wow, where to begin so i get home mon night and am like have a drink and relax. so have that drink, turns into a bunch more drinks, that turns into calling the yayo dood. so then after i do that a start feeeling really bad, cuz i have not done it in so long. then started messing with the air duster. then i felt reeely bad so i slapped in a bunch of vicodins, and tylenol pms. i guess its time to quit drinking? didnt work today or yesterday, tooooo out of it. gotta get back into being normal! anyone wanna talk while im in la la land here?
like on yahoo or aim??
i figure i didnt die from all that, so i guess its not my time!
Hi badkid?
Thanks for posting. Your sharing has helped me reflect on my life and be thankful I am here today, and I believe there was someone looking after me.
Today I call that someone Higher Power or God of my understanding. Like you one drink was to many and 50 drinks was not enough for me a lot of the time.
And when I had those drinks I would take anything else that I could get my hands on just to take away what was happening in my head. But instead of taking what ever problem I may have had away I would come to. (Or wake up?) With only more problems.
I have never really known what normal was so I cant help you there. Unless it was the opposite to everything I was doing .lol .I believe normal is having choices. And as far as dieing goos alcoholism or drug addiction kills us long before where dead. Mentally and emotionally. But there is hope and I will talk about that next time.
Bye for now God bless
Lionel
Thanks for posting. Your sharing has helped me reflect on my life and be thankful I am here today, and I believe there was someone looking after me.
Today I call that someone Higher Power or God of my understanding. Like you one drink was to many and 50 drinks was not enough for me a lot of the time.
And when I had those drinks I would take anything else that I could get my hands on just to take away what was happening in my head. But instead of taking what ever problem I may have had away I would come to. (Or wake up?) With only more problems.
I have never really known what normal was so I cant help you there. Unless it was the opposite to everything I was doing .lol .I believe normal is having choices. And as far as dieing goos alcoholism or drug addiction kills us long before where dead. Mentally and emotionally. But there is hope and I will talk about that next time.
Bye for now God bless
Lionel
hey bad kid, not to sound like an a*shole, but reading your post made me laugh way out loud. i swear i could have typed in the exact words 6 years ago,minus the duster. i don't know how old you are but you sound earily just like me. i have been on and off drugs since i was 12, now 31. i am not going to scold anyone, but please be careful. if you don't check yourself you will be just like me. i am currently on the pill board, with a serious addiction to pain killers, this is the worst one yet. i check in almost every day if you want to chat with the exception of saturday afternoon into sunday. hope to see you around.
