Has anyone around here had about a $200 a day, at least drug habit?
I never had that much plasma.
Yea I had a 300 a day oxy habit That was one of the reasons I quit but mostly cause I was gonna die if I didnt
You bet! Lot's of us. You can do it. Don't let fear rule your life. Hang on Bella...you're tougher then you think. $200 buys a lot of legitimate fun, ya know? It's so scary at first. But you have 2 brains now. One addicted, one reaching for sanity. You've done nothing any worse then the rest of us, rest assured. Look to the future where you're not ruled by the awful cravings and behaviour that goes with getting all those drugs. You'll be o.k. ion ht elong run. Talk to a Dr. go to NA do something proactive to help you through this. Just hang on and keep trying! Love Beck
oh yeah sometimes i would spend $2000 a week depending on what was around. my doc is percocet, but if there were oc's around i would dapple and they arn't cheap $40-$50 depending on the dealers mood. as said in a previous post, thats a real good reason to quit
Oh God Bella, the money I spent makes me sick when I think about it. Oxy can get pretty pricey too.
When I first quit pills, the money I saved was one of the many perks. I'm sending my son to a private school next year for 1st grade with the money I have saved. I'm not loaded by any means, I wait tables at night, but its funny how we all can afford whats important to us.
How are you feeling today?
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Im having a hard time moving aroung, it's day 3-4 since my last shot of opiate. Today i'm getting some painkillers for the comedown, nothing that will get me high, just relieve a little of the pain. Today is bill collector day, I cant run from it any longer, the web i've woven and held together, is unwinding at the ultimate rate. I just try to tell myself, i can handle it. I'm so sick of hurting it would be so easy to score right now, but I've involved my family for this reason and they have their eyes glued to me. Its amazing that all of us are addicted to that innerpeace & numbness, so instead of searching for it, we artificially find a way to get it, the quick fix of life, it seems so easy to inject something that takes all the pain of life away, but in reality you slip further away from yourself and the truth, every easy fix is 10 times harder to fix in the long run. Thats why for me , it was let go, and give up the lies, letting the mountain of burden crash on me, but live, or takes some last killer shots too the grave. Hopefully the small cast of my innerspirit will win
Hang in there Bella...not too easy I know. But what of great value in life isn't difficult. We're talking about your life here. I think you're doing great. Everyone cries, feels like dirt and scum, thinks no one is as terrible as them. Addict thinking. But please know, it's people like you that make it worth it for us. If we can help someone out of the hell we lived in, even if through just supportive talk, then we feel we make amends for the damage we've done. Plus we know there IS a way out. You're doing great. IF you mess up, try again. But just keep talking and being honest with us. We won't judge you. I did much oxy, about twice what you were doing and used heroin for a year. Oxy was tougher, cuz I couldn't afford much heroin. That's 25 years ago, but still had to give it up. Plus the oxy and lortab and xanax. So here I am telling you, you have HOPE. You do. Gotta want it. And wanting it gets stronger everyday. You said your stubborn. Good, use it. You're tougher then silly narcotics. But I truly understand the draw of it. You'll believe in yourself before long. Go ahead and cry...it helps. Then when you laugh it's like a drug in itself. Talk to someone...you said your family is involved...good. Talk to a coulnsoler, NA, anybody who can put it all in perspective. I have walked in your shoes hon. It can be done. Just keep talking. Using or no. COme baack. Much love and prayers, Becky
