First of all I would like to say I am an alcoholic. I have been for as long as I can remember..I went into a re-hab a few yrs back, and followed up with AA meetings for several months..yes that did help me alot! The problem is my husband also has a drinking problem...he also did the same steps I did..we did it together. we fell off the wagon together. The problem I am having now is, he thinks my drinking is worse then his is.I have been out of work since Christmas and he works nights..so I am all alone at night..saying that you can see the pattern of my drinking. I drink a 12 pk of beer a night..so does he..this has become not only a problem with my family and friends..but now it is my health..my liver. At this point in my life I really dont think re-hab is the answer again...yes AA I will go to again..mean time my doctor told me to whine myself off slowly..which I am trying to do so. well last night scared the crap out of me..I had about 5 beers and when i went to sleep I had the sweats and a nightmare that I swear was so real! it has accured more then a few times..but last night was the worse! It always is like I am in a semi dream state..I feel paralized..as if someone or something is keeping me from moving or speaking. I am always struggling to get free from this.Well last night it was as if this monster (let me say I never see anything or anyone while in this sate)..the monster picked me up and was shaking me laughing in this horific way..I was fighting all my mite to get free..i could see my husband next to me in bed...and i was trying to say to him help me! i kept saying it..over and over..but i couldnt move my lips..my teeth were clenched..he heard me and shook me out of it. He said it was like I was talking latin.I cried from fear, and he thinks I am crazy. Of course he was drinking watching sports at 2 am..I prayed to God and thought is this withdrawls ????? Has anyone ever had this happen to them? or am I going crazy? Tonight I am going to try 4 beers and hope the shakes and nervousness and most of all the bad dreams stop! I need to find AA meetings around where I live..please if someone knows about withdrawls share with me..I am scared to sleep straight.
Hi There,
I would first like to say, I know what hell you are living. I have been drinking for some time. I only just hit rock bottom, and had to go to a detox centre. In which I could not stay, as I was afraid.
I have been out for 3 days now, and am really struggling.
I have been to 2 AA meetings and find they help as we are not alone, which gives me a sense of comfort.
I tried to wean myself off just as you, and guess what. It DIDNT work!!
You are not going crazy, but you will if you continue in this way.
Just take one day at a time, and at the end of the day you will be able to say to yourself, "hey I made it without a drink"
Alcohol was my courage, I could do anything, and I feel right now I am lost and crazy cause I feel I cannot manage with out it.
I read your post and I know you are scared, so am I. Please understand you are not alone!!
Always remember there was a time in your life when you weren't dependant on it, and that day will come back, and takes work, will power, and most of all support from others.
Hang in there. If you ever want to email me please do so. My email address is
christinenelson@sympatico.ca
Take Care
I would first like to say, I know what hell you are living. I have been drinking for some time. I only just hit rock bottom, and had to go to a detox centre. In which I could not stay, as I was afraid.
I have been out for 3 days now, and am really struggling.
I have been to 2 AA meetings and find they help as we are not alone, which gives me a sense of comfort.
I tried to wean myself off just as you, and guess what. It DIDNT work!!
You are not going crazy, but you will if you continue in this way.
Just take one day at a time, and at the end of the day you will be able to say to yourself, "hey I made it without a drink"
Alcohol was my courage, I could do anything, and I feel right now I am lost and crazy cause I feel I cannot manage with out it.
I read your post and I know you are scared, so am I. Please understand you are not alone!!
Always remember there was a time in your life when you weren't dependant on it, and that day will come back, and takes work, will power, and most of all support from others.
Hang in there. If you ever want to email me please do so. My email address is
christinenelson@sympatico.ca
Take Care
