For the last four months ive been pretty good relapsing for three four days then going like two weeks.. Im starting NA today to see how the 12 steps can help me.. I've heard mostly positives about its.. But since i've calmed down dramatically i've been getting flashback of good memories of pre addiction, and people i've associated with from two three years back.. nothing bad but good things that make me feel bad.. sounds stupid huh.. anyone that can help pleaze post.. thanks
Dear Phillys I think the mental hold these drugs have on us are the hardest part.I know for me I have even dreamt about being high and stuff like that.I think you getting into a 12 step may help your mind be strong.Good Luck......mollyjean...mj
Philly, I get that also. It is bizarre..and I have learned that it can do a number on me. Someone taught me to play the tape all the way through..meaning you have to take yourself mentally through what will happen up to how the pills make you feel when you take them NOW..Guilty, Ashamed, and not even a good buzz any longer.
Good luck.
Kerry
Good luck.
Kerry
its pretty normal, i start remembering all kinds of things, good and bad from pre drug days. & the memories get vivid & strong. i think thats one of the things na is helpful for, ur experience is not unusual at all. i think some of it is ur mind or subconcious trying to tll u something & some of it is something else. but its quite normal, so dont worry.
What do you mean flashbacks? memories, dreams, or daydreams? Hopefully not while you are awake. Be happy that your subcontious wants to take you back to a happier life. If it is strange see a doctor. Actually - see a therapist at least. Find the right one. Stay on track! Good luck! YOu are doing okay. Just keep those memories and use them when you feel the relapse coming on. Instead of giving in go to an aa or na meeting and talk. I heard that aa has more long time members there to help and it might help to go to those. they re held more often anyway.
