place I feel at home. I have been in and out of recovery since 1993 I had 4 1/2 clean, life was good. I was going for back surgery and stopped going to meetings. I relapsed after the doctor gave me that first narcotic for my back pain. One was too many and a thousand was never enough. My disease got progressively worse and I substituted one drug for another for 3 1/2 years. Life was unmanageable once again. I left detox after signing out AMA after 18 hours and walked back in the doors of NA. That was a little over 2 years ago. Today I attend 3-5 meetings a week, work the steps with my sponsor-(Just finished the 4th step) Have a god of my understanding and try and give back what was so freely given to me. I am once again happy joyous and free. Today I am for sure that NA can live without me but I cannot live without NA.
Hand raised...
My name is Lisa and I'm an chemical wastedump.
I started on pills at the age of 18. Loved the way they made me NOT feel. I was off and running for the next 20 something years.
I went to treatment in 2000, got about 5 months under me and then quit going to meetings. Decided I didn't need them anymore. I could do it on my own.
I relapsed hard that time. My final day of using was my 44th birthday. I had stolen pills out of my mother's purse that day. The day before I had bought oxy off the street. I never thought I would ever stoop that low. What I found out is that I would do anything to get those drugs.
The next day, I went back to my old meetings. I asked for a phone list and a sponsor. I did what they told me to do. The work is hard, the answer is simple. I'm clean because of NA and AA.
Thanks for letting me share Bob.
My name is Lisa and I'm an chemical wastedump.
I started on pills at the age of 18. Loved the way they made me NOT feel. I was off and running for the next 20 something years.
I went to treatment in 2000, got about 5 months under me and then quit going to meetings. Decided I didn't need them anymore. I could do it on my own.
I relapsed hard that time. My final day of using was my 44th birthday. I had stolen pills out of my mother's purse that day. The day before I had bought oxy off the street. I never thought I would ever stoop that low. What I found out is that I would do anything to get those drugs.
The next day, I went back to my old meetings. I asked for a phone list and a sponsor. I did what they told me to do. The work is hard, the answer is simple. I'm clean because of NA and AA.
Thanks for letting me share Bob.
thanks for sharing cant wait to read in the am I appreciate the hospitality you all!! everyone sleep well! love ya cristina holding the pup and typing w/ one hand is too much for this addict !!
Hello my name is Sean and I am an addict and am active in NA. I have just finished my fifth step. I am a few days away from nine months clean.
Although I prefer NA I attend AA in a pinch, after all isn't it the same disease?
My story can be found at
http://www.wastednetwork.com/wn_for...m/index.php?c=6
I'll take a another 24 and hope everyone else will as well.
God bless.
Although I prefer NA I attend AA in a pinch, after all isn't it the same disease?
My story can be found at
http://www.wastednetwork.com/wn_for...m/index.php?c=6
I'll take a another 24 and hope everyone else will as well.
God bless.
Hi my name is teresa and I am an addict.......
My story starts out like many.... I am and only child of an alcoholic father who works every day.. drinks everyday/ all day and loves his friends and customers more than his kid and wife.. as least he shows it more... My mom is the poster person for co dependant/enabler and exuses my dads abuses more verbal and emotional than physical with blinders than never come off... she has sacrificed me and my childhood innocence for her protection and secrurity...... I was the parent almost from the age of 6 or 7... not ever believing I was allowed to have feeling of my own .. esp anger or hurt... my feelings were always dependant on the mood and whims on my parents .. if they were peaceful I was peaceful.. if they were fighting I was the peacemaker...
I was the classic over achiever ... I was the caregiver... Never wanted anyone to think badly of me....this facade was hard to maintain and tiring too ... I put myself through two colleges and took care of two dead beat husbands... when I had an injury and was given pain pills.. I too found my true love.... It wasnt hard to feel peaceful and happy inside anymore... I had a new self confidence that I didnt have to 'fake'... the pills did it for me... I felt like wonderwoman.... but that didnt last... my tolerance grew quickly.... I experiented with other drugs but none took the place of my love...
As I was a nurse at the time and off work with my injury... I began calling in my own meds... the day I decided to quit .. I remember having an over whelming sense of guilt and shame for using my doctor collegues the way I had.... I admitted to her what I had been doing.. after a few turns and for brievity sake... I was arrested.. went to jail for a short time... gave up my career... lost a home ... new cars,,, my husband left me... and most important I lost all credibility with my family closest to me..... this disease kills us spiritually and leaves us bleeding on the inside way before it actually takes our heartbeats ...
I found the rooms of NA through rehab.... NA was my miracle... I found that I can have my feelings .. that I deserve them... they are mine... NA has taught me that I cant NOT use... it is not a control thing... it is a disease of addiction... I dont not need to understand why.... I attend meetings and speak in prisions.. this keeps me humble and grateful... I never want to go back to the places I have been .. physically in jail and emotionally ready to take my own life...
I have been able to string over 5 years clean though the rooms of NA and most importantly my Higher Power.... the fellowship saves me from myself and I am there to help them .. it is how the program works.... we help each other... Our paths to get here may be different but the process is the same including to ends if we continue to use... jails institiutions and death....
Recovery isnt easy. You have to want it. But it is possible. I am LIVING proof of that. I am living a clean and happy life. now. I have good days and bad days. I still have triggers but through NA I have the tools to deal with them.
My Higher Power keeps me grounded daily cause all I really have is today. I dont like being a felon or having to get a new career and start over but in all honesty, I really dont know that I would change alot of the last 5 years. I am a grateful active memeber of NA , a recovering addict
God Bless us all... Thanks for letting me share...
Teresa
My story starts out like many.... I am and only child of an alcoholic father who works every day.. drinks everyday/ all day and loves his friends and customers more than his kid and wife.. as least he shows it more... My mom is the poster person for co dependant/enabler and exuses my dads abuses more verbal and emotional than physical with blinders than never come off... she has sacrificed me and my childhood innocence for her protection and secrurity...... I was the parent almost from the age of 6 or 7... not ever believing I was allowed to have feeling of my own .. esp anger or hurt... my feelings were always dependant on the mood and whims on my parents .. if they were peaceful I was peaceful.. if they were fighting I was the peacemaker...
I was the classic over achiever ... I was the caregiver... Never wanted anyone to think badly of me....this facade was hard to maintain and tiring too ... I put myself through two colleges and took care of two dead beat husbands... when I had an injury and was given pain pills.. I too found my true love.... It wasnt hard to feel peaceful and happy inside anymore... I had a new self confidence that I didnt have to 'fake'... the pills did it for me... I felt like wonderwoman.... but that didnt last... my tolerance grew quickly.... I experiented with other drugs but none took the place of my love...
As I was a nurse at the time and off work with my injury... I began calling in my own meds... the day I decided to quit .. I remember having an over whelming sense of guilt and shame for using my doctor collegues the way I had.... I admitted to her what I had been doing.. after a few turns and for brievity sake... I was arrested.. went to jail for a short time... gave up my career... lost a home ... new cars,,, my husband left me... and most important I lost all credibility with my family closest to me..... this disease kills us spiritually and leaves us bleeding on the inside way before it actually takes our heartbeats ...
I found the rooms of NA through rehab.... NA was my miracle... I found that I can have my feelings .. that I deserve them... they are mine... NA has taught me that I cant NOT use... it is not a control thing... it is a disease of addiction... I dont not need to understand why.... I attend meetings and speak in prisions.. this keeps me humble and grateful... I never want to go back to the places I have been .. physically in jail and emotionally ready to take my own life...
I have been able to string over 5 years clean though the rooms of NA and most importantly my Higher Power.... the fellowship saves me from myself and I am there to help them .. it is how the program works.... we help each other... Our paths to get here may be different but the process is the same including to ends if we continue to use... jails institiutions and death....
Recovery isnt easy. You have to want it. But it is possible. I am LIVING proof of that. I am living a clean and happy life. now. I have good days and bad days. I still have triggers but through NA I have the tools to deal with them.
My Higher Power keeps me grounded daily cause all I really have is today. I dont like being a felon or having to get a new career and start over but in all honesty, I really dont know that I would change alot of the last 5 years. I am a grateful active memeber of NA , a recovering addict
God Bless us all... Thanks for letting me share...
Teresa
good morning all,my name is yvonne and I am a addict,my story make it breif.I hurt my back ,and got the pills and that is that,they came before my spouse ,commuity ,dogs,life really .what made me stop ,wastryed of being sick and tried,and cost ,isolation ,was bad ,but now im sober again after relasped,100 ,well 5 ,meetings ,sponser.amd good books ,keeps me levled.thankyou .poopie
Teresa & Poopie,
Thanks for sharing. Lisa, Dawn & Sean too.
Teresa said.. "I am an only child of an alcoholic father who works every day.. drinks everyday/ all day"....
Teresa, thats me too, I thought for a second you were gonna tell my story!
Actually you did, but you know what I mean. *wink* I love ya'. It's neat I think, how it doesn't matter if your a man or woman, we can all relate. I find for me,
we're just alcoholics/addicts, I don't see us any different. Although, some probably look better in a skirt then others! lol
Take care.......Bob
Ok, who's next? or do I have to start calling on people? lol
Thanks for sharing. Lisa, Dawn & Sean too.
Teresa said.. "I am an only child of an alcoholic father who works every day.. drinks everyday/ all day"....
Teresa, thats me too, I thought for a second you were gonna tell my story!
Actually you did, but you know what I mean. *wink* I love ya'. It's neat I think, how it doesn't matter if your a man or woman, we can all relate. I find for me,
we're just alcoholics/addicts, I don't see us any different. Although, some probably look better in a skirt then others! lol
Take care.......Bob
Ok, who's next? or do I have to start calling on people? lol
A Chemical Waste dump? LMFAO thats original.
I am Jeffrey and I am a alcoholic.
First drug at 13 liked the way it made me feel. Pills pot led to coke. rehab in 87 relapsed immediatly --rehab in 88 and halfway house and AA saved my life.
After 2.5 yrs of sobriety got tired and decided I could drink eat percs and take phenobarbatol. This worked for 8+yrs
1999 found Oxy and off tothe races. 2001 kicked barbituates 2004 kicked the opiates.
Biggest lesson I learned is my way does not work.
As soon as I turned it over to god man it was a great feeling. I recently have had to go back on suboxene weaning as we speak.
Meetings therapy monthly and a support network consisting of a sponser who has 13++yrs and has known me 35 yrs.
Program works if you work it.
Jeff
I am Jeffrey and I am a alcoholic.
First drug at 13 liked the way it made me feel. Pills pot led to coke. rehab in 87 relapsed immediatly --rehab in 88 and halfway house and AA saved my life.
After 2.5 yrs of sobriety got tired and decided I could drink eat percs and take phenobarbatol. This worked for 8+yrs
1999 found Oxy and off tothe races. 2001 kicked barbituates 2004 kicked the opiates.
Biggest lesson I learned is my way does not work.
As soon as I turned it over to god man it was a great feeling. I recently have had to go back on suboxene weaning as we speak.
Meetings therapy monthly and a support network consisting of a sponser who has 13++yrs and has known me 35 yrs.
Program works if you work it.
Jeff
Thanks Jeff for sharing.....
I posted this in another thread earlier in responce to someone. It's a big thing to me, and it kinda got lost in the shuffle over there. I thought it was important enough to put here. Maybe someone will see it, relate to it, and realize they also need to quit drinkin/druggin'. This is just a brief story from one night, but for me, this is what happens when I pick up. I hurt people, either with my hands, my mouth, or as said here an automobile.
I guess it was umm, about 15 years ago I guess. A buddy and I left work at noon and went to the bar. We drank and other things till about 3am. We knew the owner, so we were there till well after closing. Anyway, I dropped off my buddy ( who is now dead ) at an after hours club and went on my way. I got about a half mile from my apartment and passed out behind the wheel. I took out a phone booth, side swipped two cars and injured a few people, then slammed into a lifted bronco. My head went through the windshield, and I broke a few ribs. I was a bloody mess, drunk/high, and had hurt some folks. I never went to the hospital, and after the cops and everyone else left the scene, I was alone on the corner, I had no idea where I was, didn't even get a ticket? Later I did get my balls sued off lol. All I remember from that night was a few people taken away in rescue squads. To this day I have no idea if anyone was in that phone booth, I don't think so, but I really don't know or remember. Anyway, theres alot more to that story, theres even kind of a funny thing that happened
too, but anyway.
Please don't drink/drug and drive, I know a guy that killed his own son in a hit and run while drunk. This sh-t ain't no joke!!
Take care.........Bob
I posted this in another thread earlier in responce to someone. It's a big thing to me, and it kinda got lost in the shuffle over there. I thought it was important enough to put here. Maybe someone will see it, relate to it, and realize they also need to quit drinkin/druggin'. This is just a brief story from one night, but for me, this is what happens when I pick up. I hurt people, either with my hands, my mouth, or as said here an automobile.
I guess it was umm, about 15 years ago I guess. A buddy and I left work at noon and went to the bar. We drank and other things till about 3am. We knew the owner, so we were there till well after closing. Anyway, I dropped off my buddy ( who is now dead ) at an after hours club and went on my way. I got about a half mile from my apartment and passed out behind the wheel. I took out a phone booth, side swipped two cars and injured a few people, then slammed into a lifted bronco. My head went through the windshield, and I broke a few ribs. I was a bloody mess, drunk/high, and had hurt some folks. I never went to the hospital, and after the cops and everyone else left the scene, I was alone on the corner, I had no idea where I was, didn't even get a ticket? Later I did get my balls sued off lol. All I remember from that night was a few people taken away in rescue squads. To this day I have no idea if anyone was in that phone booth, I don't think so, but I really don't know or remember. Anyway, theres alot more to that story, theres even kind of a funny thing that happened
too, but anyway.
Please don't drink/drug and drive, I know a guy that killed his own son in a hit and run while drunk. This sh-t ain't no joke!!
Take care.........Bob
hat is a tradgic story and I have been in a terrible accident too where I went thruogh the windshield that was alittle over 10 yrs ago and that sent me into opiate hell ,Anyway it is amazing how much of a death sentence a vehicle is to people that are drinking and drugging and then we put the sober people at risk too.Totally a self centered disease I only had one real thought before I got in the car with the girl who was driving when I was in my accident and it had nothing to do w/ hurting someone else I just did not want the DUI so I let her drive she didnt have a license to lose anyway.We did some sick a s s sh it didny we!!Glad we dont have to live that way anymore!!! Nice to hear everyones stories please keep sharing!!! Hey Bob start calling on people!!!Yeah do that!! How are you today my friend? I am doing pretty good raining here too and I love it!!!Lazt daisy here!!1Love you,Cristina
Hey Jeffrey!!How are you feeling? Thanks for sharing your story!!!
Teresa WOW I was reading my own story pretty much with you !!Did the calling and writng script thing and the prison deal it just wasnt quite enough so I went and did some more thank God he allowed me to find my way back to the rooms again I am very grateful today !!
Actually I am grateful for every single one of you and I am so glad that we are not on the road driving and taking that chance today .I am very glad we have made it to the rooms you all.We are the blessed ones for sure!!!Love ,Cristina
Hey Jeffrey!!How are you feeling? Thanks for sharing your story!!!
Teresa WOW I was reading my own story pretty much with you !!Did the calling and writng script thing and the prison deal it just wasnt quite enough so I went and did some more thank God he allowed me to find my way back to the rooms again I am very grateful today !!
Actually I am grateful for every single one of you and I am so glad that we are not on the road driving and taking that chance today .I am very glad we have made it to the rooms you all.We are the blessed ones for sure!!!Love ,Cristina
hey christinia---just got home--i work through lunch and leave at 4pm--so i can do my therapy.
long day as its cold 70 but chilly affects me and rainy.
how are you?
take care--jeff
long day as its cold 70 but chilly affects me and rainy.
how are you?
take care--jeff
Hi,
Yeah thats for sure. I've certainly done some sick sh-t. It just started raining here too, I love rainy days and nights. Good for relaxin' and chillin' out. I'm also doin' good today, a little tired, but it's a good kinda tired, if ya' know what I mean. Gina has dinner cookin', mmmm smells good too..lol Can't wait!
Ok, since noone feels comfratable raising there hand, let me see....
I'll give it till 8pm my time, (east coast), then I start calling on people...lol
Lets see....FloridaGirl, Sammy, oh yeah Carrie blew threw here too real quick..lol ummm, who else does meetings?..umm, Kat, Sharon, OMG GINA!!!
where the hell is my wife!!!! Oh yeah, she's cookin'! lol
Well, at 8pm one of you gets called on, I'm gonna close my eyes and point, then post the name!
Take care..........Bob
Yeah thats for sure. I've certainly done some sick sh-t. It just started raining here too, I love rainy days and nights. Good for relaxin' and chillin' out. I'm also doin' good today, a little tired, but it's a good kinda tired, if ya' know what I mean. Gina has dinner cookin', mmmm smells good too..lol Can't wait!
Ok, since noone feels comfratable raising there hand, let me see....
I'll give it till 8pm my time, (east coast), then I start calling on people...lol
Lets see....FloridaGirl, Sammy, oh yeah Carrie blew threw here too real quick..lol ummm, who else does meetings?..umm, Kat, Sharon, OMG GINA!!!
where the hell is my wife!!!! Oh yeah, she's cookin'! lol
Well, at 8pm one of you gets called on, I'm gonna close my eyes and point, then post the name!
Take care..........Bob
