okay i need to vent even though im stupid enough to put myself through it
things havent been good here i have kept up a front for other people but know you guys wont judge or criticise so ill say thankyou in advance
while shaun hasent touched the methodone or the Heroin (that i know of ) he has injected ritalin, and has been takeing pills and alcohole ive put up with it so far but really have had enough. he has anti-abuse for the alcohol but dont know weather hes taken it or its just another lie
hes been in hospital for 3 days discharged himself this morning then came home as high as anything and drank on it so he has just been taken back to hospital in a ambulance im guessing he did take the anti abuse and they have made him very sick.
i had my doubts for the reason he said of going to hospital (bowel problems and stones maybe) but i managed to get it out of him finally that it was a drug thing (vallium) so now hes back there, im at my wits end well and truly i have just under 4 weeks till this baby arrives plus my 2 year old.
have had to change my phone number today as i have weird people ringing saying they dont know shaun but he gave them the number for this reason or another.
i guess the last straw was today when he brought some strange women back here she was obviously a junkie and she started crying when i said i didnt have rubbish bags, he tried to say she was hsi aunty then she turnt around and called my aunty! (i think he sold her some pills)
he dosent even seem to get what hes doing to others or just dosent care, why on earth do we put ourselves through this i want to be there for him goodness knows no one else will be, i dont want to send him back to prison but im getting to the stage where maybe ive got no choice.
hes been home almost 3 weeks and weve had nothing but lies, stealing and substance abuse and the way he treats other people is disgusting, when hes not on something hes so angry i dont even know him anymore and i dont want to know the person he has become.
reading this i have my answers i guess i knew them before anyway thanks for letting me ramble on and sorry its so long
Dear Crystal Rose,
I'm so sorry for this terrible time you're going through. Especailly with your baby ready to arrive.
I wish I had some good advice for you. It doesn't seem Shaun is trying at all to be part of a family. Most Dr.'s say that addiction is defined by the compulsion, and I find that to be true. When one is deeply involved, they just can't think of or see anything else.
I know you have some very hard decisions to make at a time you shouldn't have to. I'm really sorry about that. If he's taking the antibuse then he will get very sick if he drinks.
You and your children deserve a home with some peace and safety in it. Which ever path you take, there'll be a period of unrest. I'll say a prayer for you, Crystal Rose. God Bless.
I'm so sorry for this terrible time you're going through. Especailly with your baby ready to arrive.
I wish I had some good advice for you. It doesn't seem Shaun is trying at all to be part of a family. Most Dr.'s say that addiction is defined by the compulsion, and I find that to be true. When one is deeply involved, they just can't think of or see anything else.
I know you have some very hard decisions to make at a time you shouldn't have to. I'm really sorry about that. If he's taking the antibuse then he will get very sick if he drinks.
You and your children deserve a home with some peace and safety in it. Which ever path you take, there'll be a period of unrest. I'll say a prayer for you, Crystal Rose. God Bless.
oh crystal please take care you so need support right now, I hope you have family or friends who are around you are at a very vulnerable time right now, please take care--let him go--itll help him to see the error of his ways when using, his mind isnt right! whether hes a good man or not he's not good for you right now, im so sorry you are going through this--take care!!
Hi Crystal,
I'm sorry you're going through this. And you're right, of course, we do it to ourselves....whether we're sick, compassionate, loving, too strong and giving for our own good, masochistic, thinking we're deserving only of pain and punishment....some of all of it? Who knows?
Have you been to the board for Families and partners? There are some good people over there who have walked a similar path to the one you're treading....it might help to read the archive if you haven't already.
Take good care of yourself.
I'm sorry you're going through this. And you're right, of course, we do it to ourselves....whether we're sick, compassionate, loving, too strong and giving for our own good, masochistic, thinking we're deserving only of pain and punishment....some of all of it? Who knows?
Have you been to the board for Families and partners? There are some good people over there who have walked a similar path to the one you're treading....it might help to read the archive if you haven't already.
Take good care of yourself.
