Some of you may know, I had cancer cells on my cervix about a year ago. I have HPV. They did a LEEP procedure that burns the cancer off.
Mine was on a margin, that could not be gotten to, but the doctor was very pleased with the procedure and said that he got so close to that one part that the heat alone would probably get rid of it.
My checkup after the procedure was good, no signs.
I just got a call from my second checkup and it's back...with a vengeance, they want to see me ASAP.
We did talk about possibilities if this happened.. Another LEEP, if too much of my cervix is taken off I may not be able to carry a child to term. Also, "Hysterectomy" was mentioned...I should have had another baby while I had the chance.
I have no clue how to feel right now. Scared, Disappointed, Scared, Sad... Why is this happening to me?
Just wanted to vent, i haven't told anyone except my husband about this.
Stacey
Ok, let me try this again.....Kendall shut my computer off.
I feel for you, big time. I've been thru it all myself. Before I even had my girls and I had 3 dr's tell me that I would never be able to get pregnant, let alone carry to full-term. Well, here we are yrs later and Kendall just turned 4 and Makenzy just turned 7. Not only was I able to get pregnant but, I carried past term. I was induced with both.
My sister has gone thru all of this as well. Her's was caused by the pregnancy and birth of my niece and this past October she did end up having a hysterectomy but, she knew that they were not going to have any more kids either. A friend of mine is going thru this all now. Hers has only just begun.
What I'm trying to tell you is, although the dr's tell you what will and what won't happen.....you just never know!! Go to your appointments. Do everything the dr's tell you but, don't stop believing that you'll have that baby that you want. With Makenzy I went into pre-mature labor at 9 wks.....that was scary but, I kept believing that this little girl was meant to be and here we are 7 yrs later and she's has bratty as I Was....lol!!
Keep positive-
Thinkin' of ya- Meghan
I feel for you, big time. I've been thru it all myself. Before I even had my girls and I had 3 dr's tell me that I would never be able to get pregnant, let alone carry to full-term. Well, here we are yrs later and Kendall just turned 4 and Makenzy just turned 7. Not only was I able to get pregnant but, I carried past term. I was induced with both.
My sister has gone thru all of this as well. Her's was caused by the pregnancy and birth of my niece and this past October she did end up having a hysterectomy but, she knew that they were not going to have any more kids either. A friend of mine is going thru this all now. Hers has only just begun.
What I'm trying to tell you is, although the dr's tell you what will and what won't happen.....you just never know!! Go to your appointments. Do everything the dr's tell you but, don't stop believing that you'll have that baby that you want. With Makenzy I went into pre-mature labor at 9 wks.....that was scary but, I kept believing that this little girl was meant to be and here we are 7 yrs later and she's has bratty as I Was....lol!!
Keep positive-
Thinkin' of ya- Meghan
Sorry to hear this Stacey. I had the procedure done when I was in my early 20's. I had my hysterectomy done about 12 years ago. I was definately done having babies though. If worse comes to worse, you have a precious little girl, thank God for that. And should you have to have a hysterectomy the advantage is not having to suffer monthly. I am glad that I don't have to put up with a period. I will say a prayer for you and send out some {{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}
I have to agree there. At least you have one beautiful little girl. I know after I had Makenzy (and this is coming from the same person who never wanted kids to begin with) I just knew I wanted at least one more!! But, I also felt that if it wasn't going to happen at least someone up above gave me the chance and opportunity to experience it once in my lifetime.
I also want to add Janet.....I envy the poop outta you!!! No more periods!!! Man, you're lucky. I'd give my eye teeth to get out of mine 8-(
Just keep thinking positive things. I know that's the last thing on your mind right now but, I believe that you have the power to make your dreams come true, as does anybody but, it can't happen if you're not thinking positive things. And the support of your hubby is going to be a key factor. I hope he's there to hold your hand and be your support if and when you need him.
I also want to add Janet.....I envy the poop outta you!!! No more periods!!! Man, you're lucky. I'd give my eye teeth to get out of mine 8-(
Just keep thinking positive things. I know that's the last thing on your mind right now but, I believe that you have the power to make your dreams come true, as does anybody but, it can't happen if you're not thinking positive things. And the support of your hubby is going to be a key factor. I hope he's there to hold your hand and be your support if and when you need him.
Not having a period is great, but I've had hot flashes since I was about 28. Definately NOT a good trade off! They have gotten worse and since Lisa had her heart attack I stopped taking the hormones, even though they did give me some relief. I have a fan by my chair and one by my bed...works pretty good, but doesn't stop them. I don't know that I will ever stop having them. I had the hysterectomy and had my ovaries removed a few years ago.
From as far back as I can remember my periods have always been a problem with me. In my late teens I bled for 9 wks straight and they thought that they (the dr's) were going to have to give me a transfuision. My periods used to be so bad that I would literally pass out from the pain. I was diagnosed with "cervical dysplasia" and almost all of my exams showed cancerous cells but, after I had Makenzy things eased up all the way up until recently. I'm noticing a lot of the issues I had before the girls' are coming back and I just don't want to go thru it again. My grandma, mom, and my sister have all had hysterectomies. So, it makes me wonder.....am I next? We're not having anymore kids.....hubby got fixed.....so, it wouldn't hurt my feelings if my dr suggested it.
I can remember my mom having bad,bad,bad hot flashes. Or "power surges" as we call them....lol
I can remember my mom having bad,bad,bad hot flashes. Or "power surges" as we call them....lol
lmao...power surges! That is too funny!
Stacy I am very sorry for you current situation. But no you should not have had another baby.(Now)IMO Your young and its god's will what the future regarding child bearing.
Stacy your in early recovery of a killer disease. Could you imagine another child. Yes I know you want another child a playmate for Kaylin but please think it all through.
My ex and i fought for many years about another child. Stacy I gave in And Yes she is beautiful and wonderful etc etc.
Her birth and within 6 months i am out my career.
I did not want the responsibility of another child as my health is so fragile. My Ex did not care and hounded me for years--Hence I have a 16 yr old and 7 yr old.
and should have been firm or left the marriage. But i did not. I just could not leave My eldest daughter so I gave in.
Now I am divorced--and have lost watching my eldest blossom into A BEUATIFUL WOMAN.
Stacy its easy for me to say this to you. I cant imagine how sad you feel.
But your not sure of anything for now correct?
Stay healthy, Pray as you have no control on what your body will be able to do regarding having another baby.
Sucks being sick. Sorry Stacy--Hang in there
Jeff
P.S Kaylin is one special child--you just can see it in her eyes.
Stacy your in early recovery of a killer disease. Could you imagine another child. Yes I know you want another child a playmate for Kaylin but please think it all through.
My ex and i fought for many years about another child. Stacy I gave in And Yes she is beautiful and wonderful etc etc.
Her birth and within 6 months i am out my career.
I did not want the responsibility of another child as my health is so fragile. My Ex did not care and hounded me for years--Hence I have a 16 yr old and 7 yr old.
and should have been firm or left the marriage. But i did not. I just could not leave My eldest daughter so I gave in.
Now I am divorced--and have lost watching my eldest blossom into A BEUATIFUL WOMAN.
Stacy its easy for me to say this to you. I cant imagine how sad you feel.
But your not sure of anything for now correct?
Stay healthy, Pray as you have no control on what your body will be able to do regarding having another baby.
Sucks being sick. Sorry Stacy--Hang in there
Jeff
P.S Kaylin is one special child--you just can see it in her eyes.
Thanks Meghan, Jeff, and Janet.
I don't want to do the LEEP again, that hurt. It wasn't so bad until the end, i almost threw up and had the worst cramps ever that lasted most of the day.
The only thing that got me through it without too much fuss was thinking "all i gotta do is do this one time and it'll be done..."
Well not like that is it??
I want another baby so bad, not now of course, but yea I wanted AT LEAST one more kid.
I am blessed to have kaylin, but I can't imagine just having one child. I sound real selfish and non appreciative i'm sure...but that's me i guess.
I'm only 23, I don't want a frickin' hysterectomy! My mom had one... I'm so nervous.
I'll try to keep positive thoughts. I'm usually real good at going with the flow with whatever is thrown my way, but after going through this already, i'm finding it getting much more difficult to just "GO WITH IT".
Again thanks for your replies.
Stac
I don't want to do the LEEP again, that hurt. It wasn't so bad until the end, i almost threw up and had the worst cramps ever that lasted most of the day.
The only thing that got me through it without too much fuss was thinking "all i gotta do is do this one time and it'll be done..."
Well not like that is it??
I want another baby so bad, not now of course, but yea I wanted AT LEAST one more kid.
I am blessed to have kaylin, but I can't imagine just having one child. I sound real selfish and non appreciative i'm sure...but that's me i guess.
I'm only 23, I don't want a frickin' hysterectomy! My mom had one... I'm so nervous.
I'll try to keep positive thoughts. I'm usually real good at going with the flow with whatever is thrown my way, but after going through this already, i'm finding it getting much more difficult to just "GO WITH IT".
Again thanks for your replies.
Stac
stacey............
i will be praying so hard for you.
i know your scared and i would be to ...........
i love you and if i can help in anyway i will.................
thumper
i will be praying so hard for you.
i know your scared and i would be to ...........
i love you and if i can help in anyway i will.................
thumper
Im real sorry youre going through this. I wish I could say something wise or profound but I dont know to say.--- Just that Im sorry. I hope everything works out for you and turns whatever negative feelings youre having into something positive--good luck--fire
Stace....whatever you do...don't have that hysterectomy!! Do whatever you must of course to stop those cells dead in there tracks but hysterectomy at your age should be the absolute last resort...it should be a matter of life or death!
Life changes so drastically....you are only in your early 20's...10 years from now things will be so much different for you....you must be at least be able to have the option of childbirth.
When my son was born I was 21....both pregnancies were fine but childbirth..noway...some women just aren't built for it...that was me...my hips are way to narrow to allow a baby to go through the birth canal...so 2 C sections and 2 kids....while the doctor delivered my son he also did a tubal...back in the day when a tubal was a tubal!
Cut to 10+ years later when things change...after many exploratory surgeries and 2 attempts at invitro fertilization....,heartbreak! However....this is so weird...god did give us Kearra.
Your health comes first for sure..but don't let anyone talk you into the "big sweep"...unless all other options have been exhausted!
Sorry you have to go through this hon...but you will come out of it ok...you always do!!!
Life changes so drastically....you are only in your early 20's...10 years from now things will be so much different for you....you must be at least be able to have the option of childbirth.
When my son was born I was 21....both pregnancies were fine but childbirth..noway...some women just aren't built for it...that was me...my hips are way to narrow to allow a baby to go through the birth canal...so 2 C sections and 2 kids....while the doctor delivered my son he also did a tubal...back in the day when a tubal was a tubal!
Cut to 10+ years later when things change...after many exploratory surgeries and 2 attempts at invitro fertilization....,heartbreak! However....this is so weird...god did give us Kearra.
Your health comes first for sure..but don't let anyone talk you into the "big sweep"...unless all other options have been exhausted!
Sorry you have to go through this hon...but you will come out of it ok...you always do!!!
Thanks ya'll. Really i can't stop thinking about it.
One of my quirks... worrying about crap i can't change...
Keekee , i should send you a picture of me pre-pregnancy. I was 105lbs and you couldn't pinch a single bit of ANYTHING from my stomach it was so flat. I was a stick...
When I got pregnant i thought for sure I wouldn't have a big baby cause there was no way i could hold one, well... kaylin was 8 and a half pounds, and I pushed her out within 30 minutes. My hips are very much so spread now to say the least...lol.
The hysterectomy is only if it can't be gotten without surgery, and so far it hasn't... I talked to my sister and she's of course giving me the whole "well this is up to God and it may be that you weren't supposed to have more than just one child cause something would have been wrong with your next one..or blah blah blah, just give it to God"....
I blurted out "i'm not buying that crap"
I can't help but to feel like that.
Thanks everyone, and thumps thanks for your prayers. They couldn't hurt.
Stac
One of my quirks... worrying about crap i can't change...
Keekee , i should send you a picture of me pre-pregnancy. I was 105lbs and you couldn't pinch a single bit of ANYTHING from my stomach it was so flat. I was a stick...
When I got pregnant i thought for sure I wouldn't have a big baby cause there was no way i could hold one, well... kaylin was 8 and a half pounds, and I pushed her out within 30 minutes. My hips are very much so spread now to say the least...lol.
The hysterectomy is only if it can't be gotten without surgery, and so far it hasn't... I talked to my sister and she's of course giving me the whole "well this is up to God and it may be that you weren't supposed to have more than just one child cause something would have been wrong with your next one..or blah blah blah, just give it to God"....
I blurted out "i'm not buying that crap"
I can't help but to feel like that.
Thanks everyone, and thumps thanks for your prayers. They couldn't hurt.
Stac
Hey Hun, I just read your 1st post, and nothing else, so if I repeat what has been said, please excuse me. I am very sorry!!! This shouldn't be happening to someone your age!!
I do know that pray can work wonders, that and determination and strength will carry you a long way.
I went for many years being told I would never have another child, and after losing several began to believe it. Here I sit today with two! It took me 14 years in between the two of them to make it happen, but it finally did. I think it will for you, too. Just keep the faith!
I know it's very hard not to worry. I have been told to set aside a block of time to worry. Allow yourself to do so only during that time, then let it go for the rest of the day. Doesn't sound easy to me, but you could try. I will keep you in my prayers!
It's 2007, and time to plan our meeting!! I'm thinking towards the end of the month. How about you?
Carol,
you wanna shoot for sometime the last weekend of Jan? I don't have anything on my calender then yet, so I can go ahead and plan for it unless something dire comes up...
Let me know, and thanks to everyone for being there to listen to me whine.
Love
stac
you wanna shoot for sometime the last weekend of Jan? I don't have anything on my calender then yet, so I can go ahead and plan for it unless something dire comes up...
Let me know, and thanks to everyone for being there to listen to me whine.
Love
stac
Stacey,
Please TRY to keep in mind that at least this is a problem that can be fixed. It is frustrating though that you already had this procedure done once. Did they ever talk about getting reinfected with hpv. Men are often carriers with no symptoms. Was your husband treated when you were diagnosed? If not, he needs to be so you dont keep passing this back and forth. Try not to worry about the child bearing part now. Get this problem behind you first and work from there. I will pray that you have the best outcome possible on this and that you stay on this terrific path you are on now. Youve got that precious beautiful little girl and she may or may not need a sibling but she certainly needs you - a healthy you.
Please TRY to keep in mind that at least this is a problem that can be fixed. It is frustrating though that you already had this procedure done once. Did they ever talk about getting reinfected with hpv. Men are often carriers with no symptoms. Was your husband treated when you were diagnosed? If not, he needs to be so you dont keep passing this back and forth. Try not to worry about the child bearing part now. Get this problem behind you first and work from there. I will pray that you have the best outcome possible on this and that you stay on this terrific path you are on now. Youve got that precious beautiful little girl and she may or may not need a sibling but she certainly needs you - a healthy you.
Stacey
Am i reading this right..you were diagnosed with HPV which is Human papilloma Virus?? ( form of warts)
There is a real push right now on these common form of warts, because they DO consider them pre cancerous...and in fact have come out with a recent vaccine that is realluy being promoted here in Canada.
Not to by any means take away the seriousness of this, but if what you are talking about is the HPV i mention above...i would DEFINATELY get a 2nd and even 3rd opinion about it...
Is your Gynie young and relatively new to medicine or is he/she a veteran?
Attitudes towards HPV will vary depending on education and time/years exposed to dealing with the HPV////
If im wrong and this is not the same...a thousand apologies...
Hugs
Ali
Am i reading this right..you were diagnosed with HPV which is Human papilloma Virus?? ( form of warts)
There is a real push right now on these common form of warts, because they DO consider them pre cancerous...and in fact have come out with a recent vaccine that is realluy being promoted here in Canada.
Not to by any means take away the seriousness of this, but if what you are talking about is the HPV i mention above...i would DEFINATELY get a 2nd and even 3rd opinion about it...
Is your Gynie young and relatively new to medicine or is he/she a veteran?
Attitudes towards HPV will vary depending on education and time/years exposed to dealing with the HPV////
If im wrong and this is not the same...a thousand apologies...
Hugs
Ali
There are many different strains of HPV and thank god i don't have the ones that cause warts! Mine just causes cancer!! ho hum.
Yes my husband passed it to me, How would he be treated for it? I thought there was no treatment. Anyways, i talked to a lot of people about it and I have an appt. real early monday so we'll see what type of procedure i'm going to have to go through now.
Stac
Yes my husband passed it to me, How would he be treated for it? I thought there was no treatment. Anyways, i talked to a lot of people about it and I have an appt. real early monday so we'll see what type of procedure i'm going to have to go through now.
Stac
I just wanted to add that my daughter had this as well...only giving birth did it get worse and she had the same procedure you had...that was 5 years ago...and she also has had a bad test again. It is the male that generally carries it with no symptoms.
Saying a prayer for you...that just sucks!!!
Saying a prayer for you...that just sucks!!!
Isn't there a vaccine for HPV now? All young girls should get one.
I'm so sorry Stacey. I don't know anything about what you're going through except that you must be scared and I hate that for you.
Big hugs....best I can do right now.
Lisa
I'm so sorry Stacey. I don't know anything about what you're going through except that you must be scared and I hate that for you.
Big hugs....best I can do right now.
Lisa
