Hi to who-ever reads this i,m hoping just writing its gonna help in some way been on subutex for a week now and i cant tell you how much its changing me already i mean i know never to say never as i,ve tried and failed many times 5 yrs of pure saddnes for everyone involved and in the end that wasn't many people ive had the usual experiences with the drug life and if i can be of any help or support to anyone it would be my pleasure they say theres a new world out theyre waiting on us well i'm having some of it and it seems just fine to me
too right there is a new world mate....living the clean life is not always easy, but it is 1,000,000,000,000 times better than being on drugs. Well done on your clean time. Glad the subbies are helping you, Keep it up, Kev
Well another day another pat on the back, cheers for the replie dee4life took me 8 months this time of visiting my drug worker every week before i got my script central scotland is a brutal place to get help doctors dont want to know and the waiting lists for community recovery is like well 8 months says it all but i swear by these subutex they totally take the pain the craving the lot away and you just feel so awake alive no side effects ie sweats and insomnia and so on i used to get if i took meth i truelly hope this is it this time cos i swear ive lost everything several times over and its only a couple of true friends who still talk to me just got to keep busy tomorrow will be a hard one as its giro day i'll have to be on the ball ,i think owning up to your problem is the most important part people who matter will be able to help that bit better even though you feel they dont know what its like if they haven't been through it they will still know your trying to help yourself if they run the other way well dont blame them the ones that matter will help and i swear it will humble you and give you strength all at once you must want to do it and if you fail trying it aint the end of the world try again you'll know deep down when it's your time to stop i,m praying it stays mine ....peace and love to everyone fighting the fight
Well benefits didnt come so that solved my worry of messing up lol damn the scottish government or are they really helping me ? anyway had my subbies sun is shining weather is sweet makes me wanna move my dancing shoes lol bit of finley quay just jumped into my space take care e/one keep fighting the fight every day shows a differance in you inside and out ,peace out y,all
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Yeah, keep fighting the good fight mate. Where you form, i'm fron Dundee
Hi pal i'm fighting real hard righ t now i'm from sunny falkirk the armpit of scotland hope everything is going well in your world its coming up to summer it would be grest to be cleanfor the first time in years peace out everyone
Hey dude, how r you doing? please hang in there because I am a lotta days behind you and if i know you're still going strong maybe i'll be able to get there 2!
17 days and still going strong the subutex is defo my saving grace and the fact that i dropped all my so called mates ,hey would never pass any of them in the street but all that hanging around bored looking for ways to relieve it just makes it to easy to say what the fu+k ,shout out to dee ,X, Jim s ,keep fighting the fight ....PEACE OUT!!!!!!!
Alright mate Yeah the weather is picking up, eh The sun was out today up here....get in there. Yeah you'll have a ball being clean in the summer...
woke up this morning with the sun in my eyes
it got me thinking of summers gone by
can't wait til this one happy days in the park
the future's bright no longer in the dark
summer feelings running round in my head
summer feelings can't get them out my head!!!!!!!
woke up this morning with the sun in my eyes
it got me thinking of summers gone by
can't wait til this one happy days in the park
the future's bright no longer in the dark
summer feelings running round in my head
summer feelings can't get them out my head!!!!!!!
He St pauli. I'm bemartha from the PP board. I just wanted to congradulate you on your clean time. I also am on Suboxone. Its almost the same as yours but w/o the one ingredient. Dont know how to spell it. ha. I have been clean from pp run since dec 2, 08. I started right on sub. I totally understand what you mean when you say you finally feel normal. With the sub, I feel I can get and did get on with my life. I wasted more time searching for the dang pills than actually getting high it seems like when I look back at it. My doctor is watching me very closely. I began my tapering already. Its going ok, pretty smooth. I have a really good doc that prescribes me my sub and we can talk forever if I let him. He wants to know my every move, ha. But I'm ok with it. I feel like me again. I almost forgot how that felt. Its been a long time. 3 solid years of putting that poison in my body. I just wanted to say Hi and that you're doing an awesome job. Keep up the good work! Let that sunshine shine!!!
Hi beautifull people , gosh to think i've spent the last 20 yrs of my adult life living like some kind of noctornal vampire looking for that amazing high , how stupid , how sad!, this last week i've been staying with a girl that was a gift from god 6 yrs ago and we produced the most beautiful daughter who's 5 now , and i swear the last few days its been early nights and getting up getting my daughter ready for school and walking her they're having a goofy time holding her little hand and bang simple theres the high that beats any drug to think i once lost that for the poison when really being straight and enjoying the simple things will be this kiddies drug of choice now . I truelly hope that anyone reading this finds the happiness that i'm feeling right now ..PEACE OUT!!!!... And to all you people out there fighting the fight keep at it and if you slip and hit the canvas just pick yourself up and start fighting again please DON'T beat yourself up god loves a tryer.... remember keep smiling and the world will smile back at you
3 weeks? or 21 days don't know which sounds best but i have to say they've been the proudest days i've had in the last 4 years. Still really taking it one day at a time as i know how easy it would be to mess up as i've proved i'm a master when it comes to meesing up.I suppose thats why the subutex works for me as i must take it in front of my pharmacist and with it in my system it would be a pure waste of time buying or taking H as i would be aswell setting my money alight as the blocker in the subutex stops me from getting any kind of high. This was the main reason meth never helped me come of the H as i could get a buzz from both it only helped to stop me hurting when i couldn't score for whatever reason. I know its horses for courses so to speak but my advice to anyone traelly wishing to get of H would be to speak to your drug worker or doctor and try and work at a plan for getting on subutex .I hope i don't sound like i'm blowing my own trumpet but i wish some of you good people out there looking for the answer could feel the feeling of wellbeing i feel at present, it's so good to have people telling you how much better you look anyway suppose i'm rambling now so PEACE OUT!!!!! everyone, keep fighting the fight everyday its a little easier and the smile on your face will broaden ...paul
congrats mate on 21days to normal would not seem like anything but to a fellow user it's massive it really is. so once again well done just imagine if you feel this good now what will you feel like in 3 months or 6 months. the worst decision i ever made was going on methadone as it allows me to use and not feel the rattles till i score again. I done it onthe sub's as well a few years ago now and i was clean for over 18months. i remember that feeling of pride and well being and just the enjoyment of each new day and each new encounter that life would throw at you. when your an addict you don't have time to notice the simple thaings as your life revolves around chasing using then chasing again so enjoy it and stay strong if yo feel your faultering with your strenghth and resolve get on contact with your key worke like i wish i had done as i relapsed and noe i'm tring to stop using on top of my 100mls methadone
well done your an ispiration to us all
keep us posted
moc247
well done your an ispiration to us all
keep us posted
moc247
Nice one Paul.....keep yer positive frame of mind intact and the weeks will runaway.Yer doin all the right things so you should be proud........take care mate.....Davey
Hi folks cheers for the words of encouragement still fighting hard and i suppose i always will be i'm under no illusion that the finish line will be in sight for a long time yet but hey coming on here and either reading your mad thoughts or predicaments(you know who you are) helps me and if i can pat someones back or give them my thoughts it all helps. I was at a good friend and workmates funeral yesterday god bless him 52 yrs young and had to come face to face with alot of my old workmates from over the yrs i dont know if it was just my paranoia or just the mood of the whole day but it was hard in more ways than one but i suppose these are the hurdles that lie infront of me now sent to make me stronger .I guess i'm actually lucky iv'e been through what iv'e been through and came out the other side because i hate to think well actually hates a bit strong a word as i still remember fondly the good friends i've lost to drugs god bless them all i'm rambling now so i'm off to d/load some more tasty tunes to make up for all the ones i sold to feed that wretched habit i once had oh the things i sold lol ......PEACE OUT!!!!....thinkin about renaming myself 'the rambler' lmfcro
Alrite Paul....dont worry bout the ramblin,i hold me hand up to that.....but at least yer not called the SLUMLORD which is yer fellow Scots slang name i.e Eckie ,give the f***er a flat and now he thinks hes Donald Trump the poor deluded Rangers fan he is......UP THE HOOPS!!!!!!.......Davey
Coming up to the month now and still feeling fine had to switch chemists as the one i was using shuts at 5:30 and i'm gonna try and get back to work so i'm at tesco's now which is open until 8pm don't know how ruff it's going to be getting a job mind you in todays job market and with most of my previous employers knowing what i was, but anyway god loves a tryer i think i'm going to do voluntary work as one of my old drug workers asked me if i would mind visiting people in hospitals who dont get visitors or pushing trolleys around and hey i'm a yap at the best of times so yeh i'm up for some of that, its not the construction buisness i'm used to but it'll keep me busy when my kids at school and my womans at work, thats when i struggle the most like i didn't mind laying about when i was using but now it's like i'm happier when i'm busy thats why i havent been on for a few days been getting ran ragged by my kids lmfco anyway another ramble from the rambler , i read all your threads and wow it's amazing how you'se are all helping each other keep fighting the fight everyone PEACE OUT!!!! paul
St. Pauli, I just stumbled across this site a couple days ago and it seems like a fantastic way for recovering addicts to communicate. Read only a few posts and take it a lot people using this site are from across the pond (Europe). I'm from the west coast of Canada and never heard of Subutex. Can you enlighten me? I know a lot of people here who would like an alternative to methadone. Mike.
Hi mike quite suprised you haven't heard of them but hey there you go , basically mate you get subutex which is basically a pain killer (buprenorphine hydrochloride) and what this does (in laymans terms lol) is kinda attaches itself to the receptors in your brain and whilst taking the pain of w/drawel away they magically stop the craving in my case for heroin, now you might have heard of suboxone the same painkiller as before ie buppys but it also has a blocker attached to it ie nalaxone what this does basically what it says blocks the hit you would have got from say heroin whilst at the same time sending you into precipitated w/drawel (nasty) anyway some people get on great with suboxone some people with subutex all i know is i was taking heroin and scoring methadone on the streets and my life was yang i was a differant person but since starting subutex my life has almost totally changed for the better no cravings, no using, none of the sweats i used to get with methadone and a whole new lease of life basically feeling normal again like i did before heroin i've got that get up and go about me again where as when i was using all i would do was laze about unless i was scoring lol we are kinda lucky in this country as we have a national health service and get our meds free or for a small fee but on the other hand thats why our country's getting invaded by millions of east europeans and asians lol but thats another story anyway mate good luck in your fight hope this ramble has helped in some way ...PEACE OUT!!! paul
