Pam
I don't see how killing a bird is funny. What am I missing?
There is NOTHING funny about killing a bird. And on top of that, one someone is very fond of...............
Hey Kat, listen I really didn't mean to kill the bird. For Real, I was just sick after I got home from detox and forgot to bring the bird inside.....I even gave him a proper burial. Sorry if this post offended you as it was not intended to. Ali's post just made me giggle because it reminded me of the stupid things I did when I was w/d. Really, I have never even ran over an animal while driving down the road and I have a house full of pets and I love them all dearly... Sorry, really sorry Kat...
OK Pam. I understand.
NOTE TO SELF
posted about tammy, told the whole thing...scared to do it, but felt right somehow...been on the board for about 3 weeks and have a certain element of trust in the people despite recent banter..lol and how this board spreads the message, so did it.
Just read back at things i said BEFORE posting about tammy....the anger? Am i angry at her? Forgiven her for leaving? These questions were presented to me and perhaps ARE the root of my anger and overwhelming emotion lately.
This board has been a journey....making me do and ask of myself things i could not before.
I am blesssed to have come here.
Grateful.
Hug to self,
Ali
posted about tammy, told the whole thing...scared to do it, but felt right somehow...been on the board for about 3 weeks and have a certain element of trust in the people despite recent banter..lol and how this board spreads the message, so did it.
Just read back at things i said BEFORE posting about tammy....the anger? Am i angry at her? Forgiven her for leaving? These questions were presented to me and perhaps ARE the root of my anger and overwhelming emotion lately.
This board has been a journey....making me do and ask of myself things i could not before.
I am blesssed to have come here.
Grateful.
Hug to self,
Ali
You are blessed, and my prayers are with you. Dont EVER give up hope, even when you feel the world is caving in on you and your birds dont come back. Just take it one day at a time, time is the healer of all wounds....
Stay Strong and True Happiness will be your reward.
~Flowers~
Stay Strong and True Happiness will be your reward.
~Flowers~
Flowers,
you did it again....stop IT!!! You made me smile.
i just left you another post on YOUR thread, must have just missed each other, both writing on one anothers threads...lol
You are wonderful.
Thankyou...i plan to keep this thread going till im free and clear of the drug taking.....then save it to my computer in case i ever feel the need to reach for them again....Now your part of my future...and my past...lol
thanks Flower,
Hugs,
Ali
you did it again....stop IT!!! You made me smile.
i just left you another post on YOUR thread, must have just missed each other, both writing on one anothers threads...lol
You are wonderful.
Thankyou...i plan to keep this thread going till im free and clear of the drug taking.....then save it to my computer in case i ever feel the need to reach for them again....Now your part of my future...and my past...lol
thanks Flower,
Hugs,
Ali
Ali,
Personally for me it was best to investigate my feelings and emotions AFTER I was clean. Even then it is not somthing advisable in early recovery. To deal with issues while you are still on the vicodin is not productive. You will want to go through it all over again after you have a clear head and a clean system. Concentrate on the taper for now. Anger is a defense against fear in most cases and its my guess your fear is rooted in giving up the dope you are on. Thats normal. It doesnt matter either way, just get off the stuff first. You are doing no service to yourself in trying to deal with past issues now. You deserve better. Keep on keein' with the taper babe!
Hugs,
Ben
Personally for me it was best to investigate my feelings and emotions AFTER I was clean. Even then it is not somthing advisable in early recovery. To deal with issues while you are still on the vicodin is not productive. You will want to go through it all over again after you have a clear head and a clean system. Concentrate on the taper for now. Anger is a defense against fear in most cases and its my guess your fear is rooted in giving up the dope you are on. Thats normal. It doesnt matter either way, just get off the stuff first. You are doing no service to yourself in trying to deal with past issues now. You deserve better. Keep on keein' with the taper babe!
Hugs,
Ben
Ben,
you are absolutely right THIS TIME..lolol
Except its dilaudid, not vicodin...Canada doesnt have vicodin..thANK GOD.
But you are right. Once im down to 0 will book in to see a therapist and
discuss those things in detail.
i went to see her before, right after Tammy died, for some kind of post traumatic
stress thing or something..my husband made me and i think everyone was
scared for me...but i only went twice and couldnt talk about it..
Kept staring at the and the clock above her head...watched her stare at me and
write things down...justsat there waiting for my hour to be up.
Cant believe you popped in when you did.
Your my lucky charm.
And your right.
Big thankyou hug Ben,
Ali
you are absolutely right THIS TIME..lolol
Except its dilaudid, not vicodin...Canada doesnt have vicodin..thANK GOD.
But you are right. Once im down to 0 will book in to see a therapist and
discuss those things in detail.
i went to see her before, right after Tammy died, for some kind of post traumatic
stress thing or something..my husband made me and i think everyone was
scared for me...but i only went twice and couldnt talk about it..
Kept staring at the and the clock above her head...watched her stare at me and
write things down...justsat there waiting for my hour to be up.
Cant believe you popped in when you did.
Your my lucky charm.
And your right.
Big thankyou hug Ben,
Ali
Ali, this is nut, lol... I just got through reading your story about your friend Tammy. I felt like I wanted to know your whole story. I feel your pain, and now more than ever, I can truly understand where your coming from. Shake that guilt your holding on to. Use your friend's spirit to guide you, she is with you every step of the way...
~Flowers~
~Flowers~
Flower.............
thank you luv..its a hard story to tell...has taken a long time to tell all..
and cant believe i finally do it on the internet...but its the right place..it could
help others and make something positive come from her passing. i was just
scared Id be judged. have enough guilt as it is...IF only id come home
sooner...IF only I had made her come too..IF IF IF...cripes..but you are right in
whatyou said.
thank you for saying that.
i go to bed with your kind thoughts in my head and heart.
You are a doll.
Hugs,
Ali
thank you luv..its a hard story to tell...has taken a long time to tell all..
and cant believe i finally do it on the internet...but its the right place..it could
help others and make something positive come from her passing. i was just
scared Id be judged. have enough guilt as it is...IF only id come home
sooner...IF only I had made her come too..IF IF IF...cripes..but you are right in
whatyou said.
thank you for saying that.
i go to bed with your kind thoughts in my head and heart.
You are a doll.
Hugs,
Ali
