Woe Is Me

i work in an office of women. the drama is about as big as the pain pill board. in our staff meeting today i asserted my position an attempted to clear the air and requested an end to the madness basically to create more stupidity. now women saying they are embarassed to do thing is public as an office and others saying they feel they must be mediators in the office. can we say get a life and do your job and then this would not be an issue.
as jojo knows i have been attempting to get my insurance to cover some elective surgery via the medically necessary route, dear lord and rubber tree plan how many hoops must we jump threw, one more visit to the pcp tomorrow and time is ticking as it needs to be done by the end of the year.
on top of all this, my asthma is horrible, i leave my insane job early today, on my way to pick up the kids, parked at a red light the car in front of me thinks they may be too far in the intersection puts it in reverse and plows into me as fast as they can. i honk my horn when they realize it is too late to stop they put it in drive and speed off. i did get the license plate number but could not get the make and model as they drive off like a bat out of hell. i think it was a teenager. their mama is gonna be mad. i file a report saying i am fine and my junk car is fine, damnit, too bad it wasnt totalled, lol. now after the release of adrenalin my arm that was stiff is killing me as well as my left shoulder blade. i guess this will be covered at the docs tomorrow.
waaaa waaaa waaaaa
overall life is good lol.
just needed to b****, whew i feel so much better. thanks keyboard for letting me type. oh and my stepsister in law, i think i got that right is 4 cm dialated and ready to drop a baby since sunday and they sent her home. hello. welcome to kentucky. go hoe the garden and call us tomorrow when you can see its ears.
Oh cool, brand new babies, I miss that Soooo much ! Good luck to your family!

Regarding office stuff.....I'll try to help, Jamv. I have no experience with offices. But definitely groups of chicks. Even if it's just to say I understand, I can share some things.

BTW, I love the way men fight, they just say what's on their mind and/or punch 'em and it's done.

My therapist last week said women relieve stress just by talking.

I used to be part of a huge group of 16 women. We would take bi-annual weekend trips as "mom" getaways. So much fun ! Then, after awhile, I couldn't keep track of who's hatin' who and the trips faded away. After several years of crap, now I have to visit them individually and tell them I don't "do" gossip when someone mentions someone else and it's dark and unpleasant.

The whole thing stresses me out so bad. Certain women were being left out of certain gatherings, there was hurt feelings. I can't help but think, what if something tragic happens, like cancer, or the death of a child, I imagine the guilt would be awful, for the individuals involved in doing the shunning and nasty talk.

The reason I think so morbidly about this particular stuff is because I learned the hardest lesson.

I had this experience at 15 when my best friend and I were fighting/not talking. We had this mutual friend who set it up so we would all meet for coffee, except my best friend and I didn't know the other would be there.

So, our mutual friend sat there and forced us to work out our differences. She was very persistent. It was really uncomfortable, but we became close again. I can still picture that coffee shop like it was yesterday and the three of us crying and then laughing. All of us in our stoner jackets and vibrating on three pots of coffee. LOL

About a month later, one day at school, our mutual friend was very sick and went home. We were used to her being sick sometimes, as she had chrohn's disease. We figured she would go home and rest like she had done before. She was really pale and couldn't keep anything down. That afternoon, she ended up going to the hospital and we found out the next day that she had passed away in the night.

My best friend and I were so grateful to her, dear Tracey had taught us to love, forgive, move on. It brings me to tears to write this. I remember her saying life is too short. Little did she know.

One never knows how long we have on earth. We never know what's going to blindside us, and when it will happen.

Petty indifferences can cause such pain and unnecessary suffering. Karen and I had eachother to hold on to, because of Tracey and in memory of Tracey. I'll never forget her. I believe she is the reason I believe everyone who crosses my path is there for a reason, yes, even the negative experiences.

Jamv, my wish for you is to get the ultimate care from the Doctor today and to receive exactly what you need from your office situation. ;-)




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That is a truly lovely story, yes life is too short for pettiness, I don't know why guys don't seem to hold on to these silly grudges like women do, but I'm glad we don't. And sad that even women who have been through the same thing you have seemed to have missed that lesson sometimes. One of my favorite songs is Jimmy Buffets "Cowboy in the Jungle" ...and still 24 hours, maybe 60 good years, it's really not that long a stay.
jamv-
Rubber tree plan? Did you gals start another new religion without telling me? Is it for girls exclusively? lol. Any dogma yet? lol.
Let my tire run out of air and ruined it, haven't done that in many moons. Seems like I'm having to re-learn some life skills again, now that my life is complicated with projects and not simplifed with pot, %yeah, right%.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
haha rubber tree PLAN, i didnt even notice.

difference in girls and boys
on friday i had 4 ----- 9 year old girls for a sleep over. ends up one is in the living room pouting, cause everyone is leaving her out, the other one wont play cause this one said that, one that is trying to "get them back together", one saying "this is just crazy", tears and yells and drama
saturday i had 4-----7 year old boys. conversation "your mean", "no your mean" end of conversation. "can i have a turn" "sure".

my doc completed the paperwork i needed in a very strange manner, hopefully they will go for it.
i am in a lot of chest pain due to asthma. could be developing into plueresy (sp?) it is hard to sit up straight and take deep breaths. it hurts in both lungs under my shoulder blades, comes around towards my ribs. got a steroid shot and a steroid dose pack and a non steroid anti inflammatory for pain, which so far has done nothing. major pain pills can decrease your ability to breath some can anyway. so we will see, hopefully the steroids will kick in, or i will be at the pulmos soon. as far as the wreck, just a sore hand, and i will live.

at work i am making my employees complete a personality quiz for themselves as well as identify everyone else in the office. it has actually lightened the mood some.

havent heard from the baby yet, i will call later tonight. sweet sweet babies, i miss it to until i hold one and then i am glad to give them back

happy thanksgiving.