Why

Pain Pills
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why is it that i have lost friends-jobs,respect from other people and i still want these pills. I am on 24hrs clean and my mind is racing about all the bad things i have done to obtain the meds. Why is it that i just cant walk away and forget about them. I really need to talk to someone that is in my shoes.

Thanks
E-Mac
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Emac, addiction is tremendously powerful, especially the mental obsession. We've all done things to get pills that we're not proud of. I risked professional suicide, loss of family, jail. As many on this Board can attest, though, there is a solution -- you can quit, stay quit, and lead a meaningful and enjoyable life. Have you had enough? M.
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emac, you are going to start a new journey today. Please contact na or aa and you will get some answers. Please just hang in there. It is a disease, and your brain chemistry is relying on that to feel good...it is kinda instinctual at this point. But the farther you get away from that last pill, the easier it gets.
kerry
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thank you for getting back to me. I hope and pray that i can get this evil demon behind me. This message board is a big help. I hope people here will help me through it

Thank You
E-Mac
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E-mac I don't know any addtic who does have guilt. My new dr. gave me this to think about.

~ imagine you are on a road trip, and you take a wrong turn and you wind up somewhere that you DON'T want to be. What do you do? You look at map (make a plain) you ask for directions. Then you get back on the road and find your way to place where you know you want to be (sober and healthy) !!!

marina ~

keep driving hon you'll get there
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marina, that was a good post......it helped me too!