Question - Was I The Only One?

I doubt if I was the only one to do this but thought it may help the newcomers not to think they are "bad" people.

When you would go to p'up your prescription, how many of you would make sure you had a bottle of water with you or w'ever so you could pop 3 or more as soon as you got in the car?
I keep a bottle of water with me all of the time but sometimes I would almost choke b/c I would not have enough water for 3 Lortabs but got them down anyway.

Was this just me or could the rest of you wait 'til you got home? Not me!


Love,
Jean
jean,

mine was diet coke and i know this is sick but if i didnt have one i chewed up my pills and ate em.

terrianne
I didn't thnk about that or I would have done it - I think most people get home before they take their pills - I couldn't wait - they kicked in within 20 minutes and I didn't want to wait.

Love you,
Mom Jean
Hi,
Sometimes I took them before I left the pharmacy cause I couldn't wait. I hated standing there shaking waiting for my script. What a horrible feeling. I am so glad I am not in that hell now.

gi
Jean your right the full setup is a drink to drop a dose at the pharm a beer there if you want a good boost Roger
Jean I never ran out of pills. Once a month saw dr feel good and the pharnacy was a private one in the doctors building. There MARRIED if you know what I mean.

Very conveniant.--LOL

Jeff
hahaha rodger,

i have heard of that too, good thing i never liked beer, i would prolly be dead.

gina,

i was like you i would hit the pharmacy and buy a pop to chase them with in the car in the parking lot.

terrianne
I don't even take pills but i can totally relate to what you are saying.
Why wait when you can get the high started now?
Karen
I could always swallow pills w/o water. But after I started taking them by the handful I started chewing them. Plus it seemed like they worked faster, or at least that's what I wanted to believe. And no, I didn't wait to get home. The pharmacy parking lot was as far as I got. Atlas
I had forgotten about the shaking - ohhh - bad - I know the Pharmacist would. notice
.I was alone at work one day and called DR to call in Lortabs - I was shaking bad - 2 hours left on a Friday to work - rule was to haev one person in office at all times. I put a note on the door (be back in 10 minutes) it was a 15 min drive just to the pharmacy b/c I had to go to one that I had not given my drug card to - already had a 'script going on there. I wish it wasn't so easy to forget how I played with fire.

Love, Jean
atlas,

no chewing them definately made them work faster.

terrianne
I never ran out with the "Lortab DR" but at the end - he posted a big sign that said due to SC law or s'thing - only 120 a month MAX on all Narcotics - when he had been giving me around 500 a month -

That was trouble for me.

Jean
The georgia state law is 120 pills is the limtied here .I got pers. and they are not allowed to wroite refills on them.The loracets and ect. can be have refilies ,when i seen you had posted before about getting 500 a month off your script i thought how in the he**.But,guess different state are diffeent?
Now
i would get my 100 pers. for my doctor then had people i bought from.One guy i just started getting his he gets 120 a month 10/650 and a refill but, you could not get the refill until 30 days and that refill was for a following month.If i was out and didnt have any pills in my system yeah i would have a cup of tea or something i fixed before i left home or i would get a something to drink from pharmacy or store if i was out of pills.I have also bought and got some cough syrup and some of it was better then,my pills but wouldnt last but 1 day.It just all depended on if i have not had any that day if i didnt i would take 2 right in the car.When i bought from friends or anyone i never let them know how i was feeling and i would wait until i left before i took any.I guess its like when my mother and father and law comes over if im smokeing i put it out .I dont smoke in front of them i guess it for respect for them.My husband would go get his moms pills for me and say it was for him in the end.B/C he use to say they were for me and they were starting to say things like she takeing them too much and tey alsoknew i got them from my doctor they would say dont she have some he would say yes but, they are not good and dont hep her pain.My mother and law she said there something wrong you are always sick I would always say i had a virus or cold .She would say you should stay sick like that all the time.Im still withdral from them nut,not as much as i use to be ..crystal
Jean i remember having no pills and searching my handbag wow i found one covered in fluff and dirt it was disgusting never the less i put it in water and drunk the pill fluff and all. jaxxxxxxx
Oh, how many times I have searched and searched. All handbags and all spots around the house. Pulled out fridge, etc. I always kept the round white percs in w/ my altoids. Many times I would go to eat some and get a pleasant surprise. Or, I would eat all of the altoids to make sure there were no extra percs in there. On the rare occasion I found one, I felt like I won the lottery.
Geeze..talk about a trigger thread.... yuk.
Ha ,i have never lost or forgot any pills anywhere that was something i kept up with.Inew it wouldnt do any good to search for any.I would take so many and swear someone stole some of my pills.I took sooooo many.I would think did i just take one then i say i dont thnik so,then id take another one.it was a common thing .At times id had 20 too many,,,crystal
Cowgirl
This thread it just reminds me of how bad things were and it just reminds me i dont want to go back to doing these kind of things..I triggers me in the right direction to stay away from useing.....take care crystal
Glad to hear that Crystal..It takes what it takes.

Gave me cravings. Again..yuk.

Have a good night.
Cowgirl
Cowgirl, I, in no way would try and start a trigger thread. I just wondered if all did what I did or if I was the only "one" who couldn't even wait for a 5 minute drive home - depending on the pharmacy where I got them. Please et me know if you think I am triggering anyone, I will stop or the Mods I'm sure will close it down. I don't think the others took it that way. it's like we see another crazy part of addiction. I don't want to find more pills, I don't look. There may be some here, I don't know or care at the time.
I hope and pray this thread didn't cause any actually using. That would break my heart. It just seemed e'one else who posted had something they wanted to add.


Atlas and Jackie:

How many times would I go though my hiding plces. I hope it's at least 30-40 years from now but I won't be here and I would still hate for my sons to find a few I had stuffed somewhere.
I usually would find a few if I looked. That's what's so odd about this time. I have only cleaned out my purse in abut 3 months - a job a don't care for - had about 5-6$ in change in there - WOOOHOOO
Reading about e'thing that goes on this board takes time - time that I used to be climbing and stooping and that hurts my joints - this doesn't and I"M CLEAN -YAY! - Also, I haven't craved any - I think that's odd but I'll take it - I wish no one would crave those things.
I felt so guilty last Christmas, I was getting out all of my Christams stuff - in this chest, we keep all of this and e'thing else, too in it. Good storage. It's an 8 foot long 9 drawer oak chest my husband built and it does come in handy. As soon as I started , I found (4) Lortabs wrapped in a red Christam table cloth. That was one of the many times I had quit and my husbad said "you look like you're having so much fun, you wouldn't look so happy if you had those pills in your system. I had taken all 4 of them I didn't tell him the truth. GUILT!


Jackie:

I found one between the stove and the cabinet, had to sweep it out and I took it. Had the same stuff in it plus all the dirt and lint.


Gagrl:

I remember the feeling of finding a few - it was like $100.

I meant this thread as how I think you took it, too. I hope so, and others will take it the same way, now we see how crazy we can be as addicts - we don't eat off the floor. didn't bother me a bit at the time.

In my 30's and the "Lortab" DR was giving out unlimited pills, that law must have started at that time or either he wasn't abiding by it. He was very cocky. I just went in that day and big poster saying max Narcotics 120 a month. I would take 120 in 2 weeks and get sick. I would ask him what had changed - that he used to give me many more and he would say "I have never given you more than this" He lied so maybe the law had been in effect and he had not been abiding by it. I told him I had probably a couple of emplty bottles with larger quanties on them and he would brush it aside saying they didn't come from him We, in the waiting room would talk about it so I knew I wasn't crazy.

I didn't know anyone to buy from on the street - thank goodnes now b/c I would have and I had heard you could buy on the Internet - but I never looked it up b/c that's illegal or so I thought - I looked one day (in the last few months b/c people on the board were saying they did buy on the Internet) and learned you can if you want to pay a fortune and run out of money - which I would have done had it been more than 4 1/2 monhs ago - may as well tell the truth. I handle the money in the house, always have and he trusts me - it would take a while to "get caught" not that we are close to rich - that's even a joke, but he would see late notices and stuff like that so I wouldn't have gotten away with it for long. Thank goodness again. It should be against the law but there would be a lot of sick people out there in W/D's. I can't even imagine how many - some have tons of money and wouldn't run out.

Oh, and Terri, I would have chewed if I knew they worked faster, I just didn't know.
Aren't we so glad it's over and I hope and pray for all of us.

I really hope this helped and didn't hurt or trigger anyone.
Love to all, Jean