Just Tired

I'm a newcomer to the site and i've been a smoker for many years and every day.I'm really want to quit, but I had no idea that it would be as hard as it is. I know it can be done. I know that things would be better if I did. I sat here and read some old posts, there's alot of suggestions that I haven't tried. The reason I'm here is that I had 33 days clean, and I took my annual vacation, anyways, I relapsed. I had started getting involved with a group of other addicts. Most are/were pot heads some are/were not. I feel guilty for not being honest enough to come out with it. I don't know why I havent said anything. Its not like they are going to put me in jail or anything. I know that I need to tell them to help my recovery. Maybe that's why I'm here also, I felt like I needed to tell somebodies my situation. I'm not real sure, thanks for the feedback.

dgw1
hi and welcome- this place can help you, good you posted.
how old are you? how long have you been smoking every day?
-jojo jones
You can definetely quit, lots of people do.
congrats on being honest. and hey life off drugs sucks too. haha.
(but gets better)
welcome, keep posting, you can be honest with your face to face friends when you feel stronger.
>I know that things would be better if I did.

that's what it is all about to me, no matter what else I go through. Sometimes those little voices call, asking for relief. Hopefully my mind is prepared when they come.
<... I feel guilty for not being honest enough to come out with it.>

Staying clean, in my opinion, requires working a program of rigorous honesty. If you decide that getting high is not an option, your true friends will understand. Remember it is the first joint that gets you high, just like an alcoholic can't socially drink, a recovering pothead can't socially smoke. Often we slip long before we actually take that first hit. Try to reconize the thinking paterns that leads towards getting high.

Try to know your triggers, whether they be people, or places or things.

Thanks for sharing!
jojo, I dont think it is!
It was way to nice.
ha jamv- you make me LOL!!!
let's beware just in case:) jo
I am not afraid, I can take him! haahahahahah
I think its him to!

August, please feel free to come back & join us anytime! It would be wonderful to see you around again, helping people as I know you are drawn to doing. We are trying still to make you proud & this time its working, though I know nothing would make you happier then hearing we were workin the steps. I wish just knowing we are clean could be enough for you. If it is you, just know that you have been missed. Wishing you a Warm Christmas & Lots of Love!
AEA
what aea said.
just call me nancy drew....
ok nancy drew...

so was it Col. Mustard in the kitchen, with the candlestick?

lol, next mystery
or.... i could be mr. green in the billard room with the knife BUT methinks it is august west in the library with the bigbook! :)
okay girls (and boys) if you read nancy drew...

what were her 2 best friends names?

what was her father's name?

what about her mother?

what kind of car did she drive?

what was her fella's name?

i haven't thought about her in ages, i adored her. i read everybook:)
she was such a sleuth!
anybody got any nancy drew trivia jump in????


I LOVED Nancy Drew, her friends were George Fayne and her cousin Bess Marvin and then there was Ned.....

Carson Drew was her dad.....

I have in my hand the Mystery at the Moss-Covered Mansion.....copyright 1941 !!!!.

I also have quite the collection, JoJo. The Mystery of the Ivory Charm, The whispering Statue, The clue of the leaning chimney, the ghost of blackwood hall,The Double Jinx Mystery, Mystery of the brass Bound trunk.....etc. LOL

Funny that you mentioned this. Over the weekend, it crossed my mind to bring this particular book along to read at my moms for some childhood Christmas memories.....:-) I was going to ask her if it was her copy, because mine are copywritten in the sixties.

The late nights, under the blanket with a flashlight....reading non-stop, nailbiting mysteries......:-)

What a precious memory. Thanks for bringing this up. Apparently I'm not the only psychic in the group.....LOL



August West was the very first person to respond to me when I joined in Nov 2004. Sounded like a straightshooter with wisdom.

I read something else......

*******We try so hard to get people to go to the meetings**********

Personally speaking, anyone trying to "get" me to go to "the meetings" raises a red flag.

What kind of "meeting" has an agenda like that ? Reminds me of cult behaviour. Call me paranoid.....

Of course I mean no disrespect to anyone in ANY type of recovery. Whatever floats yer boat.
wow ww i'm so impressed and awed! i had forgotten george's last name you are good you are! her mother was dead, right? like all the disney princess mommies lol.
wasn't she the best, smartest and ned???
she drove a new roadster is that right? that her lawyer father 'carson drew' got her.
what was the housekeepers name it's on the tip of my tongue.... if i think.....hmmmmm

wow the best and i used to read them under the covers too. lights out with a flashlight, couldn't put them down. now i want to read one. next time i'm at my mother's house i'll bring one back here. the bunglalow mystery was my fav. was that the name.....?
i had the joy of reading my best friend's older sister's old copies so they were def. first additions. i wonder if she still has them.... together we read them all. ha. wonderful memories. that's what i was doing when the other thing started .... i still have to write to you about that. but i was reading nancy drew at the time.

and yes it seems we all have a bit of pyschic or sleuth in us. we may be 'pot-heads' but we aren't stupid:)

ah i'm laughing.... where is jamv? i wonder if aea read nancy drew? hippie? betcha not. hardcharger no way ha.
hardy boys....

-jo
I'm a Tom and Frank Hardy man myself

mmm, now everyone admits to being a pothead
ROFL I'm not THAT good, I said I have the book in my hand..... the first page gives me the information...LMAO. All I remembered off the top of my head was her best friend was named George. Which reminds me....

A few years back the school system or maybe it was a parent.... was attempting to ban these books....apparently Miss Drew had too much freedom and a neglectful father.....oh and George and her were obviously lesbians !!!! LOL SCANDALOUS!!!!

Some people sure can suck the fun outta life. "-)

Only if you let 'em, of course.