Lisa, you know I respect you, but I do have one observation, How is this topic a trigger, but Ginas and the one you started about Halloween Stories, not?
Please know I am not starting anything here, far from it, just trying to figure out what or If I am not reading into the posts fully.
Are they all not the same thing, just worded differently? If I am wrong then I will say I am.
Again, not trying to start a war, so to those who feel a need to jump me or Lisa, please don't. We are all adults and can discuss things in an adult matter.
Sincerely,
Brook
No triggers here. In fact, since I've joined the board and read the words I have written, my old behaviors seem strange and sick. Eating off the floor? Chewing up pills? Those generic oxycotins taste like paint thinner, or that's what I imagine paint thinner to taste like. I would chew and gag, chew and gag until they were almost dissolved. I'm gagging just thinking about it.
I was always too chicken to order off the internet, but used to stare at the sights during w/d. I don't know why.
I don't think there is a limit to how many can be prescribed at one time in Ohio. There is a Dr. who will write massive quantities for anyone. My m-in-law only uses as needed, but he writes her 360 5/325 percs and also 30 10mg. oc per month. And even though I was taking the majority of them, he didn't blink an eye to write her more. BTW she also knows about my addiction and now keeps them under lock and key, at my request. I told her to just hide them would not be enough. This Dr. also had a friend of mine up to 90 oxy 40's, 90 10/325 percs and 120 flexril per month. He didn't even know what a pain pill was when he went to this Dr. After a few months he decided no more and flushed it all and never went back. He stopped CT and detoxed on his own. Couldn't get out of bed for 9 days. Has never craved after that. I guess that's the difference between an addict and a non-addict. But this Dr. could have easily destroyed his life, and probably has destroyed many other lives. I've been thinking about calling the medical board and complaining. This guy is turning people into addicts who would have otherwise not used.
I was always too chicken to order off the internet, but used to stare at the sights during w/d. I don't know why.
I don't think there is a limit to how many can be prescribed at one time in Ohio. There is a Dr. who will write massive quantities for anyone. My m-in-law only uses as needed, but he writes her 360 5/325 percs and also 30 10mg. oc per month. And even though I was taking the majority of them, he didn't blink an eye to write her more. BTW she also knows about my addiction and now keeps them under lock and key, at my request. I told her to just hide them would not be enough. This Dr. also had a friend of mine up to 90 oxy 40's, 90 10/325 percs and 120 flexril per month. He didn't even know what a pain pill was when he went to this Dr. After a few months he decided no more and flushed it all and never went back. He stopped CT and detoxed on his own. Couldn't get out of bed for 9 days. Has never craved after that. I guess that's the difference between an addict and a non-addict. But this Dr. could have easily destroyed his life, and probably has destroyed many other lives. I've been thinking about calling the medical board and complaining. This guy is turning people into addicts who would have otherwise not used.
I went straight from the drs office to the pharmacy. They sold soda inside the pharmacy and I always bought a coke along with buying my prescriptions. My dose was swallowed before I put my seat belt on.
I only give myself credit for one thing.....I never put a soma in my mouth until I got home.I never drove taking those. I'm glad that is one yet I never made it to. I might not be here now.
Love, Kat
I only give myself credit for one thing.....I never put a soma in my mouth until I got home.I never drove taking those. I'm glad that is one yet I never made it to. I might not be here now.
Love, Kat
Water? Soda? HA! I would be ripping the bag apart before I got out of the store and swallow them dry. By the time the script was filled I was usually in such bad shape I couldn't wait.
To answer the question before starting the Sub I could swallow 2 Ultrams at a time with nothing.Does that make me someone special???No now it just makes me ashamed....mj
You know what Molly? I was thinking about you saying you being ashamed now. I've thought hard and long about feelings like that. I think that being an addict wasn't and isn't such a terrible thing. Look how far we've come and what we've learned! It was a difficult and often embarrassing journey, but I think we came out of it better people. I think we had to do some ridiculous and insane things for us to really get to the point we knew we needed help. Don't be ashamed Molly, be proud of who you are now. (smile)
Hey 12 stepper, is your name Kat too? I was noticing you email address and curious. Love, Kat
Hey 12 stepper, is your name Kat too? I was noticing you email address and curious. Love, Kat
Hi Kat
Yep
Kat
Yep
Kat
Kat A BIG ((((((((((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))))))FOR YOU.That was so sweet thank you.....mj
Big (((((((( HUG)))))))) right back at you, Molly.
Fellow Kat,
what is yours short for? My real name is Kathleen (shudder) but went by Kathy in school. All my life though, family and close friends called me Kat.
Fellow Kat,
what is yours short for? My real name is Kathleen (shudder) but went by Kathy in school. All my life though, family and close friends called me Kat.
Thank you Kat:
I just needed that today.
You always look on the bright side.
I was a no sleeper last night so I'm oing to go and try and sleep a couple of hours - then I will be peppier. Left side is killing me.
Thanks to all of you - yeah I had to get to those Lortabs - a.s.a.p.FAST!!!
I just wondred if I ws an addict or crazy - I'm a crazy addict haha
No, I'm a recovering addict.
Thanks again to all - Kat, you said it all just now,
Love you,
Jean
I just needed that today.
You always look on the bright side.
I was a no sleeper last night so I'm oing to go and try and sleep a couple of hours - then I will be peppier. Left side is killing me.
Thanks to all of you - yeah I had to get to those Lortabs - a.s.a.p.FAST!!!
I just wondred if I ws an addict or crazy - I'm a crazy addict haha
No, I'm a recovering addict.
Thanks again to all - Kat, you said it all just now,
Love you,
Jean
Hi Brook...I don't know why this one was a trigger...it just was. Started all kinds of icky thoughts.
Please don't get me wrong...did anyone see where I said that this thread shouldn't have been started? I just responded in the way that I needed too.
Have a good morning.
Please don't get me wrong...did anyone see where I said that this thread shouldn't have been started? I just responded in the way that I needed too.
Have a good morning.
Lisa isnt it odd the things that can trigger one person & not another?I guess we all have different crosses to bare.Like for me watching "intervention"was a trigger dont ask me why Im dahhh as to why,but it just goes to show how different we all are yet how we all have that common bond....mj
CG:
I just hope and pray that it doesn't cause you to act on this trigger. There are many more threads - new people needing help. It feels really good to post to them.
Hope you are okay. I don't u'satnd why the trigger but pls just don't act on it. Go to other threads if you need to - I know that helps.
Jean
I just hope and pray that it doesn't cause you to act on this trigger. There are many more threads - new people needing help. It feels really good to post to them.
Hope you are okay. I don't u'satnd why the trigger but pls just don't act on it. Go to other threads if you need to - I know that helps.
Jean
If this thread is a trigger for you why are you still reading it????????????
MJ..I know, it's kinda wierd. My sponsor who is a meth addict had the same reaction to Intervention. Really messed with her.
I'm strong, I'm grounded and I work a program of recovery every day. I recognize triggers and cravings and I deal with them head on, hence the response to this thread. Act on them? I don't think so. If I worried about every little trigger and that I was going to act on it, I'd be nuts.
Love you Molls
Lisa
I'm strong, I'm grounded and I work a program of recovery every day. I recognize triggers and cravings and I deal with them head on, hence the response to this thread. Act on them? I don't think so. If I worried about every little trigger and that I was going to act on it, I'd be nuts.
Love you Molls
Lisa
Kat
Kat is short for Kathi which is short for Katherine which I hate and makes me feel like an old lady which I am .sigh
Kat is short for Kathi which is short for Katherine which I hate and makes me feel like an old lady which I am .sigh
Jean,
Yes, I did the same thing in the car with my bottle of water.
I don't think this is a trigger thread, I think we need to be able to talk about all aspects of our addiction. Especially some of our crazy addiction seeking behavior. Its reflecting back.
Lovebird
Yes, I did the same thing in the car with my bottle of water.
I don't think this is a trigger thread, I think we need to be able to talk about all aspects of our addiction. Especially some of our crazy addiction seeking behavior. Its reflecting back.
Lovebird
Hi Lovebird I think the point is what can trigger one may not another.As long as we can talk it out with the ones having a hard time.than maybe it will just stay a passing thought & not an action....mj
Annalise...thanks for pointing that out...and isn't it strang that you only post when you want to stir the pot.
As I said, I deal with the triggers head on.
I'm not going to relapse over something that Jean says. So don't worry your pretty little heads over that. All I did was respond to a post. I responded in how I was feeling at the moment. That's how I stay clean. I don't push things down anymore. Is that ok with y'all? Can I do that?
Cowgirl
As I said, I deal with the triggers head on.
I'm not going to relapse over something that Jean says. So don't worry your pretty little heads over that. All I did was respond to a post. I responded in how I was feeling at the moment. That's how I stay clean. I don't push things down anymore. Is that ok with y'all? Can I do that?
Cowgirl
Thank you, Jean.
Annalisa, what's a trigger one day may not be the next. We learn to work through our triggers.
You're so right too, Molly. I have a friend that just by hearing her voice I am triggered. Yet I live with a using addict and he is rarely a trigger for me anymore.
When I do feel triggered I play the tape all the way through. (all the way to choking at the pharmacy and finding imodium ad, lol)
Lisa's a tough cookie.....she acts on a trigger and I'll eat my hat. (grin)
Love, Kat
Annalisa, what's a trigger one day may not be the next. We learn to work through our triggers.
You're so right too, Molly. I have a friend that just by hearing her voice I am triggered. Yet I live with a using addict and he is rarely a trigger for me anymore.
When I do feel triggered I play the tape all the way through. (all the way to choking at the pharmacy and finding imodium ad, lol)
Lisa's a tough cookie.....she acts on a trigger and I'll eat my hat. (grin)
Love, Kat
