Wonderful Life But Losing

Hi everyone I need help I am addicted to crack and for the first time in my life I am trying to save my life and keep my family intact. I have a husband who I just told a week ago and to beautiful girls...11 and 12...my problem is he wants me to get up at six and be all i am suppose to be and I'm hurting....im in pain my head kills me and one little task drains me how do I do this and keep functioning as a wife and mom.....I just gave him the key to the car that he leaves here and he took the other car to bring kids to dance...i want to get some right now so i told him and i am sitting here wondering what do i do to pull thru to a point where i feel like i can function

DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY ADVICE
There is no quick and/or easy solution sorry to say. You can sorta plan ahead for "downtime" however knowing how long that time is gonna be is uncertain. Regardless of that time, it is still gonna come to a point where your mind will argue with yourself over "need" . For us addicts, even being well past a physical withdrawl is no guarantee of staying clean. Bottom line,....best to simply bite the bullet and stop now. No excuses to yourself. Get it done and overwith as soon as ya can, the longer ya use the tougher it is to stop. I wish ya well.
i do all drugd how you get help i need it nad
How does one get help?? Doing what ya just did,.....reached out. If you sincerly want help you'll keep on reaching out. Ya might just be surprised at how much help is out here. The thing is though,.....ya gotta open up more than just saying you're using and want help. Using what?, how much? how long? any idea's on why or how ya got to this point? . Most addicts are trying to escape something in their lives,...others are attempting to fill an empty spot inside 'em. I found opening up about everything a lot easier to do online,...sites like this. Ya can be as anonymous as you like,....makes it easy to let out all the deep, dark issues most of us do not want to face ourselves let alone others know about. It all starts and ends by you and the actions you take.
just one more it is reasurring to see you posting after all this time still on this website
God knows ive been to the wall and back again, my addiction is destroying me and all that i can do is carry on.
I want help but the evil in me wants to carry on God help me.
Please all reading this pray for me.
I am going to find help this weekend at a centre and call a counsillor please think of me.
Thinking of you Nylrem, how'd it go this past weekend? The meth addicts I've known as well as chatted with online who simply decided it was time to quit,....and did so easily are very few and far between. Please!,...if nothing else,...know you are not alone. You also are not as far gone as ya may feel you are. "ya ,...right" you're probably thinking now. It's so F-in difficult to feel anything but lost,...you feel like you're the walking dead. Wishing and praying for the slightest little glimmer of "anything" resembling life, love, happiness.

Give yourself a break Nylrem, you're here!! you're reaching out!! I know it doesnt feel like it now to you,....but trust me,.. there'll come a time you look back and realize how significant the moments you thought all was lost became in your recovery. OK, I said before "if nothing else" let me add to that,....one,...you're not alone in this,...and secondly,...never, EVER, give up on yourself. It does not matter one bit how many times one falls, as long as they get back up one more time. YOU get yourself back up and keep trying ok??? keep posting whether you're using or not....We ALL need each other,...together we can and will make it. It really does get easier........