Is This A Recovery Board ?

Pain Pills
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When I started posting here back in September I found some really kind caring people. I was just starting my road to recovery, and was asking alot of questions, looking for answers and so on. Others that had walked before me, shared what worked for them and offered suggestions. I took what I needed from what was posted, and started to walk my own road of recovery. With the grace of god, and the rooms of AA and NA and this board I have been able to stay clean-something that I have not been able to do for more then 20 years.

I have not posted to much to others on this board, as being new it was better for me to listen then offer advice. The times that I did offer advice, thats all it was--ADVICE--not by any means did I say that things had to be done my way. I am a smart enough man to know that we all have to find our own road to recovery, something that works for us. Only you know what will work, not me or anyone else.

After seeing what was posted to me last night by a few others that use this board, and took my words and twisted them--I see it is time for me to move on from this board. I truly believe I found this board at a time when I was at my bottom, and this board saved me--but I also believe that at this point of MY recovery, notice I said MY recovery-I need to move on. I need to go to the next step, where I can share my thoughts and not have them thrown in my face when someone feels the need to lash out-my foundation is strong--and I plan on keeping it strong.

To those that have helped me, and have become my friends in recovery-you have my email address, as I do yours.

I truly hope that this board can serve the purpose that it is supposed to--and that is to help those that want to recover--and to let other addicts share--ina setting that they need now worry about being laughed out, made fun of, and most of all--made to feel that they dont have a voice..

I wish all of you the best of luck--and hope you reach your goals.
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Very well said. Wish you all the best, no matter what you do. As it should be.
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Hey oneil slow down bud i can see yoru point actually it frustratijg to say the least but without people where will the site be we need balance, i once left because of the friction but soon relised it would be here weither i was or not so never saw the point in leaving a few good friends i have made here i just dont get into anyones face and god help those that get in mine wink lol jackie xxxxxxxxx
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O'Neill:

Thanks for the very prolific post. I am glad we are friends...

Rachel
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Mike

You know how I feel about you. You have really helped me and I'm sorry to see you go. However I know how you feel. I have only been here 2 weeks and its kept me off. The first was so great. Everyone was so nice but this last week has not been good. I have enough problem in my personal life as I'm sure you do and we don't need to add to them on this board. Mike you were an inspiration for me and I do not want to loose contact. E-mail me anytime. ( fstristar@yahoo.com )

Take care buddy

Frank
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O'Neill,
I wish you nothing but the best.....you take care of yourself, and enjoy all the life has to offer.....
Love,
Tina
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Mike, we haven't talked much, but I hate to see you go. Your Recovery Journal was inspiring and timeless. Even if you don't come back, part of you will remain with that writing and I am sure continue to help many. Take care and best of luck today and tomorrow.
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Oneill,
Lately I've been thinking of leaving this board too and for the exact same reasons that you said.
You know, maybe you should just stick around and try to ignore things. I read things and can totally see where your coming from.
You have NEVER tried to push anything at anyone, you have never said it had to be done your way. Alot of people on here, including myself would benefit greatly if you would stay.
You've come a long way Mike, and I admire you very much. You're way ahead of people on here, I mean people with lots more clean time than you because you don't cut people down, throw things in their faces, and generally make them feel like crap about themselves which is what some people on here do. Maybe they think that just because they haven't used in awhile they are superior or something, I don't know. Or maybe it pleases them that others either don't have as much clean time or are having trouble getting clean, that way they feel that others won't catch up or anything like that. Lets face it, some on here are jerks.
I wish you'd reconsider, because you have way more friends on here than not. And like I said, I for one, really look up to you and what you have accomplished. And it is a huge accomplishment. In one of my posts in the last day or so, I mentioned you and I wish you'd read it. I think its under my thoughts or something, it was posted either yesterday or the day before, I think yesterday. Read it, will you? Roe
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Hey roe ((((hugs))) jackie xx
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People are dropping like flies around here. Come on guys, lets all work together to help each other. Mike, don't book out. A lot of new comers look up to you as do I. Stick around bud. People need and value your advice.
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Oneil
I have been where you are, I think alot of us have. So I get it. If this is what you have to do for yourself than I understand, but I have to let you know how inspiring some of your posts have been for me. You truly seem to be an honest and caring person that has alot to offer. I think you may find that by staying here and trying to help others, it will help you as well. I know it does for me and I am by no means an expert on recovery, I have 6 weeks clean from my DOC, so I still have a long way to go, the rest of my life actually. But I can listen or try to understand someone else and that helps me big time with my own recovery.

This board can be a joke, we all know that, but it is what we make it. If you leave, this board is less one honest man.

Redd
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Jacky,
Hugs right back at ya girl. How are you? Your so sweet, I was just about to log off and saw your hug and now I'm gonna log off happier. Thank you.
Love,
Roe
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It is days like this(so far) that make one want to be here. However.........seems the good always gets ruined by someone. I rarely come here anymore, and the reasons have already been plainly stated above. I have come to this board and gotten more days ruined than i care to think about. I for one, don't need that in my life. I simply cannot deal with people who cannot treat others with a genuine attempt at kindness and understanding. Personally I just want to stomp the s*** out of them, and since i can't do that I live the day in frustration. I simply have better things to do with my life than let some aho get to me and ruin my day. There is plenty of good here, much to benefit from. Some of us just aren't as tolerant of the bad as others have the ability to be. It is definitely a shame to see usually the best of people are the ones who end up wanting to leave here. Anyone who really cares knows that the more you care, the more open you are to being hurt.............
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O'Neil this is your post yesterday that caused you all of the trouble,I couldnt help but see that Bob posts straight under yours praising you for this being your best post ever,but as soon as you got into some trouble over it,Bob soon deserted the ship.

Liz,
I have never been to rehab, so I cant share much--I can tell you that a friend of mine, a women friend has been to rehab, and yes they did do a full body search--and you know what--she did have pills on her. She had been to a few rehabs and new all the tricks.

I am not looking for any feedback here, but I can tell you--that for me If I went to rehab, I would not object to anything they wanted to do--I am going there because I need to get clean, and as a addict--I know that I would try to smuggle something in.

I am sorry that the place you went did not work for you and I hope you can find something that does. I could share some more advice, but seeing how this board has become more of a place for people to vent about how they cant seem to get clean, and are looking for a softer, easier way to do it--I will just say that getting clean is not a joke, it is alot of hard work--I have to fight every day for what I have, but at the end of each day---I am proud that I did.

Again, I am not looking for any feedback, wise remarks, or rude comments--this is just my thought--take it for what it is worth.
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Bob Posted: February 20, 2005, 12:00 AM



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Joined: February 14, 2004



Hi,
Oneil, that was the best post I've seen from you in quite sometime. I'll probably get it, hope not, just wanted to say nice share.
Take care........................................God bless....................................Bob


Well Bob whats this,one minute you are praising O'Neil for his posts and then you desert him when he gets some flak from Liz and you seem to support Liz in what she said to O'Neil, after praising O'Neil for his posts.
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Danny you are most certainly right.....people do seem to be dropping like flies.....
I have noticed a few have been MIA, myself included some days. I just don't have the energy to fight through the things that upset me and find where I can be able to help......but I am pushing forward and trying to find the good, cause it is there maybe not everywhere we look, but it is there!
And Major......yes those hearts that care the most usually tend to be the ones most hurt......would never want to be a without a caring heart, oh how jaded we could become...........
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Oh and Phantom...Oniell post was fine but you better read that response again.....because I did see it as being very nice......
I'll probably get it, hope not.......really threw me off.......

Hope you are well today and that life is treating you real good!
Love,
Tina
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phantom,

it appears oniell is leaving for just the very thing you are doing. so much for me tryen to talk him back.

oniell,

hey you know how i feel about what your recovery has done for many here and if somehow i can help you along the way you can email me. i am sad to see you go. maybe you'll pay us a visit from time to time, my email naturesprincess@yahoo.com

terrianne
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mike, you are an insparation...
I do feel the same as you, there is just too much animosity around here.
Nice to see you posting, Misty!
Kerry
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Im sorry that you see my post that way,I too saw nothing wrong with O'Neils post,I was more disgusted with the way Bob seemed to think O'Neils post was one of his best and then when the pressure went on O'Neil,Bob seemed to just forget about him and the way he thought O'Neils post was so good,yeah I think I better get out of here too,before I go,I saw a post from Bob about how there were some people here when he first got here and now they have moved on,well Bob I really think its about time you moved on too,your recovery is just too much for most of the people here and just about any time there is trouble here,it is when you are involved,what does that tell you,it tells me that you have been here too long.
Goodbye all,keep strong in YOUR way of recovery.
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Mike I dont post to much on here,, but I felt like I had to this time, You have posted to me a few times when I needed help and I have to say that you have helped me with your post.. I know that there has been alot of drama on here lately but I know that, that can happen when people are stressed etc. it does not make it right but it happens. One thing you said and I have also heard this before you take what you need and leave the rest. This is so true, and this is what I do. I hate it that people are leaving this board, I have only been here for a few weeks, and I have really been helped by you and all the others, I guess what I am trying to say is, I wish you would reconsider, you are needed on here, by me and by others I am sure. It takes different people with different view points to post, because their are different people with different needs. But if you really feel like this is the best thing for you I will really miss your posts.

How much like a patchwork quilt we are,
Some of us are bright and gay.
Some are quieter, more delicate and subdued;
Yet how well we blend together.
The quieter ones set off the colorful.
The brighter ones accentuate the pastels.
Often the more fragile pieces hold the sturdy ones together.
Blessed we are to be varied.
All of us are stitched with love and tied to one another.