So I am currently trying to get off of heroin and i cant seem to do it this time. I am currently 21 years old but ive been dealing with this addiction since i was 15. i was first addicted to oxy contin for most of it, but because its gone now, i turned to heroin about a year ago. Ive gotten clean about 8 or so times, but it never seems to last. the longest ive been sober was 8 months. i am a fully functioning addict, i have my own apartment, a job as a tutor (horrible i know), and im going to school to be a pediatrcian. my parents knew about my addiction to oxy contin, but ehere the parents who dont want to think anything is wrong, wrere not that close and there having a lot of serious problems with my little sister. The only people who know are my 2 closest friends, and they hate me for it. They are the only people i have to talk to about it, and they dont understand at all bcuz theyve never done it. They are both threatneing me to not talk to me anymore if i dont stop and that really scares me, i dont want to be alone. but i cant seem to get off it, i dont even know why. im usually okay by myself but for some reason im not this time. how do i do this>>! all that i think about is herion, ni was just recently clean for 3 whole days! and then y relapsed! i dont know y and i hate yself for it and now my friends to do. ;( what should i do?
hey steph,
im sorry to hear that you cant get off herion for long and that ur friends are threatening u, i dont know what it is like being an addict, but my partner was addicted to herion for 12 years and so i know how ur friends feel. it does take alot of strength to get clean and stay clean, maybe ur not ready yet and i know u dont want to be alone but you should look for some proffessional help, its really gd, try and go to an N/A meeting they are really gd and have helped alot of people plus if u really want to be clean you should go and see ur doctor and discuss the various ways you can get clean coz there are alot of options and there is plenty of support out there, plus if it wasnt for proffessionals and peoples support my partner wouldnt be where he is 2day..
i hope you find what u are looking for and keep posting
im sorry to hear that you cant get off herion for long and that ur friends are threatening u, i dont know what it is like being an addict, but my partner was addicted to herion for 12 years and so i know how ur friends feel. it does take alot of strength to get clean and stay clean, maybe ur not ready yet and i know u dont want to be alone but you should look for some proffessional help, its really gd, try and go to an N/A meeting they are really gd and have helped alot of people plus if u really want to be clean you should go and see ur doctor and discuss the various ways you can get clean coz there are alot of options and there is plenty of support out there, plus if it wasnt for proffessionals and peoples support my partner wouldnt be where he is 2day..
i hope you find what u are looking for and keep posting
Hi Steph,
Please know I am sorry as well for what you're going through. Also been there so I get it.
Steph, your friends? Hey, people just don't understand. No doubt they do love you and care for you and their threats are in their own minds a way of getting you to stop.
If they only knew.
Right now you have to worry about YOU. It helps immensely to have support and if they can't see you sure as he*l didn't wake up and choose to be a heroin addict it may help.
Yes, going it alone is really tough. Been there and done that as well. Are you open to Narcotics Annonymous? Or can you seek help at rehab? I see you are extremely busy so maybe outpatient?
THREE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! Killer. Always was my downfall. Here's a secret a lifer told me. Everytime you pick up the addiction gets a stronger hold. You feed the beast it gets stronger. You pick up on Day 3 the next time you try and kick it will beg for ya to pick up on Day 2 if that makes sense.
The important part is you want help. You have a good life you may lose in more ways than one if you don't get help. It's a big step to ask for help.
YES YES YES YES you can kick and stay clean. Alot of us have done it. Not on our eighth try most of us, but we did it. So there is hope.
Oh parents? Naw, they don't want to ever think their children are addicts. Seen that as well. My mom used to call it my "little problem" as in "Your sister has a little problem". I remember one time screaming "It's not a little problem, Ma I'm a freakin heroin addict".
There's no shame in asking for help. Again I am sorry about your friends, but I think if you went to your family again and explained exactly where you are and how ya feel and don't feel they will help you help yourself.
Stay safe, Steph.
Please know I am sorry as well for what you're going through. Also been there so I get it.
Steph, your friends? Hey, people just don't understand. No doubt they do love you and care for you and their threats are in their own minds a way of getting you to stop.
If they only knew.
Right now you have to worry about YOU. It helps immensely to have support and if they can't see you sure as he*l didn't wake up and choose to be a heroin addict it may help.
Yes, going it alone is really tough. Been there and done that as well. Are you open to Narcotics Annonymous? Or can you seek help at rehab? I see you are extremely busy so maybe outpatient?
THREE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! Killer. Always was my downfall. Here's a secret a lifer told me. Everytime you pick up the addiction gets a stronger hold. You feed the beast it gets stronger. You pick up on Day 3 the next time you try and kick it will beg for ya to pick up on Day 2 if that makes sense.
The important part is you want help. You have a good life you may lose in more ways than one if you don't get help. It's a big step to ask for help.
YES YES YES YES you can kick and stay clean. Alot of us have done it. Not on our eighth try most of us, but we did it. So there is hope.
Oh parents? Naw, they don't want to ever think their children are addicts. Seen that as well. My mom used to call it my "little problem" as in "Your sister has a little problem". I remember one time screaming "It's not a little problem, Ma I'm a freakin heroin addict".
There's no shame in asking for help. Again I am sorry about your friends, but I think if you went to your family again and explained exactly where you are and how ya feel and don't feel they will help you help yourself.
Stay safe, Steph.
..You got something to think about with what Brynda and Chazza said but also i would ask you to think about your career choice, wether its gonna be Heroin or Pediatrics. do you think your gonna be able to work with babies and infants steph with all the safety precedures that are in place for children nowadays, your gonna have to have a Criminal Records Check, Drug Tests and a Mental Health Assessment at the very least before you can start working with kids, i know this is all in the future but you need to think about this now, because you need to be able to regain your strength and peace of mind away from Heroin before you should even consider doing such an intense course like pediatrics.. "3 Whole Days" off gear is a start but you need to able to stay clean at least 3 months before you start to regain some strength and normality back in your life to move forward..you really need to go and try see a an addiction specialist and tell them about your present situation and your future plans and try get some advice about a support/care plan. you could go see a doctor also but he/she may put you on a heroin substitute with no end in sight..im in England and if an addict goes to see a doctor about their addiction the doctor refers the addict on to an addiction specialist/treatment centre rather than assess the person themselve. because the majority doctors in the past had a knack of just prescribing and maintaining treatment for addicts and people were on methadone/subs for many a moon..
More time than most an addict has to reach their bottom and you may be reaching yours if you haven't already..what other support have you got now your friends are on the verge of dropping you out ?. how are you gonna maintain a home and job if you are using heroin everyday ?.i know how hard it is to stay off Heroin, i must of tried to stay off heroin a gazillion times in the past, i've been off heroin 8mths now and i am on suboxone as part of my treatment. i am also doing a level 2 course in Mental Health and Addiction and since i started doing this course last November, so it can be done believe me, i haven't looked back or thought about Heroin in any way other than what a waste my life was being addicited to it..im 43 and i wasted yeeaarrs trying to get off that s***, the more that stuff brings you down the longer it will take you to pick yourself up, don't be afraid to ask for help from ya local services, friends come and go (i dont mean to sound orrible but they do) and your make new friends along the way in life, you should try to concentrate on getting yourself some support and advice about how your gonna move forward and try to knock the gear on the head and maybe how you can access some support groups ie: Abstinence Support and Relapse Prevention, Money Management and stuff like that. there are people and places out their that will help you but the only way your gonna get through it is you have to 'Help Yourself' to engage with support and then stay in recovery, but you have to be Ready To Stop using Heroin, do you feel your ready ??, don't be scared of what's in front of you cos life is so much better when you come out the other side..Robbie..
..Edit.. Hey Bryn, just a quik ello and hope ya ok..
More time than most an addict has to reach their bottom and you may be reaching yours if you haven't already..what other support have you got now your friends are on the verge of dropping you out ?. how are you gonna maintain a home and job if you are using heroin everyday ?.i know how hard it is to stay off Heroin, i must of tried to stay off heroin a gazillion times in the past, i've been off heroin 8mths now and i am on suboxone as part of my treatment. i am also doing a level 2 course in Mental Health and Addiction and since i started doing this course last November, so it can be done believe me, i haven't looked back or thought about Heroin in any way other than what a waste my life was being addicited to it..im 43 and i wasted yeeaarrs trying to get off that s***, the more that stuff brings you down the longer it will take you to pick yourself up, don't be afraid to ask for help from ya local services, friends come and go (i dont mean to sound orrible but they do) and your make new friends along the way in life, you should try to concentrate on getting yourself some support and advice about how your gonna move forward and try to knock the gear on the head and maybe how you can access some support groups ie: Abstinence Support and Relapse Prevention, Money Management and stuff like that. there are people and places out their that will help you but the only way your gonna get through it is you have to 'Help Yourself' to engage with support and then stay in recovery, but you have to be Ready To Stop using Heroin, do you feel your ready ??, don't be scared of what's in front of you cos life is so much better when you come out the other side..Robbie..
..Edit.. Hey Bryn, just a quik ello and hope ya ok..
Steph, My heart goes out to you, my son was a heron addict for six years, I tried everything in the world to help him, he went through rehabs, jail living on the streets ..it all just killed me inside because me and my son were very close, I even sat with him one night as he was what he called dope sick, it broke my heart..my son reassured me that it was always his choice and I was the best mom a kid could have....he spent six months in a county jail when he got out I thought that was his bottom...no such thing....no one understands the power of heron...I spent the next three days with him and seen in his eyes the pain of staying clean, it wasn't even people places and things because he did drugs to escape life..I only wish I could of understood what in life had him so upset because as I said him and I were very very close, I was going though a bad time with his dad...anyway three days after his release he overdose and died, I found out three days letter when didn't hear from him, those three days were the worst days of my life. I knew something bad had happen because I spoke to him every day.. One day I came home from work with the police at my door.. I thought at first he was picked up again.... That would have been great news... The officer told me he was died, they found him on a wed. And did't I-D him till Friday, not bad enough he was at the morgue at the hospital I worked, at the lab which was two doors next to that morgue.....he is gone now eight years and I feel like it is yesterday and now dealing with my grandson who is a heron addict also doing state time for a bad deal in a small county who he was labeled at...anyway steph my point being never give up you sound like a smart kid and know what you want to do, but you have to be the one any only one that could want to stop, and keep your time busy and get involved in a Christian group..don't have idle time on your hands...always remember when it gets bad " let go and let God take over" Pray.. My son's bottom was death and I believe that was Gods will or his life now would have been even worst if he was alive...I know from a mom that sounds crazy but Steph. When I tell you my son died when he was 22, and I miss him every day and I feel he is with me every minute of my life, I help out at the dare program at schools trying to help young kids understand that drugs is a dead end street and kids you think are your friends. Are only friends when your doing drugs with them, when you end up dyeing from your addiction and your looking at yourself in that coffin, you will not see one friend there...only the true people that all the time were trying to help with your addiction....steph, I wish you all the luck in the world with this in my heart you remind me of my son being of such young age...I will pray for you to have the strength each and every moment you need it... If you ever need a mom to talk to feel free to post back...My Webpage
Heroin is one of the most addictive substances on the planet. Stop beating yourself up - NOW - for being unable to quit by yourself. An overwhelming majority of addicts need professional help to stop, whether that help comes in the form of group or individual counseling or synthetic medications such as methadone or suboxone.
It is scary to think about being alone and battling such a controlling addiction. It sounds like your best friends don't know much about addiction in general. What you suffer from isn't a weakness or a simple bad habit - it is a disease. You need and deserve compassionate, reliable, sympathetic support right now to help you get past this.
Start Googling methadone clinics, narcotics recovery, and other key phrases like that in your area. See what you can come up with. Help is out there. You can beat this. You can say "I am in recovery" -- and who knows, honey -- one day, you may be saving someone else's life who is sitting where you sit now.
It is scary to think about being alone and battling such a controlling addiction. It sounds like your best friends don't know much about addiction in general. What you suffer from isn't a weakness or a simple bad habit - it is a disease. You need and deserve compassionate, reliable, sympathetic support right now to help you get past this.
Start Googling methadone clinics, narcotics recovery, and other key phrases like that in your area. See what you can come up with. Help is out there. You can beat this. You can say "I am in recovery" -- and who knows, honey -- one day, you may be saving someone else's life who is sitting where you sit now.
Steph,
Sounds like you have managed to maintain pretty well while being addicted... so far. I'm sure you know that one day, if you can't manage to get clean and stay that way, it will all come crashing down.
I started with pain pills and graduated to H to "save money" and because it was more readily available. That sounds so stupid now, but at the time it made perfect sense.
Anyway, I tried to kick many times... way more than eight...
What happened with me is what happens with most people. I hit bottom. Now, my bottom wasn't robbing banks or sleeping in the street (thankfully), but it was my bottom. I've heard it said that you don't have to take the elevator all the way down... the heroin addiction elevator goes all the way down to death, as we know. You can get off at any floor.
If you're like me, you'll have to decide when you've gone down far enough and only then will you do what it takes to get clean and stay clean. You have so much good going on in your life, it sounds like. I had a really hard time staying clean when I managed to maintain my lifestyle. It took some serious blows to my way of life before I became willing to embrace recovery and save my life.
No matter how hard I tried to stay clean, I had a little voice in my head telling me that I could handle things, that I just liked to get high. It was insidious, I couldn't figure out why I couldn't stay clean. I hope you can make that leap and decide not to ride the elevator down any further. Tell your loved ones about the depth of your problem and enlist their aid. Go to meetings, get help from anywhere it can be found.
I did it and so can you.
Sounds like you have managed to maintain pretty well while being addicted... so far. I'm sure you know that one day, if you can't manage to get clean and stay that way, it will all come crashing down.
I started with pain pills and graduated to H to "save money" and because it was more readily available. That sounds so stupid now, but at the time it made perfect sense.
Anyway, I tried to kick many times... way more than eight...
What happened with me is what happens with most people. I hit bottom. Now, my bottom wasn't robbing banks or sleeping in the street (thankfully), but it was my bottom. I've heard it said that you don't have to take the elevator all the way down... the heroin addiction elevator goes all the way down to death, as we know. You can get off at any floor.
If you're like me, you'll have to decide when you've gone down far enough and only then will you do what it takes to get clean and stay clean. You have so much good going on in your life, it sounds like. I had a really hard time staying clean when I managed to maintain my lifestyle. It took some serious blows to my way of life before I became willing to embrace recovery and save my life.
No matter how hard I tried to stay clean, I had a little voice in my head telling me that I could handle things, that I just liked to get high. It was insidious, I couldn't figure out why I couldn't stay clean. I hope you can make that leap and decide not to ride the elevator down any further. Tell your loved ones about the depth of your problem and enlist their aid. Go to meetings, get help from anywhere it can be found.
I did it and so can you.
Hey steph, I really understand u'r predicament. You ask "how do i stop?" "how do I beat this thing?" All i can say is 1st of all u need to touch base with someone who understands, someone who u can share u'r feelings with. Usually there are underlining problems in our lives which make heroin very attractive, we feel safe, secure and loved when we r high. I'm guessing t5hat because u don't have the kind of relationship with u'r mum & dad, u r feeling very alone, isolated and misunderstood by them. You need 2 get some support!! and i don't mean from people who are using. Talk to people who have been there and who are clean and sober.
I started using at 15 too, i'm now 32, and the only time u r going to kick this is when u r so sick and tired of chasing the drugs. U'll lose everything, u'r youth, u'r innocence, and u'r love 4 life. I just hope and pray that knowing this will be enough of a deterance for u. Do u want to be a drug addict the rest of u'r ;life, with nobody trusting u? with your family giving up on you because it's too painful for them to cope with? U'll probably lose all u'r teeth and finally all u'r self worth and self respect. I know i sound harsh honey, but sometimes we need a bit of tough love, and i only wish somebody had pointed out the pitfalls to me when i started down this road. You can get clean and have a great life!! I guess the question u have 2 ask u'rself is: "Do i want to live a happy full life? OR do i want to give in to the rough times i'm going through now by using drugs?" You are young yet, and u will learn how to manage u'r life, it takes guts and will, but u won't be able to learn wisdom if u'f high or off u'r face u'r whole life. Even now i am having to pick up where i left off, being in a haze the last 15 years has kept me emotioanlly stunted, I haven't been clear headed for so long, that now it's like i'm still 15 years old not 32. I've missed so much living and learning. But now i'm doing it and i'm learning that life is great!!!! I just hope it doesn't take u as long as it took me to figure it out. If u ever want to talk or shoot the breeze i am here, but in the meantime find a councellor or a sponser who u can confide u'r day 2 day ups and downswith. SUPPORT IS THE ONLY WAY!!!!
I'm rooting 4 u, I know how hard things seem at the moment but life does get better and easier, these r the tough years, the years when u don't quite know who u r yet. But as u go thru life u'll shine! As long as u want a good life, u have a good fighting chance. WE ARE ALL ROOTING 4 YOU! All the best sweertheart. hugs!!
I started using at 15 too, i'm now 32, and the only time u r going to kick this is when u r so sick and tired of chasing the drugs. U'll lose everything, u'r youth, u'r innocence, and u'r love 4 life. I just hope and pray that knowing this will be enough of a deterance for u. Do u want to be a drug addict the rest of u'r ;life, with nobody trusting u? with your family giving up on you because it's too painful for them to cope with? U'll probably lose all u'r teeth and finally all u'r self worth and self respect. I know i sound harsh honey, but sometimes we need a bit of tough love, and i only wish somebody had pointed out the pitfalls to me when i started down this road. You can get clean and have a great life!! I guess the question u have 2 ask u'rself is: "Do i want to live a happy full life? OR do i want to give in to the rough times i'm going through now by using drugs?" You are young yet, and u will learn how to manage u'r life, it takes guts and will, but u won't be able to learn wisdom if u'f high or off u'r face u'r whole life. Even now i am having to pick up where i left off, being in a haze the last 15 years has kept me emotioanlly stunted, I haven't been clear headed for so long, that now it's like i'm still 15 years old not 32. I've missed so much living and learning. But now i'm doing it and i'm learning that life is great!!!! I just hope it doesn't take u as long as it took me to figure it out. If u ever want to talk or shoot the breeze i am here, but in the meantime find a councellor or a sponser who u can confide u'r day 2 day ups and downswith. SUPPORT IS THE ONLY WAY!!!!
I'm rooting 4 u, I know how hard things seem at the moment but life does get better and easier, these r the tough years, the years when u don't quite know who u r yet. But as u go thru life u'll shine! As long as u want a good life, u have a good fighting chance. WE ARE ALL ROOTING 4 YOU! All the best sweertheart. hugs!!
thank u so much everyone. all those posts really made me feel like ppl really care. i appreciate it. i really do. i didnt think anyone was going to post back.i couldnt even finish reading any of it without crying my face off. im sorry for everything u all have been thru, it breaks my heart. but i just still dont know what to do for the first step! my friend said she would go to a meeting with me but its still too hard to talk to ppl there..i feel like there all best friends there and im just a random. i would honestly really love to go to a doctor or a rehab but i cant afford that and i cant let my parents or anyone know. ugh. i just feel like im stuck and its really embarassing! everything in my life has come so easy to me except this. i feel like i really want to just give up, i have sat there and thought so many times and wondered just how much i would have to do to OD. my other friend always tells me how im a junkie and no ones ever gonna love me from this and im starting to think its true! i know hes just trying to make me stop but idk..i really dont care what its doing to my body, i actually feel pretty healthy. i just know i cant b like this forever and im sick of living a double life. what made u guys want to stop and what was the first thing u did??? most of all...how the hell did u stick to it??!!!??
mom staying strong,
i tried to go to yer webpage but it took me back to the same page? is there another link?
i tried to go to yer webpage but it took me back to the same page? is there another link?
im sorry for posting again like this, i really am. but reading all this is really starting to freak me out! its really scaring me and i cant stop crying. i really dont know what to do..i just really want someone to talk to and help me. I feel like i cant ask for help cuz i feel like its selfish. i feel like i did this to myself and i need to deal with it myself, not put my problems on other people. i feel like all this is just my consequences for my actions so y should i get help? ugh idk..my mind is racing now.
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Please do not be embrassed to ask for help. If my grandson had been open with me he would not be dead. It's almost 2 years since he died and the pain is still with me.I did not understand at the time the hold that herion can have on a person. Seek help, go to meetings do all that is neccessary. Matthew my angel will help you through this!
Please do not be embrassed to ask for help. If my grandson had been open with me he would not be dead. It's almost 2 years since he died and the pain is still with me.I did not understand at the time the hold that herion can have on a person. Seek help, go to meetings do all that is neccessary. Matthew my angel will help you through this!
So what if you did it to yourself...that doesn't mean you don't deserve help. We all do things to ourselves...some smoke and get cancer, should they not get help with it? Some overeat and have a heart attack...should they not see a doctor? And people who 'hate' you for being an addict, that's just ignorance, but it's hurtful and you should stay away from it.
I am the mother of a 24 year old heroin addict currently in recovery...don't stop trying before the miracle happens...but it won't happen without you reaching out for it. Hang in there Steph...we're rootng for you.
Now get your @ss to an NA meeting ASAP.
Peace ~ MomNMore
I am the mother of a 24 year old heroin addict currently in recovery...don't stop trying before the miracle happens...but it won't happen without you reaching out for it. Hang in there Steph...we're rootng for you.
Now get your @ss to an NA meeting ASAP.
Peace ~ MomNMore
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you guys are all so great! i really wish i could b as strong as all of u. all you moms who lost your kids/grandkids my heart goes out to you, i would never want my family to go thru that. I would never wish pain upon them for something that I did..it really makes me think. i just dont understand how my life turned into thiss. maybe u all are right and I should just try a meeting, i just dont know how u approach someone about that!
it took me long enuf to tell my friends and they r the only ppl ive been able to tell.
I hate how they hate me for it but I guess I would hate me to if i were them. It is really gross but i dont know how to explain to them that i really cant help it! they keep telling me that "if u really wanna stop, just stop. its that easy." its really not that easy at all tho and I'm glad u all understand that! it really takes a weight off my shoulder and makes me not feel so crazy! i don't even know what to say anymore! is there any more to say? or should i even try? i just dont want them to hate me and i reallllllly dont want them to leave me!
I am SOOOOO glad i found this website tho and i appreciate all the posts, i really do. u all are really helping to save my life and i am sooo thankful! especially since none of u know me! it really does make me feel like someone cares.
Maybe i will try an NA meeting this weekend tho, maybe it will be easier than im thinking. i just like to take care and helping other people, but i hate asking for help, and being a burden on others. i will keep you all updated!
thanks you all for the help and please dont stop! i LOVEE coming home from work and reading these posts, i really do! i have never felt like there were more people on my side ever before! you will be payed back for your time and care one day, i promise.
you guys are all so great! i really wish i could b as strong as all of u. all you moms who lost your kids/grandkids my heart goes out to you, i would never want my family to go thru that. I would never wish pain upon them for something that I did..it really makes me think. i just dont understand how my life turned into thiss. maybe u all are right and I should just try a meeting, i just dont know how u approach someone about that!
it took me long enuf to tell my friends and they r the only ppl ive been able to tell.
I hate how they hate me for it but I guess I would hate me to if i were them. It is really gross but i dont know how to explain to them that i really cant help it! they keep telling me that "if u really wanna stop, just stop. its that easy." its really not that easy at all tho and I'm glad u all understand that! it really takes a weight off my shoulder and makes me not feel so crazy! i don't even know what to say anymore! is there any more to say? or should i even try? i just dont want them to hate me and i reallllllly dont want them to leave me!
I am SOOOOO glad i found this website tho and i appreciate all the posts, i really do. u all are really helping to save my life and i am sooo thankful! especially since none of u know me! it really does make me feel like someone cares.
Maybe i will try an NA meeting this weekend tho, maybe it will be easier than im thinking. i just like to take care and helping other people, but i hate asking for help, and being a burden on others. i will keep you all updated!
thanks you all for the help and please dont stop! i LOVEE coming home from work and reading these posts, i really do! i have never felt like there were more people on my side ever before! you will be payed back for your time and care one day, i promise.
You don't have to approach anyone to attend an NA meeting. HERE'S a link, choose "Option 1" when the page pops up then follow the drop-down menus. You could also attend an AA meeting which is often easier to find in smaller communities.
Go, sit, and listen...you don't have to talk. At some point during the meeting, usually at the start the chair will ask any first-timers to raise their hands and you will be welcomed. Sometimes and old-timer will approach you after the meeting and reach out to you. It's entirely up to you how involved you get. Many people go to meetings and just listen for awhile...do not feel compelled to 'share' unless you want to...sometimes we learn more just by listening to others who have found some tools for coping with their addictions.
The only 'requirement' for attendance is a desire to get clean...you don't have to have any clean time at all to attend...there are using police to worry about...lol. And please, whatever you do, do not worry about anonymity or seeing people you know...everyone is there for the same reason : help with an addiction.
Peace ~ MomNMore
Go, sit, and listen...you don't have to talk. At some point during the meeting, usually at the start the chair will ask any first-timers to raise their hands and you will be welcomed. Sometimes and old-timer will approach you after the meeting and reach out to you. It's entirely up to you how involved you get. Many people go to meetings and just listen for awhile...do not feel compelled to 'share' unless you want to...sometimes we learn more just by listening to others who have found some tools for coping with their addictions.
The only 'requirement' for attendance is a desire to get clean...you don't have to have any clean time at all to attend...there are using police to worry about...lol. And please, whatever you do, do not worry about anonymity or seeing people you know...everyone is there for the same reason : help with an addiction.
Peace ~ MomNMore
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Hello again, I am happy to hear that this is helping you. The people at the meetings are the ones who know exactly how you feel They have been there, going through it or have a loved one who has. You do not have to explain anything to them. They know already and will embrace
you and give you strength. Do this not only for yourself but for all of us.
Hello again, I am happy to hear that this is helping you. The people at the meetings are the ones who know exactly how you feel They have been there, going through it or have a loved one who has. You do not have to explain anything to them. They know already and will embrace
you and give you strength. Do this not only for yourself but for all of us.
Well said Mom!!!
After reading this i noticed that you had said further back something that i,ve always thought....
I,ve tried fr years now to stay clean..When rtying,n,fcukin up several times i,ve actually had this conversation with people,,usually my nearest,n,dearest..AT THE TIME...
When it had been pointed out to me on more than one occassion that i,d been in this position before my anser was,has always been the same....Whadda you want me too do??Give up trying??The way that i,ve always seen this is that if i had to give up trying to stay clean then that really would be the straw that broke the camels back..I believe that to have no hope etc would be a very bad way of thinking to have got yerself into and that your mental state must be worse than usual...Sure you have to work hard at it and really want it but as Mom says.."dont give up"If at 1st you dont succeed etc....
Eck....
ps,mom,,,Ive never heard from KK...I,ll maybe drop her an e,mail,n,see how she is and if she,s a MRS yet..x
After reading this i noticed that you had said further back something that i,ve always thought....
I,ve tried fr years now to stay clean..When rtying,n,fcukin up several times i,ve actually had this conversation with people,,usually my nearest,n,dearest..AT THE TIME...
When it had been pointed out to me on more than one occassion that i,d been in this position before my anser was,has always been the same....Whadda you want me too do??Give up trying??The way that i,ve always seen this is that if i had to give up trying to stay clean then that really would be the straw that broke the camels back..I believe that to have no hope etc would be a very bad way of thinking to have got yerself into and that your mental state must be worse than usual...Sure you have to work hard at it and really want it but as Mom says.."dont give up"If at 1st you dont succeed etc....
Eck....
ps,mom,,,Ive never heard from KK...I,ll maybe drop her an e,mail,n,see how she is and if she,s a MRS yet..x
Please do, Eckie...I worry about her, though she sounded real good last time she posted.
xoxo - M&M
xoxo - M&M
Hi, Steph,
Please, dont let people make you feel bad for what you are doing. YOU KONW its not good and that's enough. Its hard to end up using and facing up to it and trying to get off; I think some people are born lucky, they can cope better than others, they are healthy mentally or physiqually, just like some are born pretty or talented etc.
For us, we just have this stupid weakness and in the end, it the most difficult thing in the world to say no to yourself, just like some people can say no to a big cake when they are at a friend's then eat loads when back home alone. If you can follow what I mean!!
Just dont stop trying, one day you will find the right time, the right way, and I hope you find it soon.
Its good to be able to write to people you dont know, who dont know you, but are in the same boat, be it at different stages of their journey ;its he beauty of this site.
See how much support and response you got!
But try to do it sooner rather thn later or you'll regret all that wasted time.
Good luck, dont give up.
Please, dont let people make you feel bad for what you are doing. YOU KONW its not good and that's enough. Its hard to end up using and facing up to it and trying to get off; I think some people are born lucky, they can cope better than others, they are healthy mentally or physiqually, just like some are born pretty or talented etc.
For us, we just have this stupid weakness and in the end, it the most difficult thing in the world to say no to yourself, just like some people can say no to a big cake when they are at a friend's then eat loads when back home alone. If you can follow what I mean!!
Just dont stop trying, one day you will find the right time, the right way, and I hope you find it soon.
Its good to be able to write to people you dont know, who dont know you, but are in the same boat, be it at different stages of their journey ;its he beauty of this site.
See how much support and response you got!
But try to do it sooner rather thn later or you'll regret all that wasted time.
Good luck, dont give up.
ugh so ive been gone for awhile..and im still in the same position -____- i still suck. i actually did get clean a couple of times for a few days. but no one believes me which is the most annoying part. I honestly dont even know what to say anymore, it just makes me feel better writing on here and hearing people that care!
I know im going to regret it later if i dont stop now. its like people think that i dont wanna stop. i do, i really do. i dont get y my hand always somehow gets to the ATM to get money, no matter how much my mind says no. i just feel like smoething needs to happen. either i need to get clean or this s*** just needs to kill me already! its like really driving me nuts!
i really just wanna prove to my 2 friends that i can do it cuz they said they have no hope anymore and i feel like an idiot.! i just really want them to understand. he thinks that by calling me a junkie nd saying i deserve to die is gonna make me stop, he dont get that it really does get to me! ugh im sorry for blabbering on, i dont even know what to say it just feels good to vent!
also, have any of u been hooked on oxy contin before? what was harder to get off of? heroin or oxy contin? oxy contin is what i was really hooked on (until it was taken away). I feltl ike the withdrawls from OC were wayy worse, but heroin is harder to stop. it has my brain wayyy more hooked.
i cannot believe that i am in this situation. its like a dream...a nightmare for that matter. please keep in touch! <3
I know im going to regret it later if i dont stop now. its like people think that i dont wanna stop. i do, i really do. i dont get y my hand always somehow gets to the ATM to get money, no matter how much my mind says no. i just feel like smoething needs to happen. either i need to get clean or this s*** just needs to kill me already! its like really driving me nuts!
i really just wanna prove to my 2 friends that i can do it cuz they said they have no hope anymore and i feel like an idiot.! i just really want them to understand. he thinks that by calling me a junkie nd saying i deserve to die is gonna make me stop, he dont get that it really does get to me! ugh im sorry for blabbering on, i dont even know what to say it just feels good to vent!
also, have any of u been hooked on oxy contin before? what was harder to get off of? heroin or oxy contin? oxy contin is what i was really hooked on (until it was taken away). I feltl ike the withdrawls from OC were wayy worse, but heroin is harder to stop. it has my brain wayyy more hooked.
i cannot believe that i am in this situation. its like a dream...a nightmare for that matter. please keep in touch! <3
