Well it's Tuesday morning and I only have 4 ES left, I am freaking out!!! Does anyone out there know how I am feeling? I want to take one so bad, but I am trying to make them last. This is the kind of behavior that I am really getting tires of. I feel ike I am sick, but I guess I am just addicted. Any help would be appreciated. Thanks
Hi KY Yes I think most of us know how you are feeling cause we have been there some of us still are.What has brought you here?Im sorry if you already posted this but Ive been away.How many are you use to taking?How long?By Dr orders?....mj
Yes I get 90 a month from my Dr. because of knee pain from 2 surgeries, but they only last me about 2 weeks if I am careful. I just feel so bad because of this, but I don't want to live with the pain either. I try to stay at around 6 a day but sometimes I take as many as 10. That sounds so bad I hate it, I am starting to hate myself for it. Is this a normal reaction?
Yes I think what your feeling is normal.You keep wondering how these pills started to control you.When I stopped by DOC(Ultram)I was close to 20 a day.I was going through 400 a mth.See I have Chrons so the pain is always there.Youll find there are alot of conversations on here regaurding that.Some people need pain relief but they abuse their meds(like me).hating or being mad at yourself isnt going to help though I know how you feel.Is your Dr someone you can be open with & tell your having a hard time with your meds?Do you have someone you can trust to hold your pills for you so they arent right there for you???mj
Missy,
Yep, I know the feeling, all too well. I remember burning all my bridges and being down to a couple pills left, I was VERY nervous and scared. You will have a bumpy road, but you can do it.
Regards,
Tom
Yep, I know the feeling, all too well. I remember burning all my bridges and being down to a couple pills left, I was VERY nervous and scared. You will have a bumpy road, but you can do it.
Regards,
Tom
missy,
i do know the feeling. i can't explain it. i knew i was about to run out and all those feelings of panic and worry i remembered. i knew i didn't want to feel those feelings any more. i knew i was sick. i knew i was a addict. i wanted those feelings to stop more than the feeling i got with being high on the drug. just dig your heels done. get rid of any drugs/contacts you may have and committ to doing this. it's not going to be easy but it will be a decision you will never regret.
god bless you
cindy
i do know the feeling. i can't explain it. i knew i was about to run out and all those feelings of panic and worry i remembered. i knew i didn't want to feel those feelings any more. i knew i was sick. i knew i was a addict. i wanted those feelings to stop more than the feeling i got with being high on the drug. just dig your heels done. get rid of any drugs/contacts you may have and committ to doing this. it's not going to be easy but it will be a decision you will never regret.
god bless you
cindy
hye kymissy
are you from kentucky
i am, lexington
it would be nice to talk with someone from my home state
let me know
are you from kentucky
i am, lexington
it would be nice to talk with someone from my home state
let me know
kymissy, hey If you still have pills left consider cutting them in half. I'd also say "I" in my opinion think you should make an appointment and go in and see your doctor letting him know how you are doing. In my opinion you will need help.
Interesting fact here, my latest problem revolves around 2 total knee replacement surgeries, both on same knee. Recovery was going well and on the 5th day I fell off the hospital bed and the doc's had to go back in there and "he says" redo it all. Da, I really screwed that up. Without catherization I was just trying to P.
Scuse my bluntness.
From thqat point on recovery was pure hell, Spent the next 6 weeks (most at home) suffering in so much pain thought I'd die. (at least hoped I would)
My grandson, who was living with us at the time replaced my bag of ice every 40 minutes or so.
Honestly, pain was worse than from any of the nine back operations I have been going through since 1988. I have been on every pain med I think there is. At one point I was using 360 10mg hydrocodone a month, always out before the month was over so I have been through withdrawls off and on for years. Pure hell
Any questions about how I've dealt with things are welcom. I will say this, if any
body is having problems with their medications the only way they will get through it is by having the help of a proffesional medical person. Psychiatrist is
important but since they are usually on the team for perscribing medications a psychologist is equally important if not more and a good pain management doctor or facility is also of much importance. I just honestly think Help is needed. Especially when it comes time to quit taking narcotic pain medications
Best to all, God Bless
Grandpa Allen
Interesting fact here, my latest problem revolves around 2 total knee replacement surgeries, both on same knee. Recovery was going well and on the 5th day I fell off the hospital bed and the doc's had to go back in there and "he says" redo it all. Da, I really screwed that up. Without catherization I was just trying to P.
Scuse my bluntness.
From thqat point on recovery was pure hell, Spent the next 6 weeks (most at home) suffering in so much pain thought I'd die. (at least hoped I would)
My grandson, who was living with us at the time replaced my bag of ice every 40 minutes or so.
Honestly, pain was worse than from any of the nine back operations I have been going through since 1988. I have been on every pain med I think there is. At one point I was using 360 10mg hydrocodone a month, always out before the month was over so I have been through withdrawls off and on for years. Pure hell
Any questions about how I've dealt with things are welcom. I will say this, if any
body is having problems with their medications the only way they will get through it is by having the help of a proffesional medical person. Psychiatrist is
important but since they are usually on the team for perscribing medications a psychologist is equally important if not more and a good pain management doctor or facility is also of much importance. I just honestly think Help is needed. Especially when it comes time to quit taking narcotic pain medications
Best to all, God Bless
Grandpa Allen
Well it's Wednesday and I had 2 pills left this morning. Already took 1 1/2 knowing that I will be sick later. I hate it. How do I stop wanting more? I just don't know where to begin. Woke up this morning sick I guess cause I only took 2 pills yesterday. Made a phone call this morning, I know this is wrong but I can't stand feeling like this. I have to go to work today. I am on vacation for 9 days after Friday seriously thinking about trying to detox, but I don't know. How do I let my husband know what's going on with me. I have had an addiction before to cocain and I did beat that, but it just didn't seem as hard. He knew about that one and it almost broke us up. I didn't mean to get addicted to vicodin, it just happened since my accident. I'm feeling really low right now. Does anyone have any suggestions? I know it does help to be able to get things off my chest on here, I appreciate any and all listeners. God Bless all of you.
Good morning missy,First I want to say I think its great that you can see that you have a problem.Alot of people will go years before they can admit it.I want to let you know,that being honest with your husband is very important.Yes it may start a spat,but you are going to need all the support you can get.I dont want to scare you or make it where you dont want to quit but its only fair that I warn you.After you get it all cleaned out of your body,you need to be prepared to fight maybe for the rest of your life against the mental addiction.I have been away from my DOC since Jan 04.I take suboxone to help with the physical stuff,but I still at times miss that buzz so bad.At times I have dreamed of having that buzz.
Do you go to therapy at all?Or maybe NA?The reason I ask is because that outside support it needed.I never use to think so,but as I go further in my recovery I see I need it.I myself havent done any meetings(Im chicken)but I am going to start private therapy ASAP.Good Luck to you please let us know how its going or if you need to vent ok?...mj
Do you go to therapy at all?Or maybe NA?The reason I ask is because that outside support it needed.I never use to think so,but as I go further in my recovery I see I need it.I myself havent done any meetings(Im chicken)but I am going to start private therapy ASAP.Good Luck to you please let us know how its going or if you need to vent ok?...mj
I have been thinking about starting some kind of therapy. I think there's alot more going on with me than I realize. I just wish I knew what it was.
Hey missy.I dont know about you I can only speak from my point of view.I know that I have depression & for much of my life Ive been self medicating.Now that I got seriuos about recovery I let my Dr give me antidepressants along with whatelse Im taking.It doesnt make the world look like a bed of roses but the pricks dont hurt as much either.
For me I know there is alot in my past I need to face address and heal before I move forward,that is why Ill be in therapy soon.How can I move forward if I still hurt over the past you know????mj
For me I know there is alot in my past I need to face address and heal before I move forward,that is why Ill be in therapy soon.How can I move forward if I still hurt over the past you know????mj
Where did you go?????
I know exactly how you feel, I have 1 Methadone pill left, and can't get my script filled until Next Thursday! So tomorrow, I will be sick as a dog, my level is 60 mgs a day, and tomorrow I will drop to 10, then 0. Oh boy. I haven't been in w/d since January of this year, sooooo Methadone unfortunately is a rough and horrible w/d. Prayers are needed. Kim
Kim arent you so sick of that merry-go-round?My God I remember counting pills & worring & ordering & just all of it.You are on some heavy stuff huh?I had that about 5 years ago.But I bought mine off the street,so I really didnt get hooked to bad.What are you going to do to make it through.Cause Ill be honest.even though I dont really know you...now Im starting to worry about you.What can I do to try & help???mj
Kim, I'm worried about you too! That's going from alot to nothing for a week. But if you have that under your belt, why not just say "no more". I was on Methadone to detox but for only about 4 weeks and the Dr. detoxed me down, so I never had any problems. Can you call your Dr. and let him know or does he already know. Then just explained what happened. You won't be the first one.
Missy, I was taking 20-30 Vicodans a day! I had help from my husband weaning down (he kept them) but also the Dr. knew what was happening. Can you come clean with your Dr. and he will probably help you taper down and if someone in the house can help to, that would be great, then you can't cheat. I and probably most of us cheated and took more, that's why we are all here.
Missy, I was taking 20-30 Vicodans a day! I had help from my husband weaning down (he kept them) but also the Dr. knew what was happening. Can you come clean with your Dr. and he will probably help you taper down and if someone in the house can help to, that would be great, then you can't cheat. I and probably most of us cheated and took more, that's why we are all here.
Kim,
Prayers are coming......
Is this because your bf took some of your pills? I thought you may have had a good chance with your doctor helping you out with that.
I wish you nothing but the best and I hope that things don't become to bad for you.....
Love,
Tina
Prayers are coming......
Is this because your bf took some of your pills? I thought you may have had a good chance with your doctor helping you out with that.
I wish you nothing but the best and I hope that things don't become to bad for you.....
Love,
Tina
mdgirl,
hang in there sweetie. I kicked methadone last year...only to get hooked on Vicodin. Anyway, that's a different story. I had a rough time of it and went through many daze of feeling like hell. I am presently on day 2 of my wd's from vicodin and it's much easier than the meth. A couple of things that helped me with my methadone wd's were lot's of water mixed with emergen-C. You can buy this product just about anywhere and it really keeps all your electrolytes and key vitamins/mineral ballanced. Take it twice a day. Another thing to try is amino acid suppliments. Opiets seem to rob your body of all the key nutrients that help keep you functioning normal. Trust me on this....YOU CAN DO IT!!! I cried for days but made it and if i can do it, so can you. These pills have no heart, but you do....it's your anchor and the beat of your soul.
God Bless...
hang in there sweetie. I kicked methadone last year...only to get hooked on Vicodin. Anyway, that's a different story. I had a rough time of it and went through many daze of feeling like hell. I am presently on day 2 of my wd's from vicodin and it's much easier than the meth. A couple of things that helped me with my methadone wd's were lot's of water mixed with emergen-C. You can buy this product just about anywhere and it really keeps all your electrolytes and key vitamins/mineral ballanced. Take it twice a day. Another thing to try is amino acid suppliments. Opiets seem to rob your body of all the key nutrients that help keep you functioning normal. Trust me on this....YOU CAN DO IT!!! I cried for days but made it and if i can do it, so can you. These pills have no heart, but you do....it's your anchor and the beat of your soul.
God Bless...
missy, you sound like me 1 year ago. i have been on percocet for 2 years. i used to think 6 was a lot till i got to 18 a day. i just came clean to my husband last week now i am trying to wean off. be careful this is not a good place to be. i used to take them for pain as well, now i have to take them to function. i have a hard time walking in the morning with out them(my kidneys hurt that bad) don't let this happen to you good luck!
Ky missy...you could talk to your dr. I think you might want to...90 a month isn't low; it can get worse.
Kim, I feel for you...that is gona hurt. Maybe you could talk to your dr?
kerry
Kim, I feel for you...that is gona hurt. Maybe you could talk to your dr?
kerry
